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Climbing the biggest mountain of my life.

Good evening everybody. I have been slipping with my blogging. However I am back on my grind. I have a son that is graduating from high school and will be attending college….plus I am making and selling desserts with sugar and with low fat sugar free dessert to help pay my bills. Plus I love trying out new recipes and watching someone fall in love with my cakes or whatever desert it is. I have a page on Facebook called Covered in Sugar and Flour. Check it out…. If you know of any good low fat proteins recipes please share them with me. I know you are looking at your screen saying no wonder gain weight…..naw…that’s wasn’t the problem, I got lazy and wasn’t exercising and started sliding eating unhealthy foods. One thing that has helped me refrain from eating any dessert …it the sugar causes a nasty after taste that takes days to leave. I hate that taste so bad. That’s one of the best side effects from gastric bypass surgery. So as you can tell time is not on my side…I am one busy lady.

Nevertheless I am at a major turning point in my weight loss. I am embarking on my 4 year mark since I had my surgery and I have gained about 15 pounds back and that scared the living crap out of me. I refuse to go back to the fat Tracy. So far I have drop 5 pounds because I am going to the gym at least 3 to 4 days a week and watching everything I put in my mouth. I am the light and I controls what goes in my mouth at all times.

You know It is the time of year where everybody realize how out of shape they are because the weather is getting warmer so the gym are packed. But I am not there to people watch I am there to lose weight. I remember when I had this surgery I was dropping pounds left and right. Now it is hard as heck just to lose five pounds. When you are at a stand still it can make you so dang depressed. I wished I had listen to my sister and went even harder when I first had the surgery…then I may be at my weight goal of 165.

If you are a newbie and has just had the surgery go hard because the weight falls off so effortless. When you get to that 2 year Mark it really show downs.

Nevertheless keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I continue to fight this never ending dang battle.

Peace, love and happiness!

Be blessed Tracy

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Its just a Compliment nothing more nothing less….just say thank you!

Good morning beautiful people! I know it has been a while since I posted, but my cake business really picked up and I have been doing everything to help my son prepare for college and his upcoming high school graduation. I promise to get back on my game. Because this is the type of stuff that can derail your weight loss and before you know it you have gain 10, 20 or 30 pound back. I got a lot stuff I want to share with you guys so I will be blogging more.

I want to discuss self image for a minute. You know self image is one of the hardest thing anybody can deal with. When you pass by a mirror and you still see your previous overweight self. Nevertheless it makes it hard to accept compliments from others. I know this is a major issue of mine. Somebody will be like “Tracy girl you are looking good”….and my dumb butt will reply:

“Yea girl but you don’t want to see me naked. ” (Really who wants to see you naked…I got to stop saying this)

“Or shoot I ought to….I can barely eat anything” here another one..

“Did you see this excess skin under my arms, I can knock someone out with these bat wings.”

“Or girl it is that girdle holding everything in”.

Why can’t I just say thank you and keep it moving. For whatever reason I will attach something negative that I am concerned about to it every time. I know others who do this also. It is just hard for some people to accept compliments because we are always so hard on ourselves. Plus I don’t want to get comfortable with all the compliments and think I am fine and I don’t have to put in work anymore.

I am working on my short coming and doing my best to do better. When all I got say is thank you and keep it moving.

Happy Easter everyone!

Peace, Love and Happiness!!

Be blessed

Tracy

Just pure Gluttony ðŸ™„

Good morning beautiful people! Let’s discuss the term gluttony.

The dictionary states that Gluttony is habitual greed or excess in eating. It has also been said that gluttony was one the seven deadly sins. Nevertheless this can not be found in the Bible. However Gluttony is defined in the Bible as excessive eating. Plus it do happen to appears alongside the word drunkenness. So you can say that gluttony is someone who eats more than what is considered as healthy or eats excessively and that such behavior is considered sinful. I have to also say that gluttony is something that someone does all the time and is not something that happens every once in a while.

I know by now you are staring at the page and wondering why am I talking about this. Well give me a sec I am getting there.

Gluttony is something I did and still fight with every day, every hour and every second. I walk in the kitchen and I think about eating something and I am not even hungry. Drive by a restaurant and I think about what I could eat there and here is the problem I don’t be hungry….I just want it because it is accessible to me.

Gluttony is just overeating even when you are full. Take for instant I only put a spoonful of food of each item on my plate. Even though my mind is saying “Girl load that plate up you know Big boy going to eat all that food up”. However I am learning to controlled my mind and not let my mind tell me to overeat it. Because is is a mind game and our stomach were redesigned to tell us when when we are full. All we got to do is just stop and use our newly remanufactored stomach correctly. But naw here comes that good old gluttony trying to tempt us yet again. It is in my own personal opinion that food addictiveness is just as bad being addicted to drugs and alcohol. I mean man sometimes I eat just to eat. For instance I can go into the kitchen to get a glass of water and come back with a bag of popcorn, peanut butter and crackers for no apparent reason at all. I Just want to eat and I know I am not hungry. With any kind of diet…. gluttony is aways knocking at the your door whispering your name tempting you. Stay strong people and focus on meeting your goals. We can do it second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour until those learned behaviors are changed. Also please do not give up if you do over eat. Just refocus and start again. Learn what was your trigger that made you do it the last time and ignore it the next time. And Oh boy I promise you there will be a next time. Stay grounded and learn from you.

Peace, love and Happiness

Be Blessed Tracy

My journey is only beginning

Hello beautiful People! I was discussing my weight loss goals with a friend and explaining how I want to have abs in my mummy tummy. I know, I know you are rolling your eyes and saying not again. Why do this Heifer keep talking about abs that she will never have? You best believe I am going to tell you why! It is simple….I want to know that I can do it. I want to defie all odds, that a 40’s something years old woman who use to weight around 340 pounds now has abs! I want to show other people who are struggling with their own weight that we can do it! We can be that person we all dream about. Now realistically I don’t know if my lose skin will let me have abs. But I be doggone I am going to try. If I an only able to feel them through the skin.

I believe we have to take what we are given and lay it out on the table and figure out how to make the most out of it. It is sort like grapes…you can do so many different things with grapes. Such as making grape wine, grape jelly, grape juice, grape salad and other things from grapes. Basically you are able to take one product and expand it in so many directions. My weight is the same way. I don’t want to just lose weight and look and feel good for me. I want to motivate others to lose weight also. I want to spread my positively letting other know about the benefits of losing those extra pounds. I want to take my weight loss and make my self grow in all kinds of directions. Showing all the positive things I gained from it. Now don’t get me wrong I know there are also negative things from my weight loss but the good outweigh the bad tremendously! There is just so much more that I can do now and I am happy to say having Gastric Bypass surgery change my life for the better.

Love, Peace and Happiness’

Be Blessed Tracy!

Abs are not age restricted!

Good morning beautiful people! As you all know I am on this major mission to reach my goal weight. The struggle is real as heck. I swear I see little pieces of Hershey chocolate floating around in the air and they be calling my name saying …”Tracyyyy, Tracyyyyy come and eat me!” And my big butt be floating toward them….while salivating everywhere. I mean really who else see food that they love on every dang commercial, magazines or ads on the internet…..when you are cutting all fattening food from your diet.

Anyway I was talking to my daughter about me exercising and trying to lose the weight yesterday. When I mention that I wanted Abs…. Well she interrupted me while laughing and said “Mama, what do you mean you want Abs?” Now when I realized that she was laughing at me….I didn’t get mad I got even more motivated and determine. Now here is the thing I love my sweet chuckling child but she has evidently underestimated her Mother’s ability to reach every goal that she has set her mind on. I went on to explained to my spoiled daughter, that I was tired of wearing shape wearing to hide my bumps, lumps and grooves and I wanted to be shape wear free. Meaning I want my body to be toned and cruvy without any extra help. I mean before I gained the weight I was like that years ago. Before her and her younger brother made me gain all that weight. Lmbo…we love to blame gain our excessive weight gain on our pregnancies. When in all actuality we just had poor eating and exercising habits.

Nevertheless my little girl/woman is 23 years old and thinks it is hilarious for a woman my age to want Abs! You got to be shitting me because age has nothing to do with wanting to look good and toned in your clothes. I don’t care if you wear jogging pants everyday or when you are in your panties and bras….you still want to look toned . One thing about gastric bypass surgery is when you lose all that weight you have to start fighting all that loose skin, which I hate with a passion. So now you may understand why I want to be firm and tone, not wiggly and jiggly.

Therefore I now have something to prove to my child and others who also think abs are age restricted.

Until next time! Peace, Love and Happiness!

Be Blessed Tracy!

Fighting the battle

Good afternoon beautiful people! It’s snowing down here in South Carolina and its so beautiful. There is nothing like being in a Winter Wonderland. However down here when it snows, it shuts everything. Shoot you would think it was the worst winter storm to ever hit us. Lol….stores and restaurants closed down and all the milk and bread get brought out.

However……when there is a Winter snow and you are stuck in the house you may tend to overeat. My biggest problems is Pinterest…man I want to try every recipe I see. Thats that dang cook got me saving recipes left and right. I am always looking for dishes that are delicioussss. I have found several cake recipes that i make for people all the time. That are so good when you put a piece in your mouth it melts like cotton candy. I know my but can cook and that’s a gift and a curse at the same time.

I have several things that I do to help me stay full which helps me from overeating everyday. One of first things that I do is take my medication with my protein drink and then coffee later. I eat a couple of fruits also and drink water like crazy. It helps me to stay full. I make sure I also set my meals up and follow them strictly. One thing I also have learned is don’t buy no chips or other fatty foods because it may make it way to my mouth.

I am not going to lie .,..I am weak and I fall short everyday when comes to eating the wrong thing. However I reel myself back in asap because I am not going down that road of weight gain. Also I am a big procrastinator….I will have everything planned out for my exercise trips to YMCA and don’t do it. What so bad about it….is in my mind I am doing it. I got to do better or better yet use my machines in my house. Because I hate my thighs and back fat. Keep me in your prayers as I continue to fight the battle of fat regain.

Ps: I got my clothes. I will post pictures of my outfits in the next coming days! 😉

Love, peace and happiness!

Be Blessed Tracy

Working on goals for 20 18

Good Afternoon beautiful people! There comes a time when something happens that makes you stop and start looking at other options for your life. For me my career has caused me to start developing a business plan for opening up my own restaurant.

One of my concerns that is causing me hesitate is working around food constantly all day. I am scared that this could cause me to overeat and possibly start gaining weight. However it may help me to develop better control and refrain from eating unhealthy foods. Nevertheless this had always been a life long goal of mine and I am eagerly looking forward to opening Tracy tasty treats. Lol! I know I am going have to work on that name.

Since we are mentioning goals. Exercise is one of the most important part of any weight loss plan. I don’t care if you had weight loss surgery or not. You still got to get physical and stay physical to achieve and reach your weight loss goal for the rest of your life.

Nevertheless I started back attending the YMCA and went with my 18 years old teenage son. Big mistake this boy/man pushed and motivated me like nobody has ever did. My big butt is sore in places I didn’t know you could be sore. My thighs, all over my arms, right up above my wrist and between my elbow. I mean I did my cardio and then hit the weights to work on my lower body that day. But I didn’t think I over did it. However I had to skip Thursday to recoup.

Note to self again: don’t let your Son guide you when you are exercising at the YMCA. I had to add a picture I took while getting my sweat on at YMCA.

Don’t hate the picture hate the game. Lmbo!

Peace, Love and Happiness Beautiful people. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I get my business plan together and apply for small business loans.

Be blessed Tracy