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My little fat tree trunks


Good Morning beautiful people!! I got something to share…that’s funny but really relative to learning to love yourself after weight loss surgery.  As you all know I am a self proclaimed fashionista.. I love to shop and I may be just a tiny bit addicted to shopping for the new improved Tracy.  My new focus is Lane Bryant and Catherine’s stores wide shoes.  Everytime they add some new shoes my big butt be on it.  Trying new high heels and crap like I am a pro.  Well they posted these new bad boys on their site and I had to get them.

 

Now I know some of you are old high heel steppers are looking  at these bad boys and are saying “look at that little heel.”   Well this heel is 4.75, which is really high for me.  With that being said ….I hate the fact that Lane Bryant don’t sell their shoes in their  store anymore and you have to order online.  Because for me….shoes are one thing that I need to try on and walk in before I purchase.  I got to make sure they don’t rub the corn and if my little fat feet can get them on.

  Nevertheless when I finally  received my order I put the box in the trunk of my car and forgot about it until I got to work the next day.  Well as soon as I got to the office I pull those bad boys out to try them on in my office. Now here comes the real test which I failed.   First problem was I couldn’t buckle the shoe on the side because my tree trunks had swollen up again.  Second problem was because my tree trunks was swollen the middle strap across the top of the shoe buckle up…. Like it was fighting my fat.  Here a picture to see for yourself.Now here is the funny thing…I couldn’t walk in these bad boys…I wobble, doing the lean to the side walk and holding on to everything. My coworkers was crying laughing at me.  I kept trying to push my knee back so I could stand up straight and the knees kept buckling.  I couldn’t do my sexy chocolate walk at all.  I almost fell several times so I just threw my hands up in defeat because the dang shoes won. I thought wedges was the easiest type of high heels shoe you can wear.  Boy was I wrong and I was taking them back to get a refund.  With that being said… Some shoes and some clothing is not designed for everybody.  I personally can’t wear what everybody else wears.   Now that’s my opinion about myself, so don’t take it personally…. DO YOU BOO!  But me on the other hand I have  several friends that will say to me real quick….”No, Tracy that’s not working take that back to the store.”  like these shoes and I listen. 

Love, peace and Happiness!

Tracy 

Ps.  Lane Bryant or Catherine’s are not paying me to say this.

You got to love you!

Good morning beautiful people!!! I want to discuss body image.   I know I am not the only one who will walk by something that shows your reflection  and think dang I am still fat.  You will notice your flabby arms, thick thighs and big gut and wonder why everybody keep saying you are melting away.   Because all you see is your former fat self.   Here is the thing that we got to remember is that…. the mind is deceiving YOU!   YOU have lost a significant about of weight.  YOU are making good food choices!  YOU got a lot to be proud of!  Body image can derail any weight loss goal.


However all you got to do is remember this phrase protein first.  I never understood this until later after my surgery how important this phrase was.  Protein first is a phase that everybody who ever had gastric bypass surgery needs to post on their refrigerator. Hang it in your bathroom, hang it from your stove, or it in the cabinet doors… So when you open the door you see it.   Make a bracelet, put it in your car, put it in your office refrigerator.  Shoot  put in on your home screen of your cell phone and lap top.  When you keep seeing this phrase everytime you go to eat anything you can control your eating  habits.  Unless you are over eating and stretching that pouch which will lead to weight gain.

What we have to understand is that protein is a nutrient that helps us feel fuller, longer. If we include proteins in each of our meals or healthy snacks, we’re less likely to feel hungry when it’s not time to eat.

I know you are wondering  what can I do to be effective to ensure that I lose and maintain my weight loss.  In my opinion the number one rule is to eat protein rich foods first. See here is the thing after  surgery, your body will need adequate protein to help build, repair, and maintain muscle tissue and organs. Protein deficiency can occur over an extended period of time which can cause fatigue, hair loss, and muscle wasting.   I remember when I was about three months out after my RNY gastric bypass… My fingernails were so soft and brittle I could barely stratch  myself. Then my big dumb self tried to cover them up with fake nails.  Omg… That hurt so bad it was crazy.   I hurried up and bought Boltin.  Then my hair started falling out also…. Talk about going thru.  That was a really hard period to go thru but I made it thru.  The hair issue was not so bad for me because I love wigs.
Just remember Proteins are one of the essential building blocks of the human body and you need them.

The next time you walk by something that shows your reflection.. Say to yourself.  I look good, and I am doing good therefore I am good! 😊  You got to encourage yourself!! Because you are your biggest motivator.  Love the skin you are in.  Because you could still be that former you.

Peace, Happiness and Love!!

Tracy

Can I chose the area where I want to lose weight?

Good evening beautiful people!! Well I called and I called it right. I said I would probably lose the weight in my fat feet and dang if I didn’t.  I was at work walking to the file room when I notice my feet was sliding like crazy in my sandals.  I look down to make sure they were still zipped in the back and notice that each foot was sitting back more at if my shoes were to big.  I am currently in 9 or 10 size depends on how the shoe is made.  I like the ability to be able to buy prettier shoes because of my fat little tree trunks.  However right now I want lose weight in my thighs, back fat or bat wings area.  But if we were able to pick and choose where we lost weight it would be so awesome.   But in the real world that is not possible…. So I need to get out of la-la land.


I have never really been a shoe girl until I lost weight. Plus I can’t go pass a heel that is over 3 and half.  Any higher and I might have to get my new hip replaced.  Plus you will not see me wobbling around and I can’t walk.  I like to be able to walk as natural as possible.  Especially since my orthopedic surgeon made my leg longer with my new hip. I am currently in love with..Lane Bryant and Catherine’s stores.  Their shoes and boots are catered toward wide feet.  Plus they are so comfortable and they have pretty designs that are available in my preferred heights.  The shoes are not to high priced also.  I love the ability to find boots in my size also.  Check them out.  Trust and believe these stores are not paying me to say this.   Have a good day beautiful people!!

Peace, love and happiness!!

Tracy

Adjusting to the new me

image It has officially been one week since I had my surgery on July 30, 2014. My starting weight when I went to the hospital was 311 pounds. When I got back home after my surgery I weigh 314 pounds. I wasn’t in denial, I knew my body had been through a major change and I was full of toxic fumes that could not find the correct exits doors because my muscles were not cooperating at the time.

My current weight is 295 pounds. WOW!! I can’t remember the last time I even weighing in my 200s. I am just amazed that I have lost 19 pounds in one week. Now don’t get it twisted I walked my butt off trying to get that gas to find the right doors. But nevertheless the weight is falling on fairly quickly. Let’s hope it continue.

I am also averaging around 80 grams of proteins and around 50 ounces of water the last couple days. Now remember I am on medical leave and is not set to return to the office until Sept 2, 2014 so I have the time to get all the fluids in. I am having problems with not gulping….I mean on average day before the surgery I was drinking over 80 ounces of water. Trying to control my gulping and changing to sipping is hard. I am also having problems with nausea, I am so glad the doctor gave me two medicines for that.

My drain was removed today also. That little balloon was really trying my patience. When the doctor cut the thread and had me to count to 30 out aloud. I could feel him pulling it out but it did not hurt whatsoever. I am going to post a picture of the drain so you can see how it looks. If you have a tender stomach you may not want to see this picture. You have a drain that is connected to the larger part of your stomach that was bypassed. It will come out of your side and will drain fluids. This helps the doctor to detect if there is a leak from any of the incisions. The bandages had to be changed daily and my husband and kids would act as if they were dying when they changed it.

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I was also taken off of one of my medicines for my high blood pressure today because I let the doctor know I hadn’t taken my medicines this morning to make sure I did not have to make a restroom stop on the way to my doctor appointment. He was amazed because it was only 117 over 72 so he took me off one of the medicine.

The six spots where they did my surgery laparoscopic itches likes crazy but there is no pain. This really amazes me because I thought I would be hurting where the incisions are located.

Mentally I am adjusting to everything because everything is control by your mouth. You can’t over indulge or just any eat any and everything anymore. Your stomach is master of that domain now. I am currently in the pureed stage, where everything has to be purred and liquified before I eat it. Then I am limited on what I can eat. I am happy about introducing other foods into my diet. But currently at this time I am to get my proteins from my protein shakes and can eat 6 small meals of a very limited variety of food.
As I travel down this road there is no going back. I can’t just change my mind and say I want my old stomach back. I have to suck it up and do what I have to do make sure that I stay healthy and that I take all my vitamins.

My journey, my life, my decisions

approve

Well I got my letter in the mail about my approval for my surgery and was really excited.  Because this confirms I am having my surgery.  As you all know the surgery scheduler called me about the approval so I already knew.

My next step is to see the nutritionist  about starting the Optifast diet this Friday for four weeks.  I will start the diet this Saturday minus two hundred dollars in my pocket.  I am so really to get the ball moving.  The Optifast is suppose to help shrink your liver before the surgery,  because a enlarge liver can cause problem reaching your stomach during the surgery.  I have previously been diagnosed with fatty liver so this does  worry me some.

I will be allowed five Optifast 800 supplements and one food meal a day.  It will consist of protein such as chicken breast,  1 egg, fish, lean ham, turkey breast.  Vegetables non starchy, fruit such as Apple, oranges, kiwi, peaches, etc. Unlimited sugar free jello, sugar free popsicles, picked, cucumbers.  APPROXIMATELY 1200 calories per day. Woo!!! I will really savor that one meal.

It seems that when you get to this point everybody starts trying to give you advice.  For instance two ladies made sure they mention…. so and so died from that surgery. I mean really!! The last thing anybody wants to hear is the word death especially when you are getting ready to have the surgery.

Nevertheless as I have said on numerous occasion.  This is my journey!! As long as I trust and believe in my Lord and Savior, I know everything is going be alright.

Love, Peace and Happiness
Ms. Tracy

Walking a mile in my shoes.

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I am getting nervous and excited at the same time.  I know without a shadow of doubt that my Lord and Savior will not put anything on me that I can’t handle.  But anytime that you are going under the knife you will get nervous.  I know that this surgery is happening at the right time because I am having major problems resulting from my much needed hip replacement and weight problems.
I have people questIoning me about the surgery and they are genuinely concern for my well-being.  However when I start taking about all the problems  I am having from my weight issues they seem to understand.  But at the end of the day the only person that I need to worry about is myself.  I am not doing this surgery for other people I am doing it for me.  I am doing it so I can enjoy a good quality of life. So I can be here for my kids and husband.  I want to be totally independent. I don’t want to have to ask someone for help putting on my own socks or tie my shoes strings.  I mean really…..people really don’t understand the statement about “walking a miles in someone shoes.”  Until you have dealt with someone else’s pain and physical illnesses you can’t understand their health issues and why they want weight loss surgery.

LOVE, PEACE AND HAPPINESS
MS. TRACY

I have been approved and scheduled

stock-photo-insurance-coverage-approved-148181882I am excited, overjoyed, overwhelmed, happy and ready.  I got my called this evening that I have been APPROVED for surgery and my surgery date is July 15th!! 🙂
There will be a required 4 week diet among several other things.  I will follow up with before pictures and the rest of the process sometime this week.

Love, Peace and Blessings
Mrs. Tracy