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Working on goals for 20 18

Good Afternoon beautiful people! There comes a time when something happens that makes you stop and start looking at other options for your life. For me my career has caused me to start developing a business plan for opening up my own restaurant.

One of my concerns that is causing me hesitate is working around food constantly all day. I am scared that this could cause me to overeat and possibly start gaining weight. However it may help me to develop better control and refrain from eating unhealthy foods. Nevertheless this had always been a life long goal of mine and I am eagerly looking forward to opening Tracy tasty treats. Lol! I know I am going have to work on that name.

Since we are mentioning goals. Exercise is one of the most important part of any weight loss plan. I don’t care if you had weight loss surgery or not. You still got to get physical and stay physical to achieve and reach your weight loss goal for the rest of your life.

Nevertheless I started back attending the YMCA and went with my 18 years old teenage son. Big mistake this boy/man pushed and motivated me like nobody has ever did. My big butt is sore in places I didn’t know you could be sore. My thighs, all over my arms, right up above my wrist and between my elbow. I mean I did my cardio and then hit the weights to work on my lower body that day. But I didn’t think I over did it. However I had to skip Thursday to recoup.

Note to self again: don’t let your Son guide you when you are exercising at the YMCA. I had to add a picture I took while getting my sweat on at YMCA.

Don’t hate the picture hate the game. Lmbo!

Peace, Love and Happiness Beautiful people. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I get my business plan together and apply for small business loans.

Be blessed Tracy


Reflection is the best tool


Good morning beautiful people! Let’s take a look at reflection and how it affects your weight loss. Now before I start please let me state that these are my own personal views and opinions and not rules that you have to follow. They are my beliefs.

Reflection is define as a thought, idea, or opinion formed or a remark made as a result of meditation.

Reflection is really important when someone who is overweight and is unhappy with their weight because of medical, physical or low self esteem reasons. Because it helps them to redirect and figure out how to lose weight or get their weight under control. Reflection helps you to be able to be aware of what you put in your mouth and monitor your eating habits. I also believe that reflection helps promotes guilt which can help you resist eating foods that can and will cause weight gain. I mean who wants to have a future that will include diabetes, Gerd, orthopedics and heat disease. One of the best tools to help me with weight loss is my reflection in the mirror.

Using reflection as a tool can help break negative cycles that have caused you to gain weight in the first place. It can also help you to look at your personal beliefs about yourself, and question these behaviors and start the process of becoming a better you. Personally reflection has helped me to be aware of my own shortcoming and motivated me more than anything when it comes to my weight loss and personal growth as a person. I can’t imagine not be able to looks at my flaws and figure out what I am doing wrong to improve and be a better person.

Love, Peace and Happiness!

Be blessed


Its a struggle being consistent 


Good afternoon beautiful people!  I just wanted to blog about trying to lose weight and being at a standstill for a long period.  I really want to drop about 30 pounds and it seems that I am fighting like heck just to lose 5 pounds.  Now let’s be real.  Consistently is a must.  I must be consistent and exercise  on a regular basis.  I must be consistent about eating healthy food.  I must be consistent and get my water intake in.  There are so many more things I got to do better about.  I am very alert and aware of my weight which causes me and my scale to have this love and hate relationship.  I am constantly stepping on him just to see what he say.  (Yes my scale is a he.)  Because only a man can give you various information that’s bad majority of the time.  Lol


I personally know that I am always looking in the mirror and I see every imperfections and every flaw on my body.  Every woman does this no matter how pretty she is.  There will always be an area that you wants fixed.  For me it is my weight. I want to lose more pounds because I am so scared of going back to fat Tracy.   I sometimes look in the mirror and all I can see is that 340 pound woman.  That vision scares the living hell out of me.   I used this as a guide to ensure that I don’t get back there.


Nevertheless I always start planning my next day the day before.  I have everything all planned out in my head and never do ALL the things I have planned to do and usually it is the stuff that deals with eating and exercise.  If I did everything that I planned in my head I would weigh around 140 pounds.  I just got to get more consistent period. I know if I could lose a few pounds each week this would motivate me to be more consistent.  But I am just like most people I want thing to be easy and that not the case.  Even though I had the gastric bypass surgery it is still hard to keep this weight off and keep losing. Then here is the kicker when I finally meet my goals…I will start complaining about something else.  However that is not the point right now.  The point right now is being consistent as I keep saying in this post.

Another thing that bother me is when I go out to eat with family members.  I rarely eat more than 1/4 of my food.  However that don’t stop those vultures from watching and waiting for me to finish so they can swallow the rest of my food whole.  I don’t know why I let this upsets me but it does and it causes me to overeat because I know they are going to eat my leftovers.  I am working on this really hard because this type of gluttony can cause overeating which stretch Shelly the belly.  Help me LORD, because this should be my last worry. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I fight this battle that is continuous and never-ending.

I do got news to post about my tests I had this week and a couple of weeks ago.  I will post a blog about my results from the supposedly X-ray of my colon.  Please note I say supposedly….until later guys and gals!

Love, Peace and Happiness





Magic wand that makes your fat melt away


Good afternoon beautiful people!  I have been thinking about this writing this post for a few days and I finally got around to doing it.

I  got to start this blog off by saying this ……Weight loss surgery is not a cure all!  Let me say this one more time for those who are considering having this surgery.  There is no such things as waving a magic wand and all your fat just melt away for eternity. Weight loss surgery is not a cure all!

Now I know you are looking at this post and wondering why I am saying this and I am going to tell you why.  I have had several people who had this surgery and afterwards tell me…. they hate they did it.  They go on complaining about how their stomach hurts when they start trying to eat food that they were told not to eat.  Why is my stomach still big and why can’t I look like you?  Why is the scale not moving?  One friend even told me she hates protein shakes…and can’t stand to drink any.  But then she went on to tell me that her legs gave out on.  Here the thang….yes I said thang….. if you can’t do proteins shakes you better find something else to get those proteins in!  Shoot they have all kinds of other liquids with protein added.  You need that protein for those muscle… As for my friend……You know what I got to say about all of this…. WELCOME TO THE FREAKING CLUB you thought it was going to be easy.  WRONG.

This surgery is a life changing surgery that helps you reach your desired weight goal if you do what your doctor and nutritionist teaches you to do.  Yea, yea, you will lose weight…but I bet you a dollar after the weight has plateau around your 3rd year…that fat will return.  Here is thing …..food is everywhere and you are constantly seeing it and it always knocking at your door saying …”Tracy come and take a bite of this rich thick piece of chocolate brownie…it won’t hurt.”  (blank stare)  Yes, it will because you will go back numerous times just to bite that bad boy!  After surgery, you got to change your daily eating habits for weight loss to happen. Sometimes you even have to separate from friends or family members who tempts you to overeat.  Shoot I found myself on numerous occasions overeating just because I knew my son was watching my plate so he could eat my leftovers.  Oh man, lunch at work was really bad.  When I go out to eat…I can only take a few bites so I am always getting a takeout box to take my remains back to my office and guess what I do.  I nibble on that left over food all day.  Heck I don’t be hungry…I just eat it because it is there.  How I stopped this bad habit, required that I start bringing my lunch to the office. That way I controlled my eating better. If I do go to lunch I put my plate in fridge at the office and don’t get it out until I go home and I make sure it is a healthy meal.


Please understand I am not being a know it all.  I am just tired of the bull crap about how I took the easy route. Shoot all I did was take a short cut that lead me right back to the main highway and I still got to do what everybody else has to do.  Watch what I eat and exercise to keep the weight off.   If anything this journey is harder because when you over eat it causes pain and everything you have to go through to have the surgery.  Please let’s not forget all of the medicine that you are required to take for the rest of you life.  This is not the easily road…this is the hardest road with so many curve balls it is ridiculous.

Love, Peace and Happiness




You got to love you!

Good morning beautiful people!!! I want to discuss body image.   I know I am not the only one who will walk by something that shows your reflection  and think dang I am still fat.  You will notice your flabby arms, thick thighs and big gut and wonder why everybody keep saying you are melting away.   Because all you see is your former fat self.   Here is the thing that we got to remember is that…. the mind is deceiving YOU!   YOU have lost a significant about of weight.  YOU are making good food choices!  YOU got a lot to be proud of!  Body image can derail any weight loss goal.

However all you got to do is remember this phrase protein first.  I never understood this until later after my surgery how important this phrase was.  Protein first is a phase that everybody who ever had gastric bypass surgery needs to post on their refrigerator. Hang it in your bathroom, hang it from your stove, or it in the cabinet doors… So when you open the door you see it.   Make a bracelet, put it in your car, put it in your office refrigerator.  Shoot  put in on your home screen of your cell phone and lap top.  When you keep seeing this phrase everytime you go to eat anything you can control your eating  habits.  Unless you are over eating and stretching that pouch which will lead to weight gain.

What we have to understand is that protein is a nutrient that helps us feel fuller, longer. If we include proteins in each of our meals or healthy snacks, we’re less likely to feel hungry when it’s not time to eat.

I know you are wondering  what can I do to be effective to ensure that I lose and maintain my weight loss.  In my opinion the number one rule is to eat protein rich foods first. See here is the thing after  surgery, your body will need adequate protein to help build, repair, and maintain muscle tissue and organs. Protein deficiency can occur over an extended period of time which can cause fatigue, hair loss, and muscle wasting.   I remember when I was about three months out after my RNY gastric bypass… My fingernails were so soft and brittle I could barely stratch  myself. Then my big dumb self tried to cover them up with fake nails.  Omg… That hurt so bad it was crazy.   I hurried up and bought Boltin.  Then my hair started falling out also…. Talk about going thru.  That was a really hard period to go thru but I made it thru.  The hair issue was not so bad for me because I love wigs.
Just remember Proteins are one of the essential building blocks of the human body and you need them.

The next time you walk by something that shows your reflection.. Say to yourself.  I look good, and I am doing good therefore I am good! 😊  You got to encourage yourself!! Because you are your biggest motivator.  Love the skin you are in.  Because you could still be that former you.

Peace, Happiness and Love!!


In for the fight of my life!

Good afternoon everybody! I have to discuss my three year anniversary coming up for my RNY Gastric Bypass  on July 28 and how I am not losing weight.  I have notice that I am  floating between gaining 5 pounds and then losing it.  Even thought my goal weight is only 20 pounds away.  The thought of even hitting 220 makes me cringe and sink down into a depressed mode.  I refused to go back to the old fat lady that couldn’t even walk around Wal-Mart to get grocery without tiring out quickly.

I also blame myself for my kids being overweight.  My son wants to lose about 70 pounds and I feel like my bad eating habits are something that I passed on to him. Not to mention my fatty genes.  Some people argue that there is no such thing as fatty genes but I be to differ on that. Now I know good eating habits could be taught and learned but when you know only how to throw fatback grease in everything you cook. Not county deep frying everything in grease. Eating starchy and bread all day. I found this one research that states that men can passed fatty genes on to their offspring but he could be alter by losing weight also.  However they were not able to prove that fatty genes were heredity.  I will included the link at bottom of the page.

Learning and maintaining  good eating habits are must on any weight loss journey.  I don’t care if you have had the Gastric Bypass or not.  You will never be able to eat any and everything and not worry about health issues such as weight gain or medical issues.  There has not been a way to safe and healthy way to lose weight and keep it off.  Besides eating healthy and exercising on a constant basic.

I am at that point in my journey where unfortunately you can start regaining weight.  THIS is the most crucial time in my life.  I am focusing on maintaining and keeping the weight off for the rest of my life.  Keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I continue to fight this struggle.  Oh how I wish I was one of those that just kept losing weight.  NOT Tracy!!

Love, Peace and Happiness and healthy choices.


The picture below are within the last couple of weeks on the outside. The one in the middle was about 7 years ago when I was around 340 pounds.  img_0578

Are you fat because of your dad? Men’s WEIGHT directly affects genes in sperm linked to appetite and brain development. Mail Online, December 3 2015

Maintaining weight loss after weight surgery.

Good morning Beautiful people! Today is a new day and God see fit to wake me up one more time.   I am really excited for whatever reason about blogging and I don’t know why.

Now I did say this time around for my blogging I was going to branch out do things a little different but I am going to still focus on my weight loss journey because it is ongoing.

One thing about me that is very important to me is cooking.  I love being around the stove creating new low-fat and sugar-free recipes.  On any given day you will find be in Pinterest looking at recipes and I am going through my head on how to reduce the fat and calories intake.  You want food to still taste good and fulfilling because this help you stay in track with your weight loss also.

Shopping has become an obsession.  However, I am a very cheap shopper.   I will be posting some of my deals with pictures.

I am also rejoining the YMCA.  The doctor has said I can restart exercising and I want to try jogging eventually.   Maybe enter a marathon or two.  I can’t wait to join because I have this big handsome 17 son who will be attending with me.  He wants to drop weight and maybe play football his last year in high school next year.  He weighs around 340.  He is my partner in the kitchen and we are going to do this together.  I love both of my awesome children.

God bless!  Love, peace and happiness!