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Celebrating Three years weight loss surgery anniversary!

Hey beautiful people!  Sorry I haven’t been posting but it’s been crazy this last month at work.   As you all know i consider myself a fashionista…. The cheap version. See this  one right here will never ever own a pair of red bottom shoes unless someone send them to me free.  This right cha here will never ever wear Verace clothing.  Lol…I am just being real. If i ever win the lottery or get a my dream job making over 100 grand a year  I still wouldn’t  buy any because I can’t see paying those type of prices for clothing.  

I know somebody looking at this post like what does this have to do with weight loss.  A lot I say.  When you are overweight you was limited in what and where you could purchase your clothing from.  Now three years later it is better everybody is carrying size 26 all the way up to size 32.  But back in 2014 which was just three year ago it was not that easy.  I had started  thinking about sewing and designing my own clothing because it was so hard to find clothing in my size that look good professionally.  I know at that time Catherine’s and lane Bryant was out there but they are high also.  At that time my favorite store Ashley Stewart didn’t go pass  a 24 or 26.  Cato’s Stores carried my size but you and every other person had the same outfit on.  

Now fast forward to now… Clothes in my size 14 are everywhere.  White, lime green , mauve, peach, orange all these colors…. Oh my what is a girl to do… But shop until she drop.  My closet rods get mad everytime I hang something new in there.

I just celebrated my 3  years weight loss surgery anniversary on July 31.  Being able to shop anywhere is the best reward for losing this weight.  I love going to the Goodwill and putting pretty pieces together.   It just something about feeling and looking good when you go out.  Because I can reflect back before my weight loss surgery and I swore everybody was whispering about my weight behind my back. Shoot I remember the first time I flew on my first airplane flight, my sister had told me before hand to ask for a extender for the seat belt as soon as I got on to avoid any embarrassment of asking after I sat down.  This was so true.  Little things like that draw attention to your weight big time.   Nevertheless this is not a problem anymore…. Because I know they are eagerly waiting just to see what I have on. (I have been told this numerous times)   I have set the stage for me and only me…I can’t be better than nobody but me …..from two days ago.  

 GOD blessing!    Stay blessed and not stressed! Love, peace and Happiness beautiful people!

Tracy 

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Three years…..since I embarked on this weight loss journey

Good morning beautiful people!  I am so happy because I am coming up on my three year anniversary for my weight loss surgery at the end of this month.  I have a doctor appointment to  meet with my Gastric bypass surgery doctor to look at my progress and to help me continue to meet  my goal.  This has been such a great experience that there is no way I could ever regret having this surgery.  My starting weight was 340 pounds.  I currently weigh 205.  I wear a size 14 in clothing whereas I use to wear a size 28 to size 30.  My goal weight is still 175.  So I got about 30 more pounds to drop.   

Here are my  pros since I had my RNY gastric bypass surgery.

  • One I can shop at any store now.
  • I can walk without having to feel like I am going to pass out or my feet and or back hurting.
  • I can actually take care of very personal hygiene thing without struggling.
  • I feel healthy 
  • I am not a diabetic anymore
  • I can wear heels
  • I can sit in booth at a restaurant and not have to go to a table because my stomach is so big
  • I can buy pretty shoes 
  • I can see my feet when standing up and looking down (my belly blocked my view previously)
  • I was able to have my hip replacement 
  • The best one….I feel sexy, good and happy with me.

Now this is my personal journey and I am happy as heck about it.  What’s for me is for me.  My journey can’t be like the chick next door because we are two different people.  My success may not be as great as someone else’s but I am  happy with what I have accomplished.  Because the truth be told I could still be that that overweight, depressed in pain lady with very low self esteem.  I use to worry all the time that people was talking about me because of my weight.  Now I walk through a crowd like I am parting the sea shouting “the queen is here.”  I love the new me!!

    Peace, love and Happiness!!

    Tracy 

    Happy July 4th!! Rules for eating on this day.

    Good morning beautiful people! Today is one of the hardest days of the year for someone like me who has had weight loss surgery.  Because you can over endudge and stretch the heck out of your little Shellies!! 

    Hotdogs, hamburger, barbecue chicken, steaks, ribs, potatoes  and pasta salads, potatoes chips, beer, mixed drinks ….oh my the list goes on and on and my mouth just starts to water. 

    Here are some tips from Tracy…. When you go to the table to make your plate….

    • Walk right by the bread.  Leave it alone, don’t look at those sweet Hawaiian hamburger and hotdogs buns that have been cooked to perfection.  Strut, dance, do a split just walk on by!!
    • Walk by the mixed alcoholic drinks that have those little delectable pieces of fruits just floating in that beautiful color alcoholic sugar filled liquid.  The fruit just be waving and begging you to just taste one.   Don’t do it… Here is a fact that was drilled in my head by the nutritionist.   Alcohol reacts different in our bodies…(weight loss surgery patients)… first your body metabolic takes the alcohol and makes it the number one priority and burns it first therefore it is not burning your fats or carbs…. Therefore no weight loss until the alcohol all gone.  Plus we get drunk so much faster than a normal person and boy do it take forever to wear off.  I learned that real quick.  Even though I am not a drinker…I sip a little something every blue moon and then I limited it to only one or two sips.  I promise you I feel it real quick.  I never ever drive when I do… Because it lingers forever.
    • Walk by the sweets, potatoes, pasta salad and chips.. Don’t look, don’t peep don’t make any eye contact.  Just keep it moving and grab a paper towel to wipe the saliva off your lips.

    Go straight to the meats… Pick you a piece of chicken cut it in half, get you a piece of steak cut it in half, grab a ground beef patty (hamburger meat) and you guessed it …cut it in half.  You can add some cheese and mustard and ketchup to it.  Take your one bite of that chicken, steak and hamburger and walk always.  Because that’s all your little Shellies can hold anyway.  Wrap your plate for later and go mingle and laugh with family and friends.  Grab your water bottle and sip away while still looking sexy and lean.  You can do it. I know you can.  

    Now let me bake this red velvet earthquake cake and strawberry and oreo cream cheesecake cake for my cookout.  Then I will practice my own rules again.  Lol.  I know you are looking at your screen like what the hell.  But I don’t like strawberry cake and I have always detested Oreo cookies.  I never liked anything with cream in the middle.  But that dang red velvet earthquake cake….  (Shaking my head) we are going to war.  Love ya!!

    Love, peace and Happiness!!

    Happy July 4th everybody!! Be blessed!

    Tracy

    Magic wand that makes your fat melt away

     

    Good afternoon beautiful people!  I have been thinking about this writing this post for a few days and I finally got around to doing it.

    I  got to start this blog off by saying this ……Weight loss surgery is not a cure all!  Let me say this one more time for those who are considering having this surgery.  There is no such things as waving a magic wand and all your fat just melt away for eternity. Weight loss surgery is not a cure all!

    Now I know you are looking at this post and wondering why I am saying this and I am going to tell you why.  I have had several people who had this surgery and afterwards tell me…. they hate they did it.  They go on complaining about how their stomach hurts when they start trying to eat food that they were told not to eat.  Why is my stomach still big and why can’t I look like you?  Why is the scale not moving?  One friend even told me she hates protein shakes…and can’t stand to drink any.  But then she went on to tell me that her legs gave out on.  Here the thang….yes I said thang….. if you can’t do proteins shakes you better find something else to get those proteins in!  Shoot they have all kinds of other liquids with protein added.  You need that protein for those muscle… As for my friend……You know what I got to say about all of this…. WELCOME TO THE FREAKING CLUB you thought it was going to be easy.  WRONG.

    This surgery is a life changing surgery that helps you reach your desired weight goal if you do what your doctor and nutritionist teaches you to do.  Yea, yea, you will lose weight…but I bet you a dollar after the weight has plateau around your 3rd year…that fat will return.  Here is thing …..food is everywhere and you are constantly seeing it and it always knocking at your door saying …”Tracy come and take a bite of this rich thick piece of chocolate brownie…it won’t hurt.”  (blank stare)  Yes, it will because you will go back numerous times just to bite that bad boy!  After surgery, you got to change your daily eating habits for weight loss to happen. Sometimes you even have to separate from friends or family members who tempts you to overeat.  Shoot I found myself on numerous occasions overeating just because I knew my son was watching my plate so he could eat my leftovers.  Oh man, lunch at work was really bad.  When I go out to eat…I can only take a few bites so I am always getting a takeout box to take my remains back to my office and guess what I do.  I nibble on that left over food all day.  Heck I don’t be hungry…I just eat it because it is there.  How I stopped this bad habit, required that I start bringing my lunch to the office. That way I controlled my eating better. If I do go to lunch I put my plate in fridge at the office and don’t get it out until I go home and I make sure it is a healthy meal.

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    Please understand I am not being a know it all.  I am just tired of the bull crap about how I took the easy route. Shoot all I did was take a short cut that lead me right back to the main highway and I still got to do what everybody else has to do.  Watch what I eat and exercise to keep the weight off.   If anything this journey is harder because when you over eat it causes pain and everything you have to go through to have the surgery.  Please let’s not forget all of the medicine that you are required to take for the rest of you life.  This is not the easily road…this is the hardest road with so many curve balls it is ridiculous.

    Love, Peace and Happiness

    Tracy

     

     

    You got to love you!

    Good morning beautiful people!!! I want to discuss body image.   I know I am not the only one who will walk by something that shows your reflection  and think dang I am still fat.  You will notice your flabby arms, thick thighs and big gut and wonder why everybody keep saying you are melting away.   Because all you see is your former fat self.   Here is the thing that we got to remember is that…. the mind is deceiving YOU!   YOU have lost a significant about of weight.  YOU are making good food choices!  YOU got a lot to be proud of!  Body image can derail any weight loss goal.


    However all you got to do is remember this phrase protein first.  I never understood this until later after my surgery how important this phrase was.  Protein first is a phase that everybody who ever had gastric bypass surgery needs to post on their refrigerator. Hang it in your bathroom, hang it from your stove, or it in the cabinet doors… So when you open the door you see it.   Make a bracelet, put it in your car, put it in your office refrigerator.  Shoot  put in on your home screen of your cell phone and lap top.  When you keep seeing this phrase everytime you go to eat anything you can control your eating  habits.  Unless you are over eating and stretching that pouch which will lead to weight gain.

    What we have to understand is that protein is a nutrient that helps us feel fuller, longer. If we include proteins in each of our meals or healthy snacks, we’re less likely to feel hungry when it’s not time to eat.

    I know you are wondering  what can I do to be effective to ensure that I lose and maintain my weight loss.  In my opinion the number one rule is to eat protein rich foods first. See here is the thing after  surgery, your body will need adequate protein to help build, repair, and maintain muscle tissue and organs. Protein deficiency can occur over an extended period of time which can cause fatigue, hair loss, and muscle wasting.   I remember when I was about three months out after my RNY gastric bypass… My fingernails were so soft and brittle I could barely stratch  myself. Then my big dumb self tried to cover them up with fake nails.  Omg… That hurt so bad it was crazy.   I hurried up and bought Boltin.  Then my hair started falling out also…. Talk about going thru.  That was a really hard period to go thru but I made it thru.  The hair issue was not so bad for me because I love wigs.
    Just remember Proteins are one of the essential building blocks of the human body and you need them.

    The next time you walk by something that shows your reflection.. Say to yourself.  I look good, and I am doing good therefore I am good! 😊  You got to encourage yourself!! Because you are your biggest motivator.  Love the skin you are in.  Because you could still be that former you.

    Peace, Happiness and Love!!

    Tracy

    Two little wilted round small oranges.

    breast

    Good evening beautiful people!

    I went to the YMCA today and burned around 500 calories!! I did that and I am patting myself on the back fat because it is disappearing as I type. I be pumping iron and breathing, pumping iron and breathing, pausing to keep from passing out and working on those areas trying to make them disappear.  With that being said I want to discuss a subject that is a little out there.  So hang tight while I gather my words.

    Before my weight loss surgery…I had this humongous stomach and my two little …how do I say this without sounding vulgar…my two little melons just lay there like two little wilted round small oranges. Because of my stomach I look like I didn’t even have any boobies.  Man my stomach was so HUGE that my Orthopedic specialist explained to me why my back hurt so much.  I have disk degenerative disease in the lower part of my back because of my weight that I carry for about 20 years.   What I had to understand is that the spine of our body is designed in such a way that it carries the weight of the body and maintains balance and distributes the weight during periods of rest and activity.  Since I was extremely overweight and had a big belly, my spine was forced to carry that extra weight on itself and it was not able to distribute to other parts of the body. This results in my spine being overworked resulting in damage to the spine and causing me to have many sleepless and painful nights. Boy I went through so many mattresses trying to find one that would help me sleep better.  Now remember I also had Sleep Apnea and bad hips that need to be replaced but my insurance would not approve a hip replacement because of my BMI was 55. Because of this I suffers unrelenting back and hip pain.  I was tore up from the floor up.

    disk

    Fast forward to now and after losing close to 150 pounds and my tummy shrinking down and it is about flat (However I do have skin that will need to be). My back no longer hurts.  Except when I had my hip replaced last November and that was because I couldn’t do nothing but lay on my back.  Now back to subject at hand.  I got breasties!! I got 38 DD size breasts to be exact! (Shaking my head from side to side as I type that)

    Would you believe that I am also blushing as I type this, NOT!! I loveeeeeee my breasts.  I buy bras that emphasize those bad boys!! Whatttt…. you can’t tell me nothing!  Let me tell you how much breasts I got.  I was at work one day and my beautiful blond head friend, name Mica poked me in one of my breasts and said she wanted to know where did they come from. See me and her were the two biggest girls in the office with the smallest breasts!  So she was a little jealous because we have always talked about how we wanted big breasts so our stomach wouldn’t be emphasize so much.  LOL I know right. I love you MICA!!! You are my Ivory and I am your Ebony remember that when you are reading this post!!

    This is one of the pro about any weight loss. You gain a figure!! Shoot I have a waist, hips, breasts, butt and I am going to keep those bad boys.  So I will be eating PROTEIN FIRST for the rest of my life and popping vitamins everyday!! I love going to sleep and my back not hurting so bad that I can’t sleep.

    Smooches beautiful people!!  Check me out in my Sunday gear from this past Sunday. Boobies was popping!!img_1597

    Love, Peace and Happiness!

    Tracy

    Can I chose the area where I want to lose weight?

    Good evening beautiful people!! Well I called and I called it right. I said I would probably lose the weight in my fat feet and dang if I didn’t.  I was at work walking to the file room when I notice my feet was sliding like crazy in my sandals.  I look down to make sure they were still zipped in the back and notice that each foot was sitting back more at if my shoes were to big.  I am currently in 9 or 10 size depends on how the shoe is made.  I like the ability to be able to buy prettier shoes because of my fat little tree trunks.  However right now I want lose weight in my thighs, back fat or bat wings area.  But if we were able to pick and choose where we lost weight it would be so awesome.   But in the real world that is not possible…. So I need to get out of la-la land.


    I have never really been a shoe girl until I lost weight. Plus I can’t go pass a heel that is over 3 and half.  Any higher and I might have to get my new hip replaced.  Plus you will not see me wobbling around and I can’t walk.  I like to be able to walk as natural as possible.  Especially since my orthopedic surgeon made my leg longer with my new hip. I am currently in love with..Lane Bryant and Catherine’s stores.  Their shoes and boots are catered toward wide feet.  Plus they are so comfortable and they have pretty designs that are available in my preferred heights.  The shoes are not to high priced also.  I love the ability to find boots in my size also.  Check them out.  Trust and believe these stores are not paying me to say this.   Have a good day beautiful people!!

    Peace, love and happiness!!

    Tracy