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On a mission to get back on track.

Good morning person! I got some bad news this morning. I step on the scale this bitch had moved up 13 pounds. My knees gave out on me and I fell to the floor. I was so devastated and distraught that I passed out for a few moments.

Now let’s stop right here. Let’s marinated on this for a few minutes. Let’s think about what got me here. First of all I ran out of my protein and didn’t drink them for about 2 or 3 weeks. I endudge in some buffet meals, Thanksgiving, not exercising, stayed started drinking soda. The list go on, and on. My first sign that something was amissed was when I put on a pair of pants that was loose before but was now tight as hell!! I couldn’t even sit in the bad boys. ūü§Ē I knew I was going have to weight Myself the next morning.

Now here thing…..I am very aware how 10 pounds can turn into 10 more pounds and another 10 pounds. So I am on a mission to get back on course. Most people would just give up and not be able to regroup. But not me. I refuse to get caught up in my daily life duties and neglect my weight. Shoot I like looking sexy in my clothes and being able to stop traffic. ūüėČ. Lol…but for real. I can’t go back to were I came from. I am on a mission to get back on track. Heck no it is not easy but it can be done. Keep me in your prayers as I regain my focus and drop these last 30 pounds that I have been trying to lose since I started this journey.

Love, peace and happiness!

Tracy

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It’s my birthday!!


‚Äč‚ÄčGood morning beautiful people!! Today is your girl’s birthday.  I got so much to celebrate because he woke me up one more day to celebrate another year with family and friends.  

You know the closer I get to 50 years old the more I start to revaulation my life.  I am seeking so much more such as peace, stability and love.  I am at the age were I am refusing to accept anything more.  I mean my golden years are only a couple years away.  I want to remain  healthy and live a long meaningful life.  I want to continue to focus on my relationship with GOD and be a better mother, wife and friend.  My family, weight and career always come after that.  

Things don’t always go the way I want it to but I do my best to keep moving forward.   My career is something that I want to grow and I love blogging but have never thought of this as more than hobby.  

I want to continue growing and moving forward in my life and be able to look back see my growth in five years, like I am able to do now.  I love that I accomplished some really great goals such as having my undergrad and graduation degree and I am working as a counselor.  I just want to continue to grow and prosper more.  This is my hope for my birthday today.

Peace, love and happiness beautiful people!!

Birthday girl,

Tracy

Shopping smartly after weight loss surgery

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Good morning beautiful people! ¬†I decided to post about something I love to do… Shop!! I will admit I am addicted!!¬† But don’t get me wrong my bills always come first! ¬†Shoot I don’t make no money…I am a¬†struggling working parent trying to make a dollar out of¬† fifteen cent.¬† However since I have lost over 150 pounds and I am able to shop and find so many pretty pieces because as we all know… They cater more to the smaller sizes. ¬† I hated shopping when I was bigger because it was so hard to find things I like that would hide my budges and that was comfortable to wear…..¬†¬†plus it was expensive.

But now…..Man let me start off by saying ¬†I love several stores but my favorite is Ashley Stewart stores. ¬†I have posted several times about this place because it seems like the store was made for me. ¬†Oh yea, AND they do cater to the plus size. ¬†Their clothing go all the way up to a size 32. ¬†I get some of the best deals off of their online site. ¬†You got to join the email and text services because they will send you information on the sales. ¬† I got both of these dresses for only $15.00 each off of their clearance link when it was 50% off.

 

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Now let me say before hand I am a cheap shopper. ¬†I got bills to pay so I can’t afford to pay alot of money for clothing. ¬†That’s why my second favorite store is any Goodwill store that’s is color coordinated. ¬†This outfit only cost me $11.50 from my locate Goodwill here in my town. ¬†I paired it with a pair of Black knee high boots from Lane Bryant and added my jewelry. ¬†Now tell me you can’t beat that.

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But here is my major save that I got to share. ¬†My third favorite store is Lane Bryant store and online site. ¬†Now I know they are little expensive but man when they have those sales with 50% you can get some awesome deals. ¬† Plus I love how they cater to the plus size and all of their shoes are made for wide feet and calves.¬† I just put these¬†4 pairs of boots on my charge last night…. because ¬†well I needed some winter boots!! ūüėúūüėú Man they was having an awesome sale going on…. I got those all those bad boys for under $140.00 total. ¬†Check them out… Because their boots usually run around $80.00 a pair and I got 4 pair for $140.00!!

Here is the thing…. We women struggle with so many internal things.¬† But one thing that always boosts my spirits is when I know I look good and wear my outfit like a queen. We have to find something that make us feel good about ourselves. We have to motivate and believe in ourselves and walk in every room like we are Queen Sheba!! That how I look at life everyday because mentally I can feel so drain and in the dumps and I refuse to feel like this all the time!¬† I want everyday to feel like Christmas…but that’s not possible.¬† Shopping helps me to overcome those days.

I will tried to do a monthly or Bi-monthly post about my deals that I find. ¬†Until the next time beautiful people!! Be blessed… Oh yea… Trust and believe that nobody has paid me to do this posts. ¬† I just love shoes ¬†and clothes!!

Love, peace and happiness!

Tracy

Just taking it one day at a time

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Good morning beautiful people!  I know I have fell off on my blogging but I am going through a really rough time right now mentally.  I am just taking it one day at a time and anything extra just takes a lot out of me..  However even though I am struggling mentally.  My weight always stays at the forefront of my mind.  I refuse to let this mental stuff make me gain weight.  I am focusing on my weight more than anything and I am trying to maintain and make sure I am keeping those pounds away.  I am still walking and I am in the process of adding more miles.

Now I could never really air what is going on in my personal life but it really life changing and it is causing problems big time. I just stay prayed up and try to keep GOD first however it is still hard.  I think we all have our lows and highs that we all struggle with everyday.  I just feel that at this time my mental bags are extra heavy.  Those suckers are really dragging me down and putting a damper on my spirits.

 

Now that is enough about my mental struggles and lets talk ABOUT my results from the Endoscopy and colonoscopy. The endoscopy came out great and they did not find anything wrong however I am still fighting acid reflux and I am taking 3 medications for it.¬† Also my colonoscopy was failed…after going to the bathroom over 100 times in a 8 hour period. I was informed that I was still full of shit and he could not complete the procedure, however he did get one poly out and it was tested and was negative. But because they did find one poly I was schedule for a colon X-ray this upcoming week.¬†¬† Now¬†that a sucker.¬† I drunk 2 full bottles of that nasty junk and was still full of shit.¬† Now I got to do a barium enema x-ray. I hate doing these sucker.¬† However maybe I will lose about 5 pounds.¬† Heck a girl can hope and dream right!!

Peace, Love and Happiness

Tracy

Colonoscopy and Endoscopy preparation after WLS

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Good evening beautiful people.  As you all know I am currently having major issues with my Acid Re-flux.  I am currently taking three medications Famotidine 40 mg, Ranitidine 300 mg, Pantoprazole 40 mg. One in the morning and two at night. I am scheduled for a endoscopy and colonoscopy tomorrow and the preparation is something else.

Man first let me say this…I am hungry , I mean really hungry as I drink this apple juice. Every commercials on TV is showing restaurant ads and they looks so dang good. ¬†I caught myself licking my flat screen TV when they showed a Kristy Kreme commercial featuring their new pumpkin spice glaze donuts. Then they had the nerve to only offer those bad boys for one day. I know, I know I don’t suppose to be eating those bad boys anyway. ¬†But when you are hungry you will imagine yourself eating any and everything and I am starving. As soon as I finish this blog post I am going to bed so I can dream of chicken wings covered in all kinds of sauce.

The preparation for a colonoscopy is awfulllllll. ¬†Let me say that one more time it is dreadful, disgusting, atrocious, ghastly, unpleasant and I could go on with other words that mean the same thing as awful. ¬†But it will all mean the same…… the preparation for the procedure is something else. ¬†Because I have had the gastric bypass I could not do the usual prep and the doctor ¬†recommended that I buy two to three bottle of magnesium citrate, and drink those starting at 12:00 today. ¬†I went to the local Dollar General store and purchase 3 bottles and started drinking the first one. ¬†To say I want to throw up is a understatement. ¬†That crap is disgusting. I was burping and gagging all at the same time. ¬†It was so bad that my supervisor told me to go home. ¬†She was scared I was going to have a accident in the office. ¬†The doctor recommended that I try and drink one every hour until I was done. ¬†Man it took me two hours to get that crap down. ¬†The second one was faster however but the burping was out of the world. I could have burp a song I was burping so much. ¬†I also purchase several bottle of clear liquid to drink such as apple juice, white grape juice and for whatever reason I though I could eat apple sauce. I was wrong and the paperwork confirmed that. The doctor also said that it was¬†important that I not consume anything red or purple because it could look like blood in my intestines when they doing the procedure so V8’s was out of the question which would have made me full.

Fast forward to now.  (Warning this could be a TMI moment)  I went to sleep because I was wanting to eat so badly and woke up to Shelly the Belly and my colon contracting, grunting and moaning like crazy.  I stayed in the bathroom for about 30 minutes emptying my colon and I am still going.   This is crazy, how can one person have this much crap.  If I have to go one more time I will scream.  I know I have flushed away at least 3 pounds.

Nevertheless I am scared, nervous and afraid because I want to know what is causing the excessive acid re-flux and I am nervous about the colonoscopy because of the history of cancer in my family. ¬†I got to quit googling my acid re-flux problems for gastric bypass patients because they give so many different reasons that this could be happening and my mind be in over drive worrying about it. However GOD got me and he always keeps me in the palm of his hands. ¬†I just can’t let my insecurity slide in. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers ladies and gents that the results will be good.

Peace, Love and Happiness

Blessing from Tracy

Celebrating Three years weight loss surgery anniversary!

Hey beautiful people!  Sorry I haven’t been posting but it’s been crazy this last month at work.   As you all know i consider myself a fashionista…. The cheap version. See this  one right here will never ever own a pair of red bottom shoes unless someone send them to me free.  This right cha here will never ever wear Verace clothing.  Lol…I am just being real. If i ever win the lottery or get a my dream job making over 100 grand a year  I still wouldn’t  buy any because I can’t see paying those type of prices for clothing.  

I know somebody looking at this post like what does this have to do with weight loss.  A lot I say.  When you are overweight you was limited in what and where you could purchase your clothing from.  Now three years later it is better everybody is carrying size 26 all the way up to size 32.  But back in 2014 which was just three year ago it was not that easy.  I had started  thinking about sewing and designing my own clothing because it was so hard to find clothing in my size that look good professionally.  I know at that time Catherine’s and lane Bryant was out there but they are high also.  At that time my favorite store Ashley Stewart didn’t go pass  a 24 or 26.  Cato’s Stores carried my size but you and every other person had the same outfit on.  

Now fast forward to now… Clothes in my size 14 are everywhere.  White, lime green , mauve, peach, orange all these colors…. Oh my what is a girl to do… But shop until she drop.  My closet rods get mad everytime I hang something new in there.

I just celebrated my 3  years weight loss surgery anniversary on July 31.  Being able to shop anywhere is the best reward for losing this weight.  I love going to the Goodwill and putting pretty pieces together.   It just something about feeling and looking good when you go out.  Because I can reflect back before my weight loss surgery and I swore everybody was whispering about my weight behind my back. Shoot I remember the first time I flew on my first airplane flight, my sister had told me before hand to ask for a extender for the seat belt as soon as I got on to avoid any embarrassment of asking after I sat down.  This was so true.  Little things like that draw attention to your weight big time.   Nevertheless this is not a problem anymore…. Because I know they are eagerly waiting just to see what I have on. (I have been told this numerous times)   I have set the stage for me and only me…I can’t be better than nobody but me …..from two days ago.  

 GOD blessing!    Stay blessed and not stressed! Love, peace and Happiness beautiful people!

Tracy 

When you underestimate the weather. 

Good morning beautiful people!! Am I the only person who plan all kinds of stuff to do in your head, that can help you meet your weight goal and don’t do it.

Well I was determined to actually do something that I had planned in my head for a change. ¬†So……..I plan a mile walk and only did half a mile at most. ¬†For instant……I knew I was babysitting my beautiful baby last Saturday and she loves to take walks outside. ¬†So I told my daughter to bring her stroller because we’re going for a walk that day.

First mistake….I got dressed and left the house with her in the stroller eating on her snack around 11:30 in the morning. ¬†Yea, yea…. I know ….. that’s when it is starting to get really hot. Well it wasn’t… at first. ¬†But that changed real quick.

Second mistake….I tried to get all glammed up….(you know pretty) big mistake… First the sun was bearing down on my wig. ¬†(important note to remember… Wigs do not block the sun) The jeans was not comfortable to walk in and I didn’t put socks on with my tennis shoes. ¬†You talking about a slipping and sliding mess.

Third mistake….I should have taken A stick to fight off any creatures that decide to investigate Addie and I. ¬†Especially since little Addie want to holler “dog” at anything with four legs and do her imitate of a growl at the creature. ¬†Note…some animals want to growl back and attack.

Fourth mistake….I really thought I was going to walk a whole mile out in that hot and humid mess. ¬†I was missing the YMCA with its air conditioner, fan and TV on each machine drying my sweat. ¬†The cold water foundation that I could go to at any given time.

Fifth dang mistake…I forgot to download the dang walking app so I could see how many steps I took and how far I walk.

At this point I don’t know if I will ever, ever, ever start jogging outside. ¬†I think I am spoiled by the YMCA.

Love, peace and happiness!

Tracy