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Just pure Gluttony ūüôĄ

Good morning beautiful people! Let’s discuss the term gluttony.

The dictionary states that Gluttony is habitual greed or excess in eating. It has also been said that gluttony was one the seven deadly sins. Nevertheless this can not be found in the Bible. However Gluttony is defined in the Bible as excessive eating. Plus it do happen to appears alongside the world drunkenness. So you can say that gluttony is someone who eats more than what is considered as healthy or eats excessively and that such behavior is considered sinful. I have to also say that gluttony is something that someone does all the time and is not something that happens every once in a while.

I know by now you are staring at the page and wondering why am I talking about this. Well give me a sec I am getting there.

Gluttony is something I did and still fight with every day, every hour and every second. I walk in the kitchen and I think about eating something and I am not even hungry. Drive by a restaurant and I think about what I could eat there and here is the problem I don’t be hungry….I just want it because it is accessible to me.

Gluttony is just overeating even when you are full. Take for instant I only put a spoonful of food of each item on my plate. Even though my mind is saying “Girl load that plate up you know Big boy going to eat all that food up”. However I am learning to controlled my mind and not let my mind tell me to overeat it. Because is is a mind game and our stomach were redesigned to tell us when when we are full. All we got to do is just stop and use our newly remanufactored stomach correctly. But naw here comes that good old gluttony trying to tempt us yet again. It is in my own personal opinion that food addictiveness is just as bad being addicted to drugs and alcohol. I mean man sometimes I eat just to eat. For instance I can go into the kitchen to get a glass of water and come back with a bag of popcorn, peanut butter and crackers for no apparent reason at all. I Just want to eat and I know I am not hungry. With any kind of diet…. gluttony is aways knocking at the your door whispering your name tempting you. Stay strong people and focus on meeting your goals. We can do it second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour until those learned behaviors are changed. Also please do not give up if you do over eat. Just refocus and start again. Learn what was your trigger that made you do it the last time and ignore it the next time. And Oh boy I promise you there will be a next time. Stay grounded and learn from you.

Peace, love and Happiness

Be Blessed Tracy


Abs are not age restricted!

Good morning beautiful people! As you all know I am on this major mission to reach my goal weight. The struggle is real as heck. I swear I see little pieces of Hershey chocolate floating around in the air and they be calling my name saying …”Tracyyyy, Tracyyyyy come and eat me!” And my big butt be floating toward them….while salivating everywhere. I mean really who else see food that they love on every dang commercial, magazines or ads on the internet…..when you are cutting all fattening food from your diet.

Anyway I was talking to my daughter about me exercising and trying to lose the weight yesterday. When I mention that I wanted Abs…. Well she interrupted me while laughing and said “Mama, what do you mean you want Abs?” Now when I realized that she was laughing at me….I didn’t get mad I got even more motivated and determine. Now here is the thing I love my sweet chuckling child but she has evidently underestimated her Mother’s ability to reach every goal that she has set her mind on. I went on to explained to my spoiled daughter, that I was tired of wearing shape wearing to hide my bumps, lumps and grooves and I wanted to be shape wear free. Meaning I want my body to be toned and cruvy without any extra help. I mean before I gained the weight I was like that years ago. Before her and her younger brother made me gain all that weight. Lmbo…we love to blame gain our excessive weight gain on our pregnancies. When in all actuality we just had poor eating and exercising habits.

Nevertheless my little girl/woman is 23 years old and thinks it is hilarious for a woman my age to want Abs! You got to be shitting me because age has nothing to do with wanting to look good and toned in your clothes. I don’t care if you wear jogging pants everyday or when you are in your panties and bras….you still want to look toned . One thing about gastric bypass surgery is when you lose all that weight you have to start fighting all that loose skin, which I hate with a passion. So now you may understand why I want to be firm and tone, not wiggly and jiggly.

Therefore I now have something to prove to my child and others who also think abs are age restricted.

Until next time! Peace, Love and Happiness!

Be Blessed Tracy!

Using Motivation Keys to lose weight

motivational is the golden key

Good morning beautiful people! I have a two years old granddaughter that is my world.  Every time she comes over and we go in my bedroom she runs directly to my scale and step on it and look down at it and look at me.  I laugh at her because this means she is copying somebody at her home who is weighing all the time.  Even though this is funny why do we have to focus on that scale so much that a child emulate us doing it?

Nevertheless I recently did a post about motivation and what my keys are to continue to lose my weight and stay healthy.   I listed shopping as one of my keys however there are several more. Therefore I wanted to discuss my other motivations keys in this post.

The dictionary defines Motivation as: The reason or reasons one has for acting or behaving in a particular way.

motivation2Here is a list of my motivation keys:

  1. ¬†Remain healthy and live a long fruitful life……. when one is carrying a large amount of weight.¬† It causes problems with your health.¬† For instant because of my previous overweight self, I suffered with Hypertension, GERD, High cholesterol, Orthopedic issues, Disc Degenerative Disorder, Sleep Apena Low stamina and endurance, low self esteem.¬† Man I was on several medications for each one of these diagnoses and I refuse to go back on that many medications.
  2. I like being able to walk long distance without feeling like I am going to pass out.  Walking was also another thing that cause problems.  I hated to go to grocery shopping and even try to shop because I got tired out so easily.
  3. The heat don’t bother me no more during the summer.¬† I swear when I was heavier…I thought I was going to pass out if I even peeped out the door during the spring and summer.
  4. Self esteem improved…Man on man.¬† There is nothing like being able to look in the mirror and feel good about yourself.¬† Weight loss can do that for you.¬† Just make your confidence improve drastically.
  5. Shopping and more shopping and more shopping… shopping cheaper, shopping is easily, shopping is fun, shopping is great.¬† ¬†Shopping make me feel better.¬† T
  6. Being able to fit in booths and seats in restaurants and other places.¬† Oh boy, I have posted about this before…Fat chair check…even though I don’t have to do this anymore.¬† ¬†I still do it.¬† I check every chair I sit in, just to make sure that I can fit or the chair will not fall when I sit in it.¬† Sorry old habits diet hard.

One thing I am learning to do is to focus on my day to day eating habits and not the scale. Because what I put in my mouth and exercise is the more important than anything. This is were I am able to keep the weight off and down.

Love, Peace, and Happiness

Be Blessed Tracy!


It’s my birthday!!

‚Äč‚ÄčGood morning beautiful people!! Today is your girl’s birthday.  I got so much to celebrate because he woke me up one more day to celebrate another year with family and friends.  

You know the closer I get to 50 years old the more I start to revaulation my life.  I am seeking so much more such as peace, stability and love.  I am at the age were I am refusing to accept anything more.  I mean my golden years are only a couple years away.  I want to remain  healthy and live a long meaningful life.  I want to continue to focus on my relationship with GOD and be a better mother, wife and friend.  My family, weight and career always come after that.  

Things don’t always go the way I want it to but I do my best to keep moving forward.   My career is something that I want to grow and I love blogging but have never thought of this as more than hobby.  

I want to continue growing and moving forward in my life and be able to look back see my growth in five years, like I am able to do now.  I love that I accomplished some really great goals such as having my undergrad and graduation degree and I am working as a counselor.  I just want to continue to grow and prosper more.  This is my hope for my birthday today.

Peace, love and happiness beautiful people!!

Birthday girl,


Its a struggle being consistent 


Good afternoon beautiful people!  I just wanted to blog about trying to lose weight and being at a standstill for a long period.  I really want to drop about 30 pounds and it seems that I am fighting like heck just to lose 5 pounds.  Now let’s be real.  Consistently is a must.  I must be consistent and exercise  on a regular basis.  I must be consistent about eating healthy food.  I must be consistent and get my water intake in.  There are so many more things I got to do better about.  I am very alert and aware of my weight which causes me and my scale to have this love and hate relationship.  I am constantly stepping on him just to see what he say.  (Yes my scale is a he.)  Because only a man can give you various information that’s bad majority of the time.  Lol


I personally know that I am always looking in the mirror and I see every imperfections and every flaw on my body.  Every woman does this no matter how pretty she is.  There will always be an area that you wants fixed.  For me it is my weight. I want to lose more pounds because I am so scared of going back to fat Tracy.   I sometimes look in the mirror and all I can see is that 340 pound woman.  That vision scares the living hell out of me.   I used this as a guide to ensure that I don’t get back there.


Nevertheless I always start planning my next day the day before.  I have everything all planned out in my head and never do ALL the things I have planned to do and usually it is the stuff that deals with eating and exercise.  If I did everything that I planned in my head I would weigh around 140 pounds.  I just got to get more consistent period. I know if I could lose a few pounds each week this would motivate me to be more consistent.  But I am just like most people I want thing to be easy and that not the case.  Even though I had the gastric bypass surgery it is still hard to keep this weight off and keep losing. Then here is the kicker when I finally meet my goals…I will start complaining about something else.  However that is not the point right now.  The point right now is being consistent as I keep saying in this post.

Another thing that bother me is when I go out to eat with family members.  I rarely eat more than 1/4 of my food.  However that don’t stop those vultures from watching and waiting for me to finish so they can swallow the rest of my food whole.  I don’t know why I let this upsets me but it does and it causes me to overeat because I know they are going to eat my leftovers.  I am working on this really hard because this type of gluttony can cause overeating which stretch Shelly the belly.  Help me LORD, because this should be my last worry. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I fight this battle that is continuous and never-ending.

I do got news to post about my tests I had this week and a couple of weeks ago.  I will post a blog about my results from the supposedly X-ray of my colon.  Please note I say supposedly….until later guys and gals!

Love, Peace and Happiness





Colonoscopy and Endoscopy preparation after WLS


Good evening beautiful people.  As you all know I am currently having major issues with my Acid Re-flux.  I am currently taking three medications Famotidine 40 mg, Ranitidine 300 mg, Pantoprazole 40 mg. One in the morning and two at night. I am scheduled for a endoscopy and colonoscopy tomorrow and the preparation is something else.

Man first let me say this…I am hungry , I mean really hungry as I drink this apple juice. Every commercials on TV is showing restaurant ads and they looks so dang good. ¬†I caught myself licking my flat screen TV when they showed a Kristy Kreme commercial featuring their new pumpkin spice glaze donuts. Then they had the nerve to only offer those bad boys for one day. I know, I know I don’t suppose to be eating those bad boys anyway. ¬†But when you are hungry you will imagine yourself eating any and everything and I am starving. As soon as I finish this blog post I am going to bed so I can dream of chicken wings covered in all kinds of sauce.

The preparation for a colonoscopy is awfulllllll. ¬†Let me say that one more time it is dreadful, disgusting, atrocious, ghastly, unpleasant and I could go on with other words that mean the same thing as awful. ¬†But it will all mean the same…… the preparation for the procedure is something else. ¬†Because I have had the gastric bypass I could not do the usual prep and the doctor ¬†recommended that I buy two to three bottle of magnesium citrate, and drink those starting at 12:00 today. ¬†I went to the local Dollar General store and purchase 3 bottles and started drinking the first one. ¬†To say I want to throw up is a understatement. ¬†That crap is disgusting. I was burping and gagging all at the same time. ¬†It was so bad that my supervisor told me to go home. ¬†She was scared I was going to have a accident in the office. ¬†The doctor recommended that I try and drink one every hour until I was done. ¬†Man it took me two hours to get that crap down. ¬†The second one was faster however but the burping was out of the world. I could have burp a song I was burping so much. ¬†I also purchase several bottle of clear liquid to drink such as apple juice, white grape juice and for whatever reason I though I could eat apple sauce. I was wrong and the paperwork confirmed that. The doctor also said that it was¬†important that I not consume anything red or purple because it could look like blood in my intestines when they doing the procedure so V8’s was out of the question which would have made me full.

Fast forward to now.  (Warning this could be a TMI moment)  I went to sleep because I was wanting to eat so badly and woke up to Shelly the Belly and my colon contracting, grunting and moaning like crazy.  I stayed in the bathroom for about 30 minutes emptying my colon and I am still going.   This is crazy, how can one person have this much crap.  If I have to go one more time I will scream.  I know I have flushed away at least 3 pounds.

Nevertheless I am scared, nervous and afraid because I want to know what is causing the excessive acid re-flux and I am nervous about the colonoscopy because of the history of cancer in my family. ¬†I got to quit googling my acid re-flux problems for gastric bypass patients because they give so many different reasons that this could be happening and my mind be in over drive worrying about it. However GOD got me and he always keeps me in the palm of his hands. ¬†I just can’t let my insecurity slide in. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers ladies and gents that the results will be good.

Peace, Love and Happiness

Blessing from Tracy

Magic wand that makes your fat melt away


Good afternoon beautiful people!  I have been thinking about this writing this post for a few days and I finally got around to doing it.

I¬† got to start this blog off by saying this ……Weight loss surgery is not a cure all! ¬†Let me say this one more time for those who are¬†considering having this surgery.¬† There is no such things as waving a magic wand and all your fat just¬†melt away for eternity. Weight loss surgery is not a cure all!

Now I know you are looking at this post and wondering why I am saying this and I am going to tell you why. ¬†I have had several people who had this surgery and afterwards tell me…. they hate they did it. ¬†They go on complaining about how their stomach hurts when they start trying to eat food that they were told not to eat. ¬†Why is my stomach still big and why can’t I look like you? ¬†Why is the scale not moving? ¬†One friend even told me she hates protein shakes…and can’t stand to drink any. ¬†But then she went on to tell me that her legs gave out on. ¬†Here the thang….yes I said thang…..¬†if you can’t do proteins shakes you better find something else to get those proteins in!¬† Shoot they have all kinds of other liquids with protein¬†added.¬† You need that protein for those muscle… As for my friend……You know what I got to say about all of this…. WELCOME TO THE FREAKING CLUB you thought it was going to be easy.¬† WRONG.

This surgery is a life changing surgery that helps you reach your desired weight goal if you do what your doctor and nutritionist teaches you to do.¬† Yea, yea, you will lose weight…but I bet you a dollar after the weight has plateau around your 3rd year…that fat will return.¬† Here is thing …..food is everywhere and you are constantly seeing it and it always knocking at your door saying …”Tracy come and take a bite of this rich thick piece of chocolate brownie…it won’t hurt.”¬† (blank stare)¬† Yes, it will because¬†you will go back numerous times just to bite that bad boy!¬† After surgery, you got to change your daily eating habits for weight loss to happen. Sometimes you even have to¬†separate from friends or family members who tempts¬†you to overeat.¬† Shoot I found myself on numerous occasions overeating just because I knew my son was watching my plate so he could eat my leftovers.¬† Oh man, lunch at work¬†was really bad.¬† When I go out to eat…I can only take a few bites so I am always getting a takeout box to take my remains back to my office and guess what I do.¬† I nibble on that left over food all day.¬† Heck I don’t be hungry…I just eat it because it is there.¬† How I stopped this bad habit, required that I start bringing my lunch to the office. That way I controlled my eating better. If I do go to lunch I put my plate in fridge at the office and don’t get it out until I go home and I make sure it is a healthy meal.


Please understand I am not being a know it all.¬† I am just tired of the bull crap about how I took the easy route. Shoot all I did was take a short cut that lead me right back to the main highway and I still got to do what everybody else has to do.¬† Watch what I¬†eat and exercise to keep the weight off.¬†¬† If anything this journey is harder because when you over eat it causes pain and everything you have to go through to have the surgery.¬† Please let’s not forget all of the¬†medicine that you are required to take for the rest of you¬†life.¬† This is not the easily road…this is the hardest road with so many curve balls it is ridiculous.

Love, Peace and Happiness