Good Morning beautiful people!! I got something to share…that’s funny but really relative to learning to love yourself after weight loss surgery. As you all know I am a self proclaimed fashionista.. I love to shop and I may be just a tiny bit addicted to shopping for the new improved Tracy. My new focus is Lane Bryant and Catherine’s stores wide shoes. Everytime they add some new shoes my big butt be on it. Trying new high heels and crap like I am a pro. Well they posted these new bad boys on their site and I had to get them.
Now I know some of you are old high heel steppers are looking at these bad boys and are saying “look at that little heel.” Well this heel is 4.75, which is really high for me. With that being said ….I hate the fact that Lane Bryant don’t sell their shoes in their store anymore and you have to order online. Because for me….shoes are one thing that I need to try on and walk in before I purchase. I got to make sure they don’t rub the corn and if my little fat feet can get them on.
Nevertheless when I finally received my order I put the box in the trunk of my car and forgot about it until I got to work the next day. Well as soon as I got to the office I pull those bad boys out to try them on in my office. Now here comes the real test which I failed. First problem was I couldn’t buckle the shoe on the side because my tree trunks had swollen up again. Second problem was because my tree trunks was swollen the middle strap across the top of the shoe buckle up…. Like it was fighting my fat. Here a picture to see for yourself.Now here is the funny thing…I couldn’t walk in these bad boys…I wobble, doing the lean to the side walk and holding on to everything. My coworkers was crying laughing at me. I kept trying to push my knee back so I could stand up straight and the knees kept buckling. I couldn’t do my sexy chocolate walk at all. I almost fell several times so I just threw my hands up in defeat because the dang shoes won. I thought wedges was the easiest type of high heels shoe you can wear. Boy was I wrong and I was taking them back to get a refund. With that being said… Some shoes and some clothing is not designed for everybody. I personally can’t wear what everybody else wears. Now that’s my opinion about myself, so don’t take it personally…. DO YOU BOO! But me on the other hand I have several friends that will say to me real quick….”No, Tracy that’s not working take that back to the store.” like these shoes and I listen.
Love, peace and Happiness!
Ps. Lane Bryant or Catherine’s are not paying me to say this.
Today was my last visit to meet with my nutritionist and it was confirmed that your girl had lost 29 pounds. I am happy as a I can be. This was my last visit before my surgery on the 30th of this month. I have slowly been buying products and other stuff I will need for this major change. A lot of the stuff I purchased are from the nutrition store locate at the doctor office. I know that once I leave the hospital the last thing I will want to do is go shopping. I will also buy several other things this week to ensure I get all of the protein I need.
I am also going to purchase this item to help with personal hygiene. I have been told by several individuals that because of the incisions area reaching to certain areas will cause some discomfort. Because I would hate to ask my hubby or children to do something so personal. I will buy this reach stick. I can’t see myself calling my daughter or husband to come and help Mama in the bathroom complete her personal hygiene stuff because it hurts to much to reach those areas…..Heck to the NO…you will not catch me doing that. I would rather invest in something to help me reach those places more easily.
Nevertheless I decided to purchase this bad boy which is called the Lu La Bath Brush and this sucker is 23 inches long and is flexible to move in different directions. Shoot I can reach my feet, my neck and lower back. It also had several part that you can order that will enhance its usability. (Oh yea I am not receiving any money or free products by discussing what I am purchasing to help me during my rehabilitation process.)
I also receive a call from Hillcrest Hospital where I am having my surgery today to let me know what time I will have to be at the hospital for the surgery. I will have to be there at 6:30 and surgery will be at 8:00. I am starting to get nervous all over again with butterflies feeling in my stomach when I think about it, it’s like I just met my husband for the first time. You know the feeling I am talking about when you are nervous and excited to go out with the new guy and every time you think about him you get that feeling. Right now I am getting that feeling about meeting my new self after the surgery.
How will I change, what foods will I hate but previously loved?
How will I look after the weight loss, will my booty resemble Sponge Bob square Pants booty?
Will my hair shred badly or will it continue to grow (don’t really matter because I love wigs) but nevertheless a woman never want to lose her hair. Read my previous post about this at http://wp.me/p48Fm9-4X.
Will I finally get to wear my stiletto with the wide leg cream suit? Read my previous post about this… http://wp.me/p48Fm9-5u.
Oh there is so much to look forward to, because this has been a long and tiring journey for me!!
I believe that women with a little more bounce to the ounce want to wear stiletto and heels as well. I want to wear pair of heels that will not make my knees buckle or my back give out. I want to wear a wide legs pants outfit with a pair of skinny heels sticking out. I want to walk the model walk and make people turn and say who is that sister because she is fabulous? I want people to stop me and ask me girl “Where did you get those shoes?” I don’t know if this is a dream that I will ever accomplish because of my hips and weight. But I would love to just pose and stand in pair of stiletto and look good, at least a girl can dream.
I tell you what pisses me off are the shoe designers who make the shoes to narrow and very uncomfortable. The shoes I do find for my wide feet are hideous. I end up paying at least $60 and up for a really good pair of shoes so that limits how many pair I can buy. I also hate how quick the shoes mold to my feet, which mean after a couple of months of wear and tear they start to lean with me. Shoes with a wedge heels give the most stability as long as they do not go past a 1 ½ inch heels or I will tilt over real quick.
I remember before I start gaining weight I wore a size 8 ½ or 9 in shoes and could wear at least 3 inches back in the day. Now days I can barely stuff these logs in a size 11 so I normally purchases a size 12 wide or extra wide. I have at least 20 pair of shoes that I have bought in a store after trying them on, only to find out later that my feet have staged a war with me as soon as I put the shoes on and start walking.
I have notice that a lot of people who have had the weight loss surgery talk about their shoes size going down. I am hoping that my shoes size go down also. Than I will be able to buy prettier shoes just under 2 inch heels.