Good morning Beautiful people! Today is a new day and God see fit to wake me up one more time. I am really excited for whatever reason about blogging and I don’t know why.
Now I did say this time around for my blogging I was going to branch out do things a little different but I am going to still focus on my weight loss journey because it is ongoing.
One thing about me that is very important to me is cooking. I love being around the stove creating new low-fat and sugar-free recipes. On any given day you will find be in Pinterest looking at recipes and I am going through my head on how to reduce the fat and calories intake. You want food to still taste good and fulfilling because this help you stay in track with your weight loss also.
Shopping has become an obsession. However, I am a very cheap shopper. I will be posting some of my deals with pictures.
I am also rejoining the YMCA. The doctor has said I can restart exercising and I want to try jogging eventually. Maybe enter a marathon or two. I can’t wait to join because I have this big handsome 17 son who will be attending with me. He wants to drop weight and maybe play football his last year in high school next year. He weighs around 340. He is my partner in the kitchen and we are going to do this together. I love both of my awesome children.
Hello beautiful people! I want to talk about something that I had to deal with during this weight loss. One of my major issues in my life has been my self esteem.
Now what I am about to say is my own personal experiences and opinions. In our culture the light skin versus the dark skin……or the good hair versus the nappy hair was really prevalence. Now you have to remember I was teenager during the 80’s when the movie by “School Daze”, by Spike Lee came out. I was really able to relate to this movie, because I always felt like the dark skinned girl with the short coarse hair. I can remember being called fat, ugly and bald by other kids even some family members at times. A family member can break your self esteem worse than anything. Because this is someone you love. Because of my insecurity I believe that without a shadow of doubt this affected me for years and my self esteem suffered severely. It seemed that self esteem has always been a major problem with me. I have discussed this in previous posts. However I never explained how it really affected me. Now fast forward to 20 years later and weighing in at 340 pounds. Can you see how my self esteem had gotten worse? It took for me to start losing weight to finally see that God don’t make mistakes and that I am beautiful inside and out. There are still times that I will still look in the mirror and see Cecily from The Color Purple. However it is has greatly improved with time. Especially with all the good attention my weight loss attracts now.
One thing I found surprising was men have self esteem issues also. I have a friend who is a guy and he discussed self esteem issues because he was the darkest one in his family and did not have lighter eyes or skin like his siblings. He really was hurt by this. Which seen surprising because you don’t usually see this in men. But self esteem issues do not discriminate.
I realize that weight loss does increases one’s self esteem and make someone feel like a new person. We have to realize that we were beautiful when we were overweight we just never accepted it. Society has made us think that darker and heavier individuals feel like we not pretty and are ugly. But we have to remember that God don’t make any mistakes whether we are big, small, dark, skinny, tall, light, white, bright. Whatever you feel like is your shortcoming. Just know that you are beautiful however you look and God don’t make any mistakes.
My current doctor decided to go ahead and submit me for my surgery approval anyway. I agree because I felt that United Healthcare should have caught this before we got this far. I mean we completed everything. Now we are playing a waiting game, waiting to see if they are going to approve the surgery. I do have a tentative date of April 22, 2014. If everything is approved I will start my liquid diet next week. Saying my blessing and hoping for the best.
My daughter has lost over 20 pounds since she started actively attending the YMCA. She is dancing around and singing like a champ. The reason I am so proud of my daughter weight loss is because she and a group of childhood friends are all actively attending the YMCA at least 3 or 4 times a week. She has stop drinking soda and cut her bread intake down a lot. My son has also lost more weight and was recently told by one of his coaches that he was 90 percent muscle when they did his body mass. Now this has really made him happy and this boy/man is really flexing his muscle. My kids have even taken everything to another level and are completing who can lose the most weight between the two, who can bench more weights, etc. He also made the honor roll again straight As. He loves football and want to play college football at University of Florida and has the desire to go pro. But I know that is like a trying to find a needle in a haystack and I really encourage and promote grades above everything else. His size does catch everyone eyes…he is 5’9 weight in his 200s and is strong as heck. I love my two kids so much they are really making me so proud.
On another note: I am currently in the process of planning my family reunion for my father’s side of the family and I have to say it is the most stressful thing I have ever did. First of all people have really gotten tight with their money and do not want to spend any. Everybody wants things for free. They don’t want plan anything but they are quick to stalk me and ask about the reunion. I really don’t mind planning it…but I would like for the people to at least come out the pocket for something. One family members have really went out his way and paid the rent for building that we using for the reunion. I would love to have the event cater but that out the question because these people wouldn’t’ come out the pocket for the building so I know that is not going to happen. My only suggestions were that every family member brings one meat, one starch, one vegetable and one dessert and two drinks. Everything has to be enough for a family of four. The main thing is to reconnect with family whom we haven’t seen in years. The last time we had a reunion was 10 years ago.
I would greatly appreciate any suggestions on how to make this reunion a success.
I am a very emotional person, and it does not take much for me to cry. Watching The 600 lbs life show seems to hit home every time. I believe that I am able to relate with each one of the people even the one who is not successful on their journey. Even though I do not weigh as much as they did starting this journey I still feel every bit of their pain and I cry every time they cry.
When you are overweight it causes problems with walking, standing and bending. One of my major problems because of my weight is putting on my own trousers socks. Shelly the Belly restricts how far I can reach and I have to maneuver all over the place just to put my own socks on. I am pretty sure that my hips cause some problems with it also. I mean really this is such a simple task. Just Imagine if you cannot reach your feet to put sock on. I am going to add this to my list of things that I want to be able to do once I start losing.
Nevertheless I blame myself for my children being overweight also….. Because of how I cooked and what we ate when we went out to eat. Golden Corral, Ryan’s, and many Buffets restaurant were in business because of my family. It really hits home when I watch my kids fighting to lose the weight and become healthy again. If I had cooked and provided healthy meals right from the jump-start they wouldn’t be fighting this war now. I would have instilled healthy eating habits that they could carry on into adulthood. I am accepting responsibility for my all of my actions. Some people are not able to accept their responsibility for their weight. It is in my experience this can cause you to gain the weight right back. Problems and goals have to be addressed in this order: Analyze, Address, Adapt, Achieved to correct problems. These are the four A’s that I am living by.