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I am making progress

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Hey beautiful people!!

I know it is late in the night and I need to have my sleep deprived butt in the bed. However I got to pat myself on the back for my performance today and yesterday also for refusing that sweet fresh out the oven still warm Kristy Kreme donut.

Today a beautiful, succulent moist cake was brought into the staff meeting for a coworker who is leaving my agency.  Oh man, my mouth started watering, and I was wiping saliva from my lips but I did not touch one piece of that delectable, delicious looking cake.  I turned down my piece because all I could see was the scale sliding closer to another five pound gain.  I mean really in my head I could picture it doing it and number going up.

See here is thing when you start introducing those sugary and fatty foods back into your system you get the taste for them again.  The next thing you know you are eating it on the regular. I refused to go back to the old Tracy who is overweight and can’t stand for more than 15 minutes and my feet start numbing. Or the Old Tracy who was so overweight that she was having problems wiping her own butt!! Heck yea I said.  I had let me weight get so out of control that my short little stubby arms had to fight tooth and nail just to wipe my butt. I could lie and say that I was fat and fabulous but I was would be telling a LIE.  Shoot I hated to go to Walmart because the store was so big and I hated walking.

Here is another tool I use also…Reminiscing about the old Fat Tracy Days!   I remember when I first started my job and we had to go to a training in a city about 50 miles away from our office.  We went to this Thai restaurant for lunch and oh man I will never forget this…when I went to sit in the chair at the table it was really snug.  I decided to slide forward so I could be closer to the table because my belly was so big and I didn’t want to drop food on my shirt. This happen a lot because I had to bring the food over my extended enlarge stomach.  When I tried to scoot closer to the table … the dang leg in back of the chair broke and my big butt fell in the floor. OH my gosh!! I was so embarrassed and as a coworker help me up. I gave praises to the good Lord above that there was only a few people in the restaurant that witness my epic crash.  To say I was embarrassed in an understatement.

This is how the fat girl chair check started. I know you are looking at the computer and wondering what the heck is the fat girl chair check. Let me explain…. Whenever I go to any restaurant, I check the chairs at the table to make sure it is stable and can hold my weight. I still do this even though I am smaller because I was so embarrassed when I fell.  These are the type of memories that I am using to motivate myself to stay on track and to continue losing the weight.

I do know that I got to get better with my exercise and attend the YMCA at least 3 days a week or better yet use my treadmill here at the house.  I have so much going on, however that is just a excuse.  I can’t keep making that same old excuse.  I can make time and I will start making time.  If I did as much as I planned on doing in my head.  I would weight 150 pounds right now.

Farewell everyone!! Have a blessed day

Peace, Happiness, Love

Tracy

 

 

 

 

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Digging deep down and pulling myself back up!

vitaminGood morning beautiful people!!

  • Well today is not good day for your girl.  I have notice that I am feeling really tired and drained.  I can’t really figure out what is going on.  So while doing my research on my protein intake for  my protein limits in one shake I look over the vitamins requirement and remember that I hadn’t taken a Vitamin D in months.  I don’t know if this is what is making me feel sluggish and tired.  However I am going to the drug store today and purchase a couple of jars.  I have always taken:
  • my multivitamin
  • Blood pressure,
  • GERD (Acid reflux)
  • Fluid retention
  • B-12,
  • Biotin

However I have been iffy about the Calcium citrate  and potassium pills because I always took it 4 hours later.  Well that stops today.  I have put alarm on my phone to remind to take pills at lunch time and around 4:00 for my other dose.  I believe I am far enough out after my surgery to develop deficiencies from not taking these vitamins.

Now before you start hollering “are you stupid you know you got to take that Vitamin D.”  Let me explain how it slipped my mind.  I ran out of vitamin D and threw the bottle in the trash and was going to pick a bottle up and just forgot about it.  I mean really I had so much stuff going on last year.  Which is when I think I stop taking that vitamin.  I was going through and still going though some major personal stuff.  I was schedule to have my hip replaced around the first of August and it was canceled because I starting have severe pain in my stomach.  I thought I was dumping.  However I was wrong…it was my gallbladder.  So I had to have a two surgery last August to have my gallbladder removed and two weeks later they had to go back in the old stomach and remove a gallstones that had travel down my bile duct and they were not able to get it when I had the gallbladder remove.  Now just imagine have two surgery in one month on your stomach area.  (ALSO IMPORTANT NOTE:  IF YOU HURT IN YOUR STOMACH!! SKIP YOUR LOCAL ER (emergency room).  IF YOU HAD THE GASTRIC BYPASS THEY WILL NOT TOUCH YOU WITH A 12 FEET POLE. Go to your ER Hospital where you had your gastric bypass and call your gastric bypass doctor.)  This is how I forgot.

I know this is new news to everyone because my blogging has gotten really bad and I am trying to correct that now. Because this is information that people need to know to help them as they travel down this path.

I did talk to my nutritionist and she did inform me that I was taking too much protein at one time. She explained that all I need was one cup of milk, and one scoop of my protein in one drink.  She said do not included Greek yogurt.  She also made appointment for me to come in meet with her and I signed up for the classes for Post Op therapy group to help me with getting back on track.  I am being really proactive and I am going to have to make sure I don’t fall off again.  I have also decided to start going to my YMCA near my office and exercise during lunch.  What I am able to eat only take a few minutes and I rarely go out to lunch with my coworkers because I feel like I waste money.  I mean really I don’t eat enough to even go anywhere. I come out better just eating a can of chicken or tuna.  Plus when I go out to eat. There is always a lot of food left over and I end up getting a take out tray and guess what I do with that plate…I nibble on it all day while at the office.   So I want to exercise and during that time. Plus it gets me out of this dang office.  I will still go in the evening with my son also to the YMCA.

Any suggestions would greatly help. Because we all know that this is a trial and error program and you learn by listening and talking about your experiences with others.

Love, Peace and Happiness!

Tracy

 

Analyze, Address, Adapt, Achieve four A’s to live by

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I am a very emotional person, and it does not take much for me to cry.   Watching The 600 lbs life show seems to hit home every time.   I believe that I am able to relate with each one of the people even the one who is not successful on their journey.  Even though I do not weigh as much as they did starting this journey I still feel every bit of their pain and I cry every time they cry.

When you are overweight it causes problems with walking, standing and bending.  One of my major problems because of my weight is putting on my own trousers socks.   Shelly the Belly restricts how far I can reach and I have to maneuver all over the place just to put my own socks on.   I am pretty sure that my hips cause some problems with it also.   I mean really this is such a simple task.  Just Imagine if you cannot reach your feet to put sock on.  I am going to add this to my list of things that I want to be able to do once I start losing.

Nevertheless I blame myself for my children being overweight also….. Because of how I cooked and what we ate when we went out to eat.  Golden Corral, Ryan’s, and many Buffets restaurant were in business because of my family.  It really hits home when I watch my kids fighting to lose the weight and become healthy again.   If I had cooked and provided healthy meals right from the jump-start they wouldn’t be fighting this war now. I would have instilled healthy eating habits that they could carry on into adulthood. I am accepting responsibility for my all of my actions.   Some people are not able to accept their responsibility for their weight.  It is in my experience this can cause you to gain the weight right back.  Problems and goals have to be addressed in this order:  Analyze, Address, Adapt, Achieved to correct problems.    These are the four A’s that I am living by.

Peace, Love and Happiness

Mrs. Tracy