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You got to love you!

Good morning beautiful people!!! I want to discuss body image.   I know I am not the only one who will walk by something that shows your reflection  and think dang I am still fat.  You will notice your flabby arms, thick thighs and big gut and wonder why everybody keep saying you are melting away.   Because all you see is your former fat self.   Here is the thing that we got to remember is that…. the mind is deceiving YOU!   YOU have lost a significant about of weight.  YOU are making good food choices!  YOU got a lot to be proud of!  Body image can derail any weight loss goal.

However all you got to do is remember this phrase protein first.  I never understood this until later after my surgery how important this phrase was.  Protein first is a phase that everybody who ever had gastric bypass surgery needs to post on their refrigerator. Hang it in your bathroom, hang it from your stove, or it in the cabinet doors… So when you open the door you see it.   Make a bracelet, put it in your car, put it in your office refrigerator.  Shoot  put in on your home screen of your cell phone and lap top.  When you keep seeing this phrase everytime you go to eat anything you can control your eating  habits.  Unless you are over eating and stretching that pouch which will lead to weight gain.

What we have to understand is that protein is a nutrient that helps us feel fuller, longer. If we include proteins in each of our meals or healthy snacks, we’re less likely to feel hungry when it’s not time to eat.

I know you are wondering  what can I do to be effective to ensure that I lose and maintain my weight loss.  In my opinion the number one rule is to eat protein rich foods first. See here is the thing after  surgery, your body will need adequate protein to help build, repair, and maintain muscle tissue and organs. Protein deficiency can occur over an extended period of time which can cause fatigue, hair loss, and muscle wasting.   I remember when I was about three months out after my RNY gastric bypass… My fingernails were so soft and brittle I could barely stratch  myself. Then my big dumb self tried to cover them up with fake nails.  Omg… That hurt so bad it was crazy.   I hurried up and bought Boltin.  Then my hair started falling out also…. Talk about going thru.  That was a really hard period to go thru but I made it thru.  The hair issue was not so bad for me because I love wigs.
Just remember Proteins are one of the essential building blocks of the human body and you need them.

The next time you walk by something that shows your reflection.. Say to yourself.  I look good, and I am doing good therefore I am good! 😊  You got to encourage yourself!! Because you are your biggest motivator.  Love the skin you are in.  Because you could still be that former you.

Peace, Happiness and Love!!


I hate my weight loss scale!


Good afternoon beautiful people!

I woke up this morning and started getting my son and I ready to attend church for our Pastor’s Anniversary.  We had another pastor speaking for the Anniversary and his church was accompanying.  So that meant we wouldn’t get out regular seats if we didn’t leave early.  With that being said….I don’t care how much I got to do and if I am in a hurry.  I will always make that stop at the weight scale.  Well this morning the scale was at a stand still as it has been for the last two days.  My first thought after stepping on the little sucker three times and the numbers didn’t change was to throw that bad boy out the window.  Don’t that just piss you off.  I know I am not the only person who wants to pick their scale up and threw it up against the wall because we want to see those numbers go down so bad. However, here is the thing I am doing good because I have lost 6 pounds since I corrected my negative behaviors in one week. I also added some good habits that should keep the scale from going up.  I have looked at my body and examine my thighs and arms trying to figure out which area lost the pounds (that where I want to lose weight).  Knowing my stupid body…I probable lost the weight on my dang feet again.  I went from a size twelve extra wide in shoes to a size nine wide in shoes.   That another post for another day.  Nevertheless I can’t tell where the pounds came off….. but I am really happy with the 6 pounds I lost.

I know I lost six pound but I want to examine what a five pound loss look like. The picture below shows a great example of a 5 pound weight loss versus the weight of a brick.  Then the other pictures are showing 5, 10, 15, 20 pounds weight loss.  I have a friend that recently loss twenty pounds and is really tone and looks real good. You can’t tell them anything they are so happy with their results.  Muscles was popping and they was firm and tight all over.  I was so jealous but trust and believe I understand how they feel. I would really be happy with a twenty pound weight loss.


Nevertheless don’t ever get upset with just one pound lost because that an awesome start. The whole point is not to give up and not think you are doing good. Because even if it is one pound you are still making progress and one pound is better than plus one!


Love, Peace and Happiness!!


The battle has just begin!


Good morning beautiful people!  I am having a major hissy fit.  I have gain 10 pounds back and I am about to have a physical heart attack.  I want to say I don’t know how this happen however I do.  I have started sliding in fatty foods like potatoes chips, candy bars and popcorn.  To say my life has been thrown for a loop is an understatement.  I am about to pass out. I know most people will say 10 pounds is nothing and I can get back on track.  However I know how easily 10 pounds can lead to 10 more pounds and 10 more pounds can lead to another 10 pounds. Before you know I will be weighing around 250.  Heck to no and I am stopping this crap right now.  Somebody just walk in my office with a box of FRESH KRISTY KREME donut and I ran the other way while wiping drool from my mouth. However I am not stupid and this is not a laughing matter.   I also feel like my personal life which is in turmoil affected my eating habits because I cook and eat when I am stressed.  This is not a good habit to have. So I have resort to buying all kinds of fruits like Cuties, strawberries, watermelon…..Healthy snacks.

I am back in the gym and I am pushing my butt hard. My orthopedic doctor said I could resume  all exercise and I am planning on starting to jog.  Right now I am getting myself ready by using a machine that resemblance jogging. My hip do ting somewhat but that is to be expected.  I am being mindful not to overdue it because I don’t want to relocated that new hip.

I was talking with my sister who had the RNY gastric bypass about 10 years ago and we was discussing protein intake.  She told me that I was drinking to much protein at one time and my body is not able to absorb it.  I do:

  • 1 cup of 2% milk 8 grams of proteins 122 calories, 12 carbs
  • 2 scoops of Banana protein powder from Isopure Carb free.  It has 210 calories and 50gms of proteins in two scoops
  • 1 protein load yogurt usual banana flavor. ( I love banana and strawberry flavor food)  It has 0 fat, 0 added sugar*, and 0 artificial sweeteners – plus 15g of protein per 5.3 oz.  However it has 120 calories, 14 carbs

This all equal out to 450 calories, 73 grams of protein, 26 carbs.  This is usually my morning meal every day.  However on the weekend I get lax and may not do a protein shake.  Well this will change also because I will make sure I do a protein shake everyday.  Now back to the problem at hand.  I have call my nutrition at my Gastric bypass doctor to get clarity. However, my sister said I got to cut my protein in the morning to around 40 grams of proteins otherwise I don’t absorb it.  Here is my problem I must have miss that class or I was sleepy and did not hear it.  I really need to know the answer because if that is the case I got to change that morning protein drink real quick.  Another thing is that I got to start doing a shake at night also to make sure I have gotten my protein intake. I never do one at night because I usually get my protein throughout the day with my lunch and dinner meal.  Even though I am about 3 years out coming up in July.  I still do not know everything and I know I am at the point were I can start regaining weight.

That is not going to happen and I am getting my vessel back on track. I am going to YMCA everyday this week and burning major calories.  I had gotten slack and was only going once every couple of week.  That not the case now.  Plus I have never reached my goal weight which is 175 pounds and now I am ready to do it.  I have also called my nutritionist and is waiting for a call from her. I am going to start going to the classes that they offer for patients who have had the surgery to help them maintain and stay on the healthy track.

If anybody have any suggestions or comments please give them I need to get this battleship back in the war.  I had forgotten that this battle wasn’t over.  It was only getting started.  The weight loss surgery is a tool that I got to use to manage and control and get to the desired weight that I want.

Thanks Everybody and have a beautiful day.  Keep me and my struggle in your mind when you whisper a prayer tonight.

Peace, Love and Happiness


Back to the basics

Good afternoon Beautiful people!  Let’s talk about weight regain a very important part of weight loss surgery afterward.  Everybody  knows that regaining weight after a WLS (weight loss surgery) is  scary.   When you gain weight and you have previously fought  to lose it is scary as heck.   For myself,  I picture  my previous  body size before  my weight loss surgery.   That’s makes me shake in my boots and stop eating any  chips or sweets.  You got to know that  I am in this game to win it.   When people notice I am going to the gym, the first thing they ask me is why.  I mean really why ask  why.  To me it’s simple anybody  can gain weight back and you got to stay proactive on this journey for the rest of your life.  You got to get up and move to keep the weight off when all you want to do is sleep.  You got to exercise and watch what you put in your mouth period.  One of my hardest struggle is when I go out to eat with my family.  They are usually watching my plate and will argue  about who is going to get my leftovers like I can’t eat them later.  This makes me eat more because I don’t want anybody else to eat my food.  I am aware that I have this problem and I am focusing on letting go.  So what if they eat the leftover plate at least you didn’t.  It’s hard and if anyone told you this journey was going to be easy they are lying.   Because you are fighting  this eating habits many times throughout the day.    What are your struggles? What causes you grief the most on this  journey?

Stay bless!  Love, peace and happiness!!

Gaining control over “The Mechanical Beast” once and for all.


I went to the YMCA tonight and got it in.   I rode about 2 miles on the bike and complete about ½ mile on the stair climber burning around 200 Calories.   I know that is not a lot, but with a bad hip I can’t over do it or I will have problem walking the next day.   Since I am not going to the nutritionist until after the surgery, I am going to do a weekly weight in every Wednesday to keep track of my weight loss on the Mechanical Beast (the weight scale).  I am refusing to give that sucker any power if I can help it.   I am one of those people who will weigh every morning.  I got to break free from the control that sucker has over me.  One other thing that I have also notice is by keeping a food log, that includes calories, proteins, carbs and fat counts I really manage my food intake way better.

While in the gym I swear all the skinny women start working really hard, sweat be flying everywhere.  It’s like they look at me and use me as their motivation and are saying under their breath “I refuse to let myself get that big.”  Laughing out loud at myself on that one, but the truth of the matter is …when you are the biggest person in the gym.  You do think everybody is staring at you.  Don’t let anybody else come in bigger than you, then you trying to estimate who is the biggest.  I have heard it said that overweight people have amnesia because they forget they are overweight and love to talk about other overweight people.  As if they are not carrying an extra person on their own back. 

Recently I have start watching the show “My 600lb life.” it is really motivating me to stay on track with my life change, not just for me but for my whole family.  My 14 years old son watched the show with me and I could tell it was really an eye opener for him.  He is a football player and he wants to get in the best shape for his upcoming freshman year.   As a matter fact he is the one that makes sure that I go to the gym.  This show really shows how hard it is to get your weight under control when you have gain so much weight.  I am rooting for the patients every step of the way, because we are all in the same boat.  Trying to gain control of our own life again and live a healthy life as long as possible.

 Love, Peace and Happiness

Ms. Tracy

What if my insurance deny my surgery??

Someone ask me a question and I decide to post my thoughts about it. 

What if I my insurance don’t pay for my surgery?  What if I am denied?

Would I give up and just keep gaining more and more weight.  The answer is no. I am doing everything as if I am not having the surgery now.  Because I am at the point where I want to have a healthy weight, gaining more weight and letting myself go yet again is not even an option. I hate my weight, I hate the problems that I have from my weight, and I hate this fat that causes so many restrictions. Don’t get me wrong I am not depressed or anything, I am determine and I look forward to getting this weight off.  The same way I complete my bachelor and my master degree which were goals.  I am going to stay focus on my goal which is losing weight.

One thing I know is that everything doesn’t always work out the way you want it to. Sometime things go astray and you have to always have at least two backup plans.  Always keep your eyes on the prize.  I am!!

Love, Peace and HappinessImageMrs. Tracy

My Gall Bladder is trying to wreck havoc on my Body!

I hope everybody had a great Merry Christmas and have a safe and awesome New Year’s.

I went to the doctor on Monday for my 4th visit with the nutritionist and I have lost four more pounds.  I only have two more visits with the nutritionist and weight loss group then I will be finished.   I know I have several more things that will need to be done.   Including a Gall Bladder ultrasound, but what I did not expect was my gall bladder to start attacking my body.

For the last couple of weeks I have been in severe pain off and on.   See my problem is I have arthritis in my hips and will eventually have to have a complete hip replacement. (I am trying to prolong that sucker for about 10 years.)  So when I started having pain on my sides, I am usually trying to figure out if it is my hips or other pain.  But oh Boy, this pain right here was so different.  This was a number 10 on the pain scale.  Those suckers (the pain) crawled up my back and rode down my side like a roller coaster. I thought that little elf that everyone is going crazy about was jumping on me with spikes heels.  So off to my primary physician I go.   First thing he does is try to rule out a pulled muscle and prescribe flexeril pills.

Now we are in another whole ball park, see this young sweet thing has never ever, ever taken flexeril.  These bad boys right here….. are all in a different playing field.  These little pills put your girl down.  She couldn’t move, couldn’t talk and could barely wake up the next morning.   I had to put a B12 pill up under my tongue and drink a cup of coffee with caffeine just to get up.  Trust and believe that I know I do not suppose to have caffeine but I needed that caffeine really bad.

So an ultra scan of my gallbladder is schedule to make sure this is the cause.  Therefore, I discussed this with the nurse practitioner Monday and she told me that I needed to wait for 6 weeks (if they want to remove my gall bladder) if I can for my gastric bypass surgery.  She explained that they can remove my gall bladder during the surgery.  Now six weeks is not that long.  But when you are in pain off and on, six weeks is a long time.

Nevertheless I cannot believe that this much time has pass and I am about to embark on the most exciting trip in my life, control of my life.   This trip will ensure that I will live a long and bless life.  Say a prayer for me controlling this pain from my gall stones.