Hey beautiful people!!
I know it is late in the night and I need to have my sleep deprived butt in the bed. However I got to pat myself on the back for my performance today and yesterday also for refusing that sweet fresh out the oven still warm Kristy Kreme donut.
Today a beautiful, succulent moist cake was brought into the staff meeting for a coworker who is leaving my agency. Oh man, my mouth started watering, and I was wiping saliva from my lips but I did not touch one piece of that delectable, delicious looking cake. I turned down my piece because all I could see was the scale sliding closer to another five pound gain. I mean really in my head I could picture it doing it and number going up.
See here is thing when you start introducing those sugary and fatty foods back into your system you get the taste for them again. The next thing you know you are eating it on the regular. I refused to go back to the old Tracy who is overweight and can’t stand for more than 15 minutes and my feet start numbing. Or the Old Tracy who was so overweight that she was having problems wiping her own butt!! Heck yea I said. I had let me weight get so out of control that my short little stubby arms had to fight tooth and nail just to wipe my butt. I could lie and say that I was fat and fabulous but I was would be telling a LIE. Shoot I hated to go to Walmart because the store was so big and I hated walking.
Here is another tool I use also…Reminiscing about the old Fat Tracy Days! I remember when I first started my job and we had to go to a training in a city about 50 miles away from our office. We went to this Thai restaurant for lunch and oh man I will never forget this…when I went to sit in the chair at the table it was really snug. I decided to slide forward so I could be closer to the table because my belly was so big and I didn’t want to drop food on my shirt. This happen a lot because I had to bring the food over my extended enlarge stomach. When I tried to scoot closer to the table … the dang leg in back of the chair broke and my big butt fell in the floor. OH my gosh!! I was so embarrassed and as a coworker help me up. I gave praises to the good Lord above that there was only a few people in the restaurant that witness my epic crash. To say I was embarrassed in an understatement.
This is how the fat girl chair check started. I know you are looking at the computer and wondering what the heck is the fat girl chair check. Let me explain…. Whenever I go to any restaurant, I check the chairs at the table to make sure it is stable and can hold my weight. I still do this even though I am smaller because I was so embarrassed when I fell. These are the type of memories that I am using to motivate myself to stay on track and to continue losing the weight.
I do know that I got to get better with my exercise and attend the YMCA at least 3 days a week or better yet use my treadmill here at the house. I have so much going on, however that is just a excuse. I can’t keep making that same old excuse. I can make time and I will start making time. If I did as much as I planned on doing in my head. I would weight 150 pounds right now.
Farewell everyone!! Have a blessed day
Peace, Happiness, Love