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When you underestimate the weather. 

Good morning beautiful people!! Am I the only person who plan all kinds of stuff to do in your head, that can help you meet your weight goal and don’t do it.

Well I was determined to actually do something that I had planned in my head for a change.  So……..I plan a mile walk and only did half a mile at most.  For instant……I knew I was babysitting my beautiful baby last Saturday and she loves to take walks outside.  So I told my daughter to bring her stroller because we’re going for a walk that day.

First mistake….I got dressed and left the house with her in the stroller eating on her snack around 11:30 in the morning.  Yea, yea…. I know ….. that’s when it is starting to get really hot. Well it wasn’t… at first.  But that changed real quick.

Second mistake….I tried to get all glammed up….(you know pretty) big mistake… First the sun was bearing down on my wig.  (important note to remember… Wigs do not block the sun) The jeans was not comfortable to walk in and I didn’t put socks on with my tennis shoes.  You talking about a slipping and sliding mess.

Third mistake….I should have taken A stick to fight off any creatures that decide to investigate Addie and I.  Especially since little Addie want to holler “dog” at anything with four legs and do her imitate of a growl at the creature.  Note…some animals want to growl back and attack.

Fourth mistake….I really thought I was going to walk a whole mile out in that hot and humid mess.  I was missing the YMCA with its air conditioner, fan and TV on each machine drying my sweat.  The cold water foundation that I could go to at any given time.

Fifth dang mistake…I forgot to download the dang walking app so I could see how many steps I took and how far I walk.

At this point I don’t know if I will ever, ever, ever start jogging outside.  I think I am spoiled by the YMCA.

Love, peace and happiness!


You got to love you!

Good morning beautiful people!!! I want to discuss body image.   I know I am not the only one who will walk by something that shows your reflection  and think dang I am still fat.  You will notice your flabby arms, thick thighs and big gut and wonder why everybody keep saying you are melting away.   Because all you see is your former fat self.   Here is the thing that we got to remember is that…. the mind is deceiving YOU!   YOU have lost a significant about of weight.  YOU are making good food choices!  YOU got a lot to be proud of!  Body image can derail any weight loss goal.

However all you got to do is remember this phrase protein first.  I never understood this until later after my surgery how important this phrase was.  Protein first is a phase that everybody who ever had gastric bypass surgery needs to post on their refrigerator. Hang it in your bathroom, hang it from your stove, or it in the cabinet doors… So when you open the door you see it.   Make a bracelet, put it in your car, put it in your office refrigerator.  Shoot  put in on your home screen of your cell phone and lap top.  When you keep seeing this phrase everytime you go to eat anything you can control your eating  habits.  Unless you are over eating and stretching that pouch which will lead to weight gain.

What we have to understand is that protein is a nutrient that helps us feel fuller, longer. If we include proteins in each of our meals or healthy snacks, we’re less likely to feel hungry when it’s not time to eat.

I know you are wondering  what can I do to be effective to ensure that I lose and maintain my weight loss.  In my opinion the number one rule is to eat protein rich foods first. See here is the thing after  surgery, your body will need adequate protein to help build, repair, and maintain muscle tissue and organs. Protein deficiency can occur over an extended period of time which can cause fatigue, hair loss, and muscle wasting.   I remember when I was about three months out after my RNY gastric bypass… My fingernails were so soft and brittle I could barely stratch  myself. Then my big dumb self tried to cover them up with fake nails.  Omg… That hurt so bad it was crazy.   I hurried up and bought Boltin.  Then my hair started falling out also…. Talk about going thru.  That was a really hard period to go thru but I made it thru.  The hair issue was not so bad for me because I love wigs.
Just remember Proteins are one of the essential building blocks of the human body and you need them.

The next time you walk by something that shows your reflection.. Say to yourself.  I look good, and I am doing good therefore I am good! 😊  You got to encourage yourself!! Because you are your biggest motivator.  Love the skin you are in.  Because you could still be that former you.

Peace, Happiness and Love!!


Disappointment is not my middle name.


One thing I have always pride myself on being is inspiring.  I refused to be a Debbie Downer.  With that being said, yes I was threw for a loop and felt like there were certain individuals that could have help but didn’t.  One thing I know for fact is that Tracy is responsible for my kids, my husband and myself and in that order.  I know that I got to watch out for us and always put us first.  So why should I be surprised when someone else doesn’t want to help and disappears when you need them.

Nevertheless I have moved on and is eagerly waiting for my surgery date on July 30th with $1000.00 less in my pocketbook.

On another good note I have lost a total of 28 pounds!! Everybody that I see keep talking about how much weight I am losing and that if I am losing the weight do I really need the surgery.  I cannot comprehension why people are saying this. Because there is no possible way that I can drink Optifast four times a day and one low-fat healthy meal everyday for $120.00 weekly forever.  I could do the low-fat meals because that is what the gastric bypass requires but not Optifast forever.

As I am shrinking I am constantly thinking of a masterplan to ensure that I remain and maintain my weight loss to live a long and healthy blessed life.

Hiding your trouble spots

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People have really surprised me lately, especially in my weight loss groups for the surgery.  Since I have sort of crossed over everybody has been very talkative and asking questions about what they will have to do once they reach this stage in the process.  Majority of the people are amaze that I weigh  over 300 pounds.  When I state my BMI is 55 they can not believe it.   But what people tend to forget is that I am technically very close to the ground. In order words I am short, 5`4 to be exact. People claim that I carry my weight really well. I have to explain that I don’t wear it well….I hide it really well.

One thing I do know is my problem areas. My stomach, my arms or bat wings as I called them, my thighs, wide butt and back. I make sure I purchased shirts that do not emphasized problem areas.  Because I have been ask if I was pregnancy because of Shelly the belly.  Pants are also purchased not to large on my frame but loose to help with spreading once I sit down.  I rarely wear dresses out because of my big legs. 

To each his own….but one thing I hate doing is showing my muffin top or wearing  shirts that are to tight that make me resemblance the Michelin man.  People are real quick to holler “girl be proud of your body” and I always end up giving them side eye.   It is alright to be proud of your body but….don’t walk out the house looking tore up.  Don’t get me wrong, I am really down for being you but we have to have some decency about our selves.

 However here is the thing….I can wear a size 24 in pants weighing 322 and someone else could be the same weight and wear a size 30 in pants.  It is all about how your body is shaped. We are not identical just because we weigh the same.

I am now in my first week of the 4 week required Optifast diet and man it is really hard.  I tell you what …..if I don’t lose weight on this sucker…I am going to flip out.  I am currently drinking 4 different flavors ready to drink supplements….. strawberry, chocolate, vanilla.  The flavor taste good and the soup are also good if you can believe that even though they are powder.  I really savor my one low- fat high protein meal.   Pray for me because I have three more weeks to go.


Love, peace and Happiness

Ms. Tracy

My journey, my life, my decisions


Well I got my letter in the mail about my approval for my surgery and was really excited.  Because this confirms I am having my surgery.  As you all know the surgery scheduler called me about the approval so I already knew.

My next step is to see the nutritionist  about starting the Optifast diet this Friday for four weeks.  I will start the diet this Saturday minus two hundred dollars in my pocket.  I am so really to get the ball moving.  The Optifast is suppose to help shrink your liver before the surgery,  because a enlarge liver can cause problem reaching your stomach during the surgery.  I have previously been diagnosed with fatty liver so this does  worry me some.

I will be allowed five Optifast 800 supplements and one food meal a day.  It will consist of protein such as chicken breast,  1 egg, fish, lean ham, turkey breast.  Vegetables non starchy, fruit such as Apple, oranges, kiwi, peaches, etc. Unlimited sugar free jello, sugar free popsicles, picked, cucumbers.  APPROXIMATELY 1200 calories per day. Woo!!! I will really savor that one meal.

It seems that when you get to this point everybody starts trying to give you advice.  For instance two ladies made sure they mention…. so and so died from that surgery. I mean really!! The last thing anybody wants to hear is the word death especially when you are getting ready to have the surgery.

Nevertheless as I have said on numerous occasion.  This is my journey!! As long as I trust and believe in my Lord and Savior, I know everything is going be alright.

Love, Peace and Happiness
Ms. Tracy

They have submitted my surgery for approval!!


I am happier then a bear that fell in a bucket of honey.  I am happier than someone who just found a $100.00 bill laying in the road and they are broke..

I finally saw the doctor this past Monday and the surgery scheduler and she was submitting for approval for the gastric bypass. Even though a few days have passed and I have not heard anything, I am still happy as heck.   Because this journey has been long as heck and I thought I would never see the end.

On another note…I have been having some problems with my blood pressure.   Nevertheless I had to see the cardiology to make sure my old kicker is working correctly and sufficiently for the surgery.  He had to sign off to ensure that heart is working right.  He did give his approval after he performs a few tests and he also put me on a new beta blocker to try and lower my blood pressure for the upcoming surgery.

I am happy to say that everything seems to be falling in place.

Peace, love and Happiness!
Ms.  Tracy

Come along and ride on my Fantastic Voyage.

ImageOne thing that I wanted to make sure I did when I started my blog was to inspire someone and not be depressing.  I did not want people to read my blog and want to cry.   I wanted people to read my post and think WOW if she can do it….  I know I can.

Therefore I wanted to make a list of things that I want to accomplish on this weight loss journey. I will mark off each goal as I complete it.   I am really looking forward to scratching through each one of these goals. Come along and ride on my Fantastic Voyage.

1.       Buy pants because they look good not because they will fit over my stomach.
2.       Buy shirts because they look good not because they will hide my stomach.
3.       Wear a pair of 6 inch stilettos.
4.       Wear leggings and actually look good.
5.       Exercise without stopping to breathe every five seconds.
6.       Wear a nice hat without having to cut the back to make it fit on my head.
7.       Fit into any restaurant booth without worry if Shelly my belly was sitting on the table.
8.       Walk long distances without worrying about passing out.
9.       Wear shorts above the knees.
10.   Wear a Maxi dress and not look 9 months pregnancy.
11.   Wear a pants suit with a jacket that will fit over my arms.
12.   Bend over and touch my toes.
13.   Wear my natural hair without my head looking like a basketball sitting on my enlarge body.
14.   Lose my double chin.
15.   Turn my head to the right or left side without popping a blood vessel in my neck.
16.   Can sit in any chair without worrying if it is going to break.
17.   Can sit in any movie or concert chair.
18.   Twerk correctly for my husband. Lol
19.   Carry my nephew in my arms while walking.
20.   Finally wear my cream or vanilla color vest and pantsuit with a pair of black stiletto.

Getting my life back on track


I have to get myself on track again. I slipped up and fell face first in a cheeseburger plate  last week.  I just happen be walking and all of sudden I slipped and fell on a cheeseburger plate.  When I push myself up the burger was in my mouth. LOL..if I can’t laugh at my mistakes something is really wrong.  I also did something really stupid Wednesday…. I ate a piece of seven favor pound cake, and two pieces of brownies and, and, (I know what else did this heifer eat) ice cream.  As soon as I finished eating I got a huge sugar rush and it was over and done.  I have never felt so bad in my life.  I have been sugar-free for at least three months.  I started sweating and feeling all dizzy like.   I couldn’t figure out what was going on, until I remember those succulent brownies covered in ice cream and the seven favor pound cake.  I will not venture down that road anytime soon for a long time.  I realize that SUGAR is not my friend.

 I am paying for a gym membership that I have only use a few times in the last couple of months.  I made a goal that I would attend the gym at least three times a week.  But of course I have not followed through with that goal.  I can say this much my daughter and son is using the membership.  I am trying to figure out when I can go……but I feel so bad.  I just feel so tired all the time and all I want to do is sleep.  I am taking a vitamin and hopefully that will help with the tiredness.   I am also going to start taking a B12 to try and boost my energy.

Update for progress on weight loss surgery. I met with my doctor this week and he explained what my next steps will be after the endoscopy pertaining that everything goes well with the procedure next Friday.  I will meet with the nurse and she will send for approval from my insurance.  If I all goes well I am hoping that I will be able to have the surgery at the end of March after my two-week liquid diet.

I am so ready for this to be over.  I am ready to get on the loser bench and get my health back on track.

Love, Peace and Happiness!!

Ms. Tracy

My path is not your path


I saw something really disturbing a couple of days ago on one of the groups I follow on the facebook about weight loss surgery.  One woman had recently had the surgery and was only about a week out.  She stated that she wants to end her life and the surgery was one of the biggest mistakes she had ever made and she was looking up possible reversal. Her post was so disturbing another woman who was schedule to have the surgery in a couple of days was also second guessing her surgery because of this post.  This is the type of stuff that scares the crap out me.  I am finally on the last leg of my journey and I am anxiously looking forward to having my surgery.  But when you read stuff like this.  It makes you stop and thinks is this the path I want to take.  Now I know we all have our own experiences with the surgery but it makes you think twice.   I have recently starting hearing a lot about the stages you go through with the weight loss surgery.  One of the stages is call the hibernation stage during this stage the body realizes that it is not going to receive its usual amount of calories.  Everybody on the page was telling the young woman that she was going through this stage.  They discussed how her body is falling back on its built-in evolutionary response to a low food supply the body just wants to rest and be as still as possible until the food returns. Energy levels drops through the floor, and you will become emotionally tearful or irritable.  They even discuss how your body is really pissed off at you because you have disrupted it usual food schedule.  It causes the person a lot of problems because they are recovering from the pain and now this.

Nonetheless I did have my last nutritionist appointment and she informed me that the Therapist sign off on my therapy session. I also lost 2 more pounds and now the only thing I am waiting on is for the doctors to meet and I will start the completing all the testing and finally get a surgery date.  I am nervous but excited at the same time. I do know that my path may not even be like the other woman and I am focusing on the positive benefits from the surgery. 

Then I got some more good news.  I am getting a promotion on my job.  So I am really happy because I only completed my Master Degree in May of 2012 and became a Counselor in November 2012. Things are really going really well even though I am having some medical problems.  Even in a storm you can still receive blessing and I am a true example of this. 


Love, Peace, and Happiness stay Blessed. 

Ms. Tracy

Conquring that beast called Fat.

I had an experience this week that rubbed me the wrong way.  An former coworker came to the office and he had lost a lot of weight, around 60 pounds.  He stated that he got more active by walking every day and just making more healthy food choices.  He was looking really good.

Now that is a good thing and I don’t have a problem with anybody losing weight. I don’t care how they do it. Just conquered that dang fat beast and kick his big butt! (Sorry I got lost for a minute in my pain)

Well I have an older coworker that has passed her 30 years expiration date at the office and she is still holding on torturing everybody in the office. This lady puts the H in horror.  She is constantly complaining about everything from her preacher at her church to her 43 year old son.  Nevertheless there is nothing we can do but patiently wait until she retires. She really hates her job but she stays for whatever reason…which I believe is just to torture the heck out of us. Now don’t get me wrong, oh girl is sharp as a whip and is in her mid 60s. But…we can’t only take so much.   When the old girl retires we are going to have a celebration after she is gone.

Well this coworker came into my office and was telling the guy that he did it the right way.  I step back and gently tap her on her shoulder and told her “You will not disrespect me whatsoever.  Weight loss is weight loss, I don’t care how you do as long as you are healthy. “She then said “but he did it the natural way.”  I then stated again “Weight loss, is weight loss however you can get it done.”

See this is the type mentality that I find so hard to stomach, especially when obesity is such a major problem here in the USA.

What I am assuming is that most people don’t really research weight loss surgery.  Because if they really did, they would know that the surgery is not just a cut in your stomach and boom all the weight is just going to fall off.  Now I know that I will continue to run into people who will have this type of negative mindset and try and change my mind.  But this is my decision, my body and my mind. I do believe that this is one of the reasons people are so private about the surgery. But not this chick, I will shout it to the world.  Do you want to know why, because it will help me to live to see another day, another week, another month and another year.