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My little fat tree trunks


Good Morning beautiful people!! I got something to share…that’s funny but really relative to learning to love yourself after weight loss surgery.  As you all know I am a self proclaimed fashionista.. I love to shop and I may be just a tiny bit addicted to shopping for the new improved Tracy.  My new focus is Lane Bryant and Catherine’s stores wide shoes.  Everytime they add some new shoes my big butt be on it.  Trying new high heels and crap like I am a pro.  Well they posted these new bad boys on their site and I had to get them.

 

Now I know some of you are old high heel steppers are looking  at these bad boys and are saying “look at that little heel.”   Well this heel is 4.75, which is really high for me.  With that being said ….I hate the fact that Lane Bryant don’t sell their shoes in their  store anymore and you have to order online.  Because for me….shoes are one thing that I need to try on and walk in before I purchase.  I got to make sure they don’t rub the corn and if my little fat feet can get them on.

  Nevertheless when I finally  received my order I put the box in the trunk of my car and forgot about it until I got to work the next day.  Well as soon as I got to the office I pull those bad boys out to try them on in my office. Now here comes the real test which I failed.   First problem was I couldn’t buckle the shoe on the side because my tree trunks had swollen up again.  Second problem was because my tree trunks was swollen the middle strap across the top of the shoe buckle up…. Like it was fighting my fat.  Here a picture to see for yourself.Now here is the funny thing…I couldn’t walk in these bad boys…I wobble, doing the lean to the side walk and holding on to everything. My coworkers was crying laughing at me.  I kept trying to push my knee back so I could stand up straight and the knees kept buckling.  I couldn’t do my sexy chocolate walk at all.  I almost fell several times so I just threw my hands up in defeat because the dang shoes won. I thought wedges was the easiest type of high heels shoe you can wear.  Boy was I wrong and I was taking them back to get a refund.  With that being said… Some shoes and some clothing is not designed for everybody.  I personally can’t wear what everybody else wears.   Now that’s my opinion about myself, so don’t take it personally…. DO YOU BOO!  But me on the other hand I have  several friends that will say to me real quick….”No, Tracy that’s not working take that back to the store.”  like these shoes and I listen. 

Love, peace and Happiness!

Tracy 

Ps.  Lane Bryant or Catherine’s are not paying me to say this.

I am making progress

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Hey beautiful people!!

I know it is late in the night and I need to have my sleep deprived butt in the bed. However I got to pat myself on the back for my performance today and yesterday also for refusing that sweet fresh out the oven still warm Kristy Kreme donut.

Today a beautiful, succulent moist cake was brought into the staff meeting for a coworker who is leaving my agency.  Oh man, my mouth started watering, and I was wiping saliva from my lips but I did not touch one piece of that delectable, delicious looking cake.  I turned down my piece because all I could see was the scale sliding closer to another five pound gain.  I mean really in my head I could picture it doing it and number going up.

See here is thing when you start introducing those sugary and fatty foods back into your system you get the taste for them again.  The next thing you know you are eating it on the regular. I refused to go back to the old Tracy who is overweight and can’t stand for more than 15 minutes and my feet start numbing. Or the Old Tracy who was so overweight that she was having problems wiping her own butt!! Heck yea I said.  I had let me weight get so out of control that my short little stubby arms had to fight tooth and nail just to wipe my butt. I could lie and say that I was fat and fabulous but I was would be telling a LIE.  Shoot I hated to go to Walmart because the store was so big and I hated walking.

Here is another tool I use also…Reminiscing about the old Fat Tracy Days!   I remember when I first started my job and we had to go to a training in a city about 50 miles away from our office.  We went to this Thai restaurant for lunch and oh man I will never forget this…when I went to sit in the chair at the table it was really snug.  I decided to slide forward so I could be closer to the table because my belly was so big and I didn’t want to drop food on my shirt. This happen a lot because I had to bring the food over my extended enlarge stomach.  When I tried to scoot closer to the table … the dang leg in back of the chair broke and my big butt fell in the floor. OH my gosh!! I was so embarrassed and as a coworker help me up. I gave praises to the good Lord above that there was only a few people in the restaurant that witness my epic crash.  To say I was embarrassed in an understatement.

This is how the fat girl chair check started. I know you are looking at the computer and wondering what the heck is the fat girl chair check. Let me explain…. Whenever I go to any restaurant, I check the chairs at the table to make sure it is stable and can hold my weight. I still do this even though I am smaller because I was so embarrassed when I fell.  These are the type of memories that I am using to motivate myself to stay on track and to continue losing the weight.

I do know that I got to get better with my exercise and attend the YMCA at least 3 days a week or better yet use my treadmill here at the house.  I have so much going on, however that is just a excuse.  I can’t keep making that same old excuse.  I can make time and I will start making time.  If I did as much as I planned on doing in my head.  I would weight 150 pounds right now.

Farewell everyone!! Have a blessed day

Peace, Happiness, Love

Tracy

 

 

 

 

The battle has just begin!

 

Good morning beautiful people!  I am having a major hissy fit.  I have gain 10 pounds back and I am about to have a physical heart attack.  I want to say I don’t know how this happen however I do.  I have started sliding in fatty foods like potatoes chips, candy bars and popcorn.  To say my life has been thrown for a loop is an understatement.  I am about to pass out. I know most people will say 10 pounds is nothing and I can get back on track.  However I know how easily 10 pounds can lead to 10 more pounds and 10 more pounds can lead to another 10 pounds. Before you know I will be weighing around 250.  Heck to no and I am stopping this crap right now.  Somebody just walk in my office with a box of FRESH KRISTY KREME donut and I ran the other way while wiping drool from my mouth. However I am not stupid and this is not a laughing matter.   I also feel like my personal life which is in turmoil affected my eating habits because I cook and eat when I am stressed.  This is not a good habit to have. So I have resort to buying all kinds of fruits like Cuties, strawberries, watermelon…..Healthy snacks.

I am back in the gym and I am pushing my butt hard. My orthopedic doctor said I could resume  all exercise and I am planning on starting to jog.  Right now I am getting myself ready by using a machine that resemblance jogging. My hip do ting somewhat but that is to be expected.  I am being mindful not to overdue it because I don’t want to relocated that new hip.

I was talking with my sister who had the RNY gastric bypass about 10 years ago and we was discussing protein intake.  She told me that I was drinking to much protein at one time and my body is not able to absorb it.  I do:

  • 1 cup of 2% milk 8 grams of proteins 122 calories, 12 carbs
  • 2 scoops of Banana protein powder from Isopure Carb free.  It has 210 calories and 50gms of proteins in two scoops
  • 1 protein load yogurt usual banana flavor. ( I love banana and strawberry flavor food)  It has 0 fat, 0 added sugar*, and 0 artificial sweeteners – plus 15g of protein per 5.3 oz.  However it has 120 calories, 14 carbs

This all equal out to 450 calories, 73 grams of protein, 26 carbs.  This is usually my morning meal every day.  However on the weekend I get lax and may not do a protein shake.  Well this will change also because I will make sure I do a protein shake everyday.  Now back to the problem at hand.  I have call my nutrition at my Gastric bypass doctor to get clarity. However, my sister said I got to cut my protein in the morning to around 40 grams of proteins otherwise I don’t absorb it.  Here is my problem I must have miss that class or I was sleepy and did not hear it.  I really need to know the answer because if that is the case I got to change that morning protein drink real quick.  Another thing is that I got to start doing a shake at night also to make sure I have gotten my protein intake. I never do one at night because I usually get my protein throughout the day with my lunch and dinner meal.  Even though I am about 3 years out coming up in July.  I still do not know everything and I know I am at the point were I can start regaining weight.

That is not going to happen and I am getting my vessel back on track. I am going to YMCA everyday this week and burning major calories.  I had gotten slack and was only going once every couple of week.  That not the case now.  Plus I have never reached my goal weight which is 175 pounds and now I am ready to do it.  I have also called my nutritionist and is waiting for a call from her. I am going to start going to the classes that they offer for patients who have had the surgery to help them maintain and stay on the healthy track.

If anybody have any suggestions or comments please give them I need to get this battleship back in the war.  I had forgotten that this battle wasn’t over.  It was only getting started.  The weight loss surgery is a tool that I got to use to manage and control and get to the desired weight that I want.

Thanks Everybody and have a beautiful day.  Keep me and my struggle in your mind when you whisper a prayer tonight.

Peace, Love and Happiness

Tracy

What the heck is Cognitive-Emotive Dissonance?

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 I attended my last therapy meeting Wednesday and the therapist talked about Cognitive-Emotive Dissonance.   When she spoke these words, I repeated them out loud, trying to get a feel for these three words because evidently these three words are something that I should be really comforted with.   The feeling of discomfort that results from holding two conflicting beliefs is Cognitive Emotive. When there is a difference between beliefs and behaviors, something must change to end or reduce the conflict.

Well this is your girl right here, because I am currently in  this situation  and I am trying to make eating healthy normal behavior.  When you embark on a healthy life change you are changing behaviors that you have viewed as normal for your whole life.  Learning to eat the right food that will not cause weight gain and that are good for your body, requires a lot of effort and you will  have to be very aware of what you are eating all the time. 

According to my therapist she stated that you have to realize that your old way of eating, feeling or acting when it comes to eating healthy is not right. Develop a more healthy way of thinking about food and practice, practice and practice until it becomes your normal way of thinking. 

Overall I believe that I am currently converting to this new way of thinking, it is hard changing, but it has awesome rewards that I am eager to see and enjoy.