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My July 4th creations and hosting at my home

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Good morning beautiful people! 

I love hosting at my house for holidays and dinners.  I love family coming together enjoying themselves while trying new dishes I have made and they are my little guinea pigs.  What I detest is parents who don’t control their kids and let them run amuck all over my dang house.  Since I started hosting I have had three windows to get broken and nobody knows how it happened.  I end of chasing dang flies and whatever else got in the house for days.  Its like the dang parents forget they are parents and they let their kids do as they please because it’s not their house.  So yesterday… When this started happening I went off and scared the bejesus out of the kids.  Everytime they saw me coming they would run to their parent or grandparent.  Heck  I didn’t care.  If your little minions are under the age of 5 you need to keep those little bad boogies beside your butt.  I mean really I have two sets of stairs and the little rascals barely can walk and their mothers is not playing attention and the first place they head is the stairs. For whatever reason the stairs always attracts them first.  However not in my house …..or you can stay your butt home.  I am so dang tired because I chased those little suckers all night.  Next time I will make rules  about keeping  your kids with you.  I wished I had a stepper on..I know I walked over 10000  steps.  

Rant over….Now as you can see from the videos and pictures I made three desserts.  Strawberry shortcake with cheesecake in the middle, Oreo cake with cheesecake in the middle, Red velvet Earthquake cake.  The best thing is I didn’t eat one piece.  I ate a pecan off the bottom of the red velvet Earthquake cake and that was it.  Shoot I only ate one hamburger patty and one half of a hotdog wenier.  I was to busy chasing  kids and fixing food.  Heck I know I didn’t get my protein in because I forgot to eat.  Lol. I will fixed that today.

Love, peace and happiness beautiful people!

Tracy

Magic wand that makes your fat melt away

 

Good afternoon beautiful people!  I have been thinking about this writing this post for a few days and I finally got around to doing it.

I  got to start this blog off by saying this ……Weight loss surgery is not a cure all!  Let me say this one more time for those who are considering having this surgery.  There is no such things as waving a magic wand and all your fat just melt away for eternity. Weight loss surgery is not a cure all!

Now I know you are looking at this post and wondering why I am saying this and I am going to tell you why.  I have had several people who had this surgery and afterwards tell me…. they hate they did it.  They go on complaining about how their stomach hurts when they start trying to eat food that they were told not to eat.  Why is my stomach still big and why can’t I look like you?  Why is the scale not moving?  One friend even told me she hates protein shakes…and can’t stand to drink any.  But then she went on to tell me that her legs gave out on.  Here the thang….yes I said thang….. if you can’t do proteins shakes you better find something else to get those proteins in!  Shoot they have all kinds of other liquids with protein added.  You need that protein for those muscle… As for my friend……You know what I got to say about all of this…. WELCOME TO THE FREAKING CLUB you thought it was going to be easy.  WRONG.

This surgery is a life changing surgery that helps you reach your desired weight goal if you do what your doctor and nutritionist teaches you to do.  Yea, yea, you will lose weight…but I bet you a dollar after the weight has plateau around your 3rd year…that fat will return.  Here is thing …..food is everywhere and you are constantly seeing it and it always knocking at your door saying …”Tracy come and take a bite of this rich thick piece of chocolate brownie…it won’t hurt.”  (blank stare)  Yes, it will because you will go back numerous times just to bite that bad boy!  After surgery, you got to change your daily eating habits for weight loss to happen. Sometimes you even have to separate from friends or family members who tempts you to overeat.  Shoot I found myself on numerous occasions overeating just because I knew my son was watching my plate so he could eat my leftovers.  Oh man, lunch at work was really bad.  When I go out to eat…I can only take a few bites so I am always getting a takeout box to take my remains back to my office and guess what I do.  I nibble on that left over food all day.  Heck I don’t be hungry…I just eat it because it is there.  How I stopped this bad habit, required that I start bringing my lunch to the office. That way I controlled my eating better. If I do go to lunch I put my plate in fridge at the office and don’t get it out until I go home and I make sure it is a healthy meal.

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Please understand I am not being a know it all.  I am just tired of the bull crap about how I took the easy route. Shoot all I did was take a short cut that lead me right back to the main highway and I still got to do what everybody else has to do.  Watch what I eat and exercise to keep the weight off.   If anything this journey is harder because when you over eat it causes pain and everything you have to go through to have the surgery.  Please let’s not forget all of the medicine that you are required to take for the rest of you life.  This is not the easily road…this is the hardest road with so many curve balls it is ridiculous.

Love, Peace and Happiness

Tracy

 

 

You got to love you!

Good morning beautiful people!!! I want to discuss body image.   I know I am not the only one who will walk by something that shows your reflection  and think dang I am still fat.  You will notice your flabby arms, thick thighs and big gut and wonder why everybody keep saying you are melting away.   Because all you see is your former fat self.   Here is the thing that we got to remember is that…. the mind is deceiving YOU!   YOU have lost a significant about of weight.  YOU are making good food choices!  YOU got a lot to be proud of!  Body image can derail any weight loss goal.


However all you got to do is remember this phrase protein first.  I never understood this until later after my surgery how important this phrase was.  Protein first is a phase that everybody who ever had gastric bypass surgery needs to post on their refrigerator. Hang it in your bathroom, hang it from your stove, or it in the cabinet doors… So when you open the door you see it.   Make a bracelet, put it in your car, put it in your office refrigerator.  Shoot  put in on your home screen of your cell phone and lap top.  When you keep seeing this phrase everytime you go to eat anything you can control your eating  habits.  Unless you are over eating and stretching that pouch which will lead to weight gain.

What we have to understand is that protein is a nutrient that helps us feel fuller, longer. If we include proteins in each of our meals or healthy snacks, we’re less likely to feel hungry when it’s not time to eat.

I know you are wondering  what can I do to be effective to ensure that I lose and maintain my weight loss.  In my opinion the number one rule is to eat protein rich foods first. See here is the thing after  surgery, your body will need adequate protein to help build, repair, and maintain muscle tissue and organs. Protein deficiency can occur over an extended period of time which can cause fatigue, hair loss, and muscle wasting.   I remember when I was about three months out after my RNY gastric bypass… My fingernails were so soft and brittle I could barely stratch  myself. Then my big dumb self tried to cover them up with fake nails.  Omg… That hurt so bad it was crazy.   I hurried up and bought Boltin.  Then my hair started falling out also…. Talk about going thru.  That was a really hard period to go thru but I made it thru.  The hair issue was not so bad for me because I love wigs.
Just remember Proteins are one of the essential building blocks of the human body and you need them.

The next time you walk by something that shows your reflection.. Say to yourself.  I look good, and I am doing good therefore I am good! 😊  You got to encourage yourself!! Because you are your biggest motivator.  Love the skin you are in.  Because you could still be that former you.

Peace, Happiness and Love!!

Tracy

Two little wilted round small oranges.

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Good evening beautiful people!

I went to the YMCA today and burned around 500 calories!! I did that and I am patting myself on the back fat because it is disappearing as I type. I be pumping iron and breathing, pumping iron and breathing, pausing to keep from passing out and working on those areas trying to make them disappear.  With that being said I want to discuss a subject that is a little out there.  So hang tight while I gather my words.

Before my weight loss surgery…I had this humongous stomach and my two little …how do I say this without sounding vulgar…my two little melons just lay there like two little wilted round small oranges. Because of my stomach I look like I didn’t even have any boobies.  Man my stomach was so HUGE that my Orthopedic specialist explained to me why my back hurt so much.  I have disk degenerative disease in the lower part of my back because of my weight that I carry for about 20 years.   What I had to understand is that the spine of our body is designed in such a way that it carries the weight of the body and maintains balance and distributes the weight during periods of rest and activity.  Since I was extremely overweight and had a big belly, my spine was forced to carry that extra weight on itself and it was not able to distribute to other parts of the body. This results in my spine being overworked resulting in damage to the spine and causing me to have many sleepless and painful nights. Boy I went through so many mattresses trying to find one that would help me sleep better.  Now remember I also had Sleep Apnea and bad hips that need to be replaced but my insurance would not approve a hip replacement because of my BMI was 55. Because of this I suffers unrelenting back and hip pain.  I was tore up from the floor up.

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Fast forward to now and after losing close to 150 pounds and my tummy shrinking down and it is about flat (However I do have skin that will need to be). My back no longer hurts.  Except when I had my hip replaced last November and that was because I couldn’t do nothing but lay on my back.  Now back to subject at hand.  I got breasties!! I got 38 DD size breasts to be exact! (Shaking my head from side to side as I type that)

Would you believe that I am also blushing as I type this, NOT!! I loveeeeeee my breasts.  I buy bras that emphasize those bad boys!! Whatttt…. you can’t tell me nothing!  Let me tell you how much breasts I got.  I was at work one day and my beautiful blond head friend, name Mica poked me in one of my breasts and said she wanted to know where did they come from. See me and her were the two biggest girls in the office with the smallest breasts!  So she was a little jealous because we have always talked about how we wanted big breasts so our stomach wouldn’t be emphasize so much.  LOL I know right. I love you MICA!!! You are my Ivory and I am your Ebony remember that when you are reading this post!!

This is one of the pro about any weight loss. You gain a figure!! Shoot I have a waist, hips, breasts, butt and I am going to keep those bad boys.  So I will be eating PROTEIN FIRST for the rest of my life and popping vitamins everyday!! I love going to sleep and my back not hurting so bad that I can’t sleep.

Smooches beautiful people!!  Check me out in my Sunday gear from this past Sunday. Boobies was popping!!img_1597

Love, Peace and Happiness!

Tracy

Making the right decision

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Well I am officially here…tomorrow is the big day.  I am nervous and scared at the same time.  Whenever you undergo any kinds of surgery and are going to be cut there is going to be fear.  Anybody that tell you different is not being real with you. I have to report to the hospital tomorrow at 6:30 and the surgery is schedule for 8:00 am.

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My family is worried but they know why I have embarked on this path. In life we make all kinds of mistakes that follows us for several years from committing crimes, to marrying someone for the wrong reason, dropping out of high school or living a unhealthy lifestyle.  All of these are things that we could have prevented if we would have listen to elders or other people who tried to guide us to make better choices.
Nevertheless my decision to engage in unhealthy lifestyle has now lead me to this surgery.  If you’re a praying person whisper my name as you pray. 

Love, Peace and Happiness!
Ms. Tracy

Can we go running in 2015

Sometimes it is so hard to deal with people who are just plain out nasty.  When you are around people who are always second guessing everything you do it can cause you to be stress.  For example ……I know that we all have our own personal journeys when we decide to live a healthy life.  There is not a list of rules that works for everybody.  Everything does not work for everybody.   Some people can’t stand chicken, some people love chicken.  Some people love to exercise; some people hate the thought of breaking out in a sweat.   The only general rule is to watch what you put in your mouth and exercise.  I know for myself if I want to lose weight what really works for my body and what I need to do. But doing it and staying consisted is another thing. This is my problem and I am working on it.

With that being said…..in my life and when you are in my realm of this universal…I expect only positive interactions.  I refused to let other people bad vibes break my peace and bring in any drama.

I want to also say my mouth full about giving out advice …when you are giving it out to someone who about to embark on a healthy quest whether it is by dieting or weight loss surgery.  You cannot come across as a know it all or condescending.  Please display your compassion.  The last thing someone wants to hear is someone always throwing salt in their wounded pride.  I know we all makes mistakes and nobody is perfect and we all fall off the wagon.  But the key is getting back on the wagon and to keep it rolling.

I had several medical appointments this week…first I saw my nutritionist on Monday and was down 2 pounds.  I only have one more appointment with her and I am done.  YEA!!!  I also have only two more meeting with my group and I am done.

I had my 6 month follow up visit with my hip orthopedist doctor on Monday and he did the x-rays to get a look at the problem area and he is really concerned.   First thing we discussed as always is my weight and how everything is going.  I let him know about the gastric bypass surgery and how the process was proceeding.  Well then he drops the bomb.  I needed to the have the hip replacement as soon as I lose the weight and get my BMI down.  Shock the crap out of me because I wanted to wait at least 10 years dash all my dreams really quick   He automatically schedule me appointment to see the surgeon two days later and I am now looking at having a left hip replacement around September or October of this year.   WOW I mean really WOW, two major surgeries in one year.  I am currently saving all of my sick and annual days at work.

Nevertheless I guess after having the gastric bypass surgery and my hip replacement.   I can look forward to be able to do a split!! (Lol) But what I would love to do is run or go jogging.  I read all the blogs about completing marathons and I am envious.  When I was physically able to run, I was just to dang lazy to try and do it. Now that there is no way possible that I can run because of my hips, I want to do it so bad.