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Adjusting to Sherry my best friend The Cpap


I previously wrote a post about my best friend Sherry who is my Cpap machine  back in 2013 when I first started writing this blog. Here is the link…  My CPAP is named Sherry and she is my Best Friend.
Once again I started noticing I was tiring out during the day and I started taking numerous naps after work. Then my hubby started telling me that I was making weird noises at night while I was sleeping.  He would wake me up or lightly bump me again because the noises were so loud.  He continuous kept mentioning the noises for the last couple of months. During this time I would wake up with my lips, mouth and throat extremely dry. 
I would get pissed off all over again because he was waking me up.  But he had to prove his point …… he decided to record me while I was sleeping last Friday morning.  He woke me up at 4:30 a.m. so I could hear the recording. At first I started laughing until I started hearing how weird I sounded.  My husband asked me “Now what I am supposed to do when you are making sounds like this?  Shoot I want to call the ambulance because you sound really bad.” 
This was like a wake up call so I promise I was going to call my sleep apnea doctor the next day. But not before I tried to sleep without my cpap that night however that didn’t last long.  My body woke me up with a jump no more than 10 to 15 minutes later.  Letting me know the cpap was still needed. 
I called my doctor first thing Monday morning and made a appointment the next day. 

My weight loss was the first thing we discussed.  Then my problems with my cpap.  He went on to explain that my level which is 18, needs to be adjusted.  Nevertheless he explain that my head had shrunk because of my weight loss and I had loss a lot weight and my levels will not be that high.  He explained that the noises I was making was because my level was set to high and to much air was coming in which cause my mouth to open and let the air back out.  Hence the weird loud noises I was making with my mouth.  He explained that he was going to put me on a machine that will determine what my new level needs to be.  He also prescribed flonase for my severe sinuses problems.  So your girl is a happy camper….I have never been so excited to get something in my life. 

What I have to remember is the weight loss is like a reset. My body is in essence a new instrument and I am learning new things about it everyday, appreciating it even more.   Shoot my feet have even shrunken and I went down a size.


P.S. I am still going to post a post with pictures of the gym equipment I am using to tone and lose weight. I have not forgotten.

Love, Peace and Happiness
Mrs. Tracy

Why am I second guessing myself????


Well my time is approaching really fast and your girl is scared and nervous as heck.
My surgery date is July 15th and my family reunion is July 12th on my son 15th birthday.

As I have previously stated….myself and several other people have taken it on ourselves to plan our first reunion in over 10 years. Nevertheless I am slam worn out.  I am so tired that my feet will start walking and  my body is still standing still.  Then I wake up and realize I was dreaming of walking.  LOL

I am second guessing myself about this surgery. I am wondering if this is the right decision and can I lose weight without surgery and the truth of the matter is no.  However, all the possible complications scares the living day lights out of me.  I mean really I am taking a perfectly good organ and changing it to lose weight.  I have caught myself just lost in deep thoughts about this.  Please keep me in your prayers as the count down begins.

Peace, Blessing and Happiness!!

Ms. Tracy

My husband is my biggest supporter for my weight loss surgery.


I love my husband.  He has been working on his current job about 30 minutes away from our current town for about 9 months.  This job has the insurance that allows the gastric bypass surgery.  He previously worked at a company here in our town for 2 years that was only about 10 minutes away, but was through a temporary company.  They only kept him for 2 years and laid him off.  When we started job searching we looked for a job that was permanent and with good benefits and were able to found his current position.  Nevertheless he got a call from his old temporary company about coming back to the company here in town.  Even though it was tempting he didn’t even think twice about saying no because he knew his current job was the reason I was able to have the gastric bypass.  He told me afterwards and let me know he told them no.   I wanted to hug and kiss him if I hadn’t been driving to hospital yesterday for the endoscopy.

The endoscopy had your girl scare as crap.  The nurse fiddle around trying to find a vein to put the IV in and ended up sticking me three times trying to find a viable vein.  But the nurse was nice, so I didn’t fuss.

The overall experience was over before I knew it even though I woke up to the doctor putting the light down my throat and thought that somehow Sherry was choking in my sleep.  (Sherry is my CPAP machine.)  Evidently they knock me back out because all I remember is waking up to my handsome husband sitting beside me.  My throat feel likes someone stuck a water hose down my throat and I feel a little tender in my chest area.  But overall the experience wasn’t bad.  The doctor said everything look good so one more thing out the way.

 I live to see another day, another hour, and other minute.

Love, Peace and Happiness.

Mrs. Tracy

Here is a link to a post in this blog about Sherry and our precious friendship. https://tracysmanning.wordpress.com/2013/12/22/133/.

My CPAP is named Sherry and she is my Best Friend.

My husband and I were discussing my Sleep Apnea and I learned that he had a few concerns about this diagnosis which he has never spoken of.   Now everyone knows that we women will let our fears be known and will go to great lengths to make sure that our significant other knows every one of our concerns.   Well it seems that my hubby has kept his concerns a secret.

Now I sleep with a CPAP machine and I love her just like she is my best friend.  Before you even ask, yes my CPAP is a girl and her name is Sherry.  Sherry and I have been together for about 7 years and I love her very much.  She has helped me get through many sleepless nights.

Before Sherry ever came along, I would wake up every few minutes when I was sleeping and I never knew why.  I would also snore so loud that the window panes in my bedroom would rattle.   My husband has recorded me on several occasions so I could hear how loud I was.  My mother-in-law lived with us for a few years and use to swear she could hear me snoring through the floor every night and it was affecting her ability to go sleep.  She stated that she had to sleep with the TV on to drown my snoring out.

My husband was the worse…he would go to bed before me and try to go sleep first.  He told me that sometimes when he did get to go to sleep before me, he would not hear my snoring. Nevertheless, when my sexy hubby would go to bed, I would come skipping right behind him.   He would then tell me “Tracy, don’t you go to sleep before me…because if you do your snoring will keep me awake. “  Well as soon as we would lie down and because I had the undiagnosed Sleep Apnea, I would go straight to sleep, snoring like a bear hibernating during the winter.   He would get so pissed and I couldn’t understand all I wanted to do was sleep.

He also told me that he would bump or lightly elbow me to wake me up, because he said I would be snoring really hard drawing all the air in from the room (he swears he couldn’t breathe) and then suddenly quietness.  Now I knew he was doing this because when I would wake up he would fake like he was sleep and it would piss me off.   He told me he bumps me to make sure I kept breathing.  I would tell my kids about it the next morning and be fussing because I thought he was doing it intentionally.

Now flash forward to now, I am sleeping with Sherry (CPAP) every night and I sleep like a baby.  I don’t budge or move.  My husband proceeds to tell me that he means to bump or elbow me again because I am to quiet and he want to make sure I am still breathing.  He said it is usually to dark and he can’t see my chest rising because I sleep under a lot of covers so he just bumps or elbow me to verify I am still alive.

Now when he told me all of this last night, we were laughing like crazy about it.   But nevertheless he wanted to make sure that I knew my Sleep Apnea scares the crap out of him even though I sleep with Sherry.

Sherry has helped me a lot and because of her I have made it through a lot of important meetings, or family times where I would usually go to sleep. I am looking forward to losing this weight and putting Sherry on my no friend list forever.  Sorry Sherry I will always love you because you have help me out so much during those sleepless nights! But a girl got to do what a girl got to do!

Love, Peace, Happiness!  Remember the reason for the Season.

Why do you want to have the Gastric Bypass?

I have been asked “why do you want to have the Gastric Bypass?”  “Why not just exercise and just watch what you eat?”  Now I know I am not the only one who has been asked this question?  Then the next thing that will roll out the individual’s mouth is…..”I know so and so die from that surgery.”   I don’t know about anybody else but the last dang thing I want to hear about is somebody dying before I have any surgery.

As I stand there I have to debate whether to reveal the truth or not.  See I have try every diets that has been monitor by a doctor.  I tried the HCG diets, low carbs and high protein diets, cabbage diets, soups diets and I may lose 10, 20, 40, 60 pounds only to gain that and more back.  Or maybe I should tell them about my high blood pressure, diabetes, GERD, orthopedic problems, sleep apnea, and the lists goes on and on.  But I shouldn’t have to do.  People should understand that nobody; I mean nobody wants to be cut on for any reason.  “Well girl, (I say in my Kevin Hart voice) I just want to go lie on that table and let those suckers cut and dice and pull and pluck and stick a organ in my ear.  I would love that.”   (Then I give them my famous blank stare)

NO here is the real reason I am going to have this surgery…..…I want to be able to go any restaurant to eat my healthy meal and be able to fit into any booth and not have to get a table.

I want to be able to sit in any chair in a office, church, college, auditorium or roll coaster.  Without having to try and figure out if my big butt, big stomach, thick thighs and wide back will let me fit in the chair.

I want to go sit in any chair without having to give it the strength test. The strength test you say, what in the world is this heifer talking about.  YOU know what the strength test is (Stretching my eyes really wide). The strength test is where you push down and shake the chair to make sure it is sturdy enough to hold all of your weight, without breaking and dropping you on the floor.  Embarrassing the holy crap out of you in the public eye, trust and believe me, I know exactly how this feels.

See most people talk about the simple stuff, like going in any clothing store and being able to shop.  Yea I want that to…but there  are so many  more important things that I would like to.  I believe the most important things is the capability to put on my own stocking and tie my own shoes.

I also want to be able to turn my neck all the way without having my extra weight on my chin, and shoulders keeping me from looking back to make sure I am not pulling out in front a car.

I want to be able to sleep without having to fight with my CPAP every night because it is leaking air around my nose, or my hose done went renegade and is trying to choke me in my sleep.   These are a few of my wants.   I could go on and on but I do believe you get the picture.

This surgery is not something I just want just because I want to wear a bathing suit and strut myself around the beach and not have worry about everybody turning their head in disgust.    This surgery is a tool that will help me reach a goal that I thought would be forever unobtainable. Being healthy and staying healthy.