Good afternoon beautiful people! I just wanted to blog about trying to lose weight and being at a standstill for a long period. I really want to drop about 30 pounds and it seems that I am fighting like heck just to lose 5 pounds. Now let’s be real. Consistently is a must. I must be consistent and exercise on a regular basis. I must be consistent about eating healthy food. I must be consistent and get my water intake in. There are so many more things I got to do better about. I am very alert and aware of my weight which causes me and my scale to have this love and hate relationship. I am constantly stepping on him just to see what he say. (Yes my scale is a he.) Because only a man can give you various information that’s bad majority of the time. Lol
I personally know that I am always looking in the mirror and I see every imperfections and every flaw on my body. Every woman does this no matter how pretty she is. There will always be an area that you wants fixed. For me it is my weight. I want to lose more pounds because I am so scared of going back to fat Tracy. I sometimes look in the mirror and all I can see is that 340 pound woman. That vision scares the living hell out of me. I used this as a guide to ensure that I don’t get back there.
Nevertheless I always start planning my next day the day before. I have everything all planned out in my head and never do ALL the things I have planned to do and usually it is the stuff that deals with eating and exercise. If I did everything that I planned in my head I would weigh around 140 pounds. I just got to get more consistent period. I know if I could lose a few pounds each week this would motivate me to be more consistent. But I am just like most people I want thing to be easy and that not the case. Even though I had the gastric bypass surgery it is still hard to keep this weight off and keep losing. Then here is the kicker when I finally meet my goals…I will start complaining about something else. However that is not the point right now. The point right now is being consistent as I keep saying in this post.
Another thing that bother me is when I go out to eat with family members. I rarely eat more than 1/4 of my food. However that don’t stop those vultures from watching and waiting for me to finish so they can swallow the rest of my food whole. I don’t know why I let this upsets me but it does and it causes me to overeat because I know they are going to eat my leftovers. I am working on this really hard because this type of gluttony can cause overeating which stretch Shelly the belly. Help me LORD, because this should be my last worry. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I fight this battle that is continuous and never-ending.
I do got news to post about my tests I had this week and a couple of weeks ago. I will post a blog about my results from the supposedly X-ray of my colon. Please note I say supposedly….until later guys and gals!
Love, Peace and Happiness