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My little fat tree trunks

Good Morning beautiful people!! I got something to share…that’s funny but really relative to learning to love yourself after weight loss surgery.  As you all know I am a self proclaimed fashionista.. I love to shop and I may be just a tiny bit addicted to shopping for the new improved Tracy.  My new focus is Lane Bryant and Catherine’s stores wide shoes.  Everytime they add some new shoes my big butt be on it.  Trying new high heels and crap like I am a pro.  Well they posted these new bad boys on their site and I had to get them.


Now I know some of you are old high heel steppers are looking  at these bad boys and are saying “look at that little heel.”   Well this heel is 4.75, which is really high for me.  With that being said ….I hate the fact that Lane Bryant don’t sell their shoes in their  store anymore and you have to order online.  Because for me….shoes are one thing that I need to try on and walk in before I purchase.  I got to make sure they don’t rub the corn and if my little fat feet can get them on.

  Nevertheless when I finally  received my order I put the box in the trunk of my car and forgot about it until I got to work the next day.  Well as soon as I got to the office I pull those bad boys out to try them on in my office. Now here comes the real test which I failed.   First problem was I couldn’t buckle the shoe on the side because my tree trunks had swollen up again.  Second problem was because my tree trunks was swollen the middle strap across the top of the shoe buckle up…. Like it was fighting my fat.  Here a picture to see for yourself.Now here is the funny thing…I couldn’t walk in these bad boys…I wobble, doing the lean to the side walk and holding on to everything. My coworkers was crying laughing at me.  I kept trying to push my knee back so I could stand up straight and the knees kept buckling.  I couldn’t do my sexy chocolate walk at all.  I almost fell several times so I just threw my hands up in defeat because the dang shoes won. I thought wedges was the easiest type of high heels shoe you can wear.  Boy was I wrong and I was taking them back to get a refund.  With that being said… Some shoes and some clothing is not designed for everybody.  I personally can’t wear what everybody else wears.   Now that’s my opinion about myself, so don’t take it personally…. DO YOU BOO!  But me on the other hand I have  several friends that will say to me real quick….”No, Tracy that’s not working take that back to the store.”  like these shoes and I listen. 

Love, peace and Happiness!


Ps.  Lane Bryant or Catherine’s are not paying me to say this.

You got to love you!

Good morning beautiful people!!! I want to discuss body image.   I know I am not the only one who will walk by something that shows your reflection  and think dang I am still fat.  You will notice your flabby arms, thick thighs and big gut and wonder why everybody keep saying you are melting away.   Because all you see is your former fat self.   Here is the thing that we got to remember is that…. the mind is deceiving YOU!   YOU have lost a significant about of weight.  YOU are making good food choices!  YOU got a lot to be proud of!  Body image can derail any weight loss goal.

However all you got to do is remember this phrase protein first.  I never understood this until later after my surgery how important this phrase was.  Protein first is a phase that everybody who ever had gastric bypass surgery needs to post on their refrigerator. Hang it in your bathroom, hang it from your stove, or it in the cabinet doors… So when you open the door you see it.   Make a bracelet, put it in your car, put it in your office refrigerator.  Shoot  put in on your home screen of your cell phone and lap top.  When you keep seeing this phrase everytime you go to eat anything you can control your eating  habits.  Unless you are over eating and stretching that pouch which will lead to weight gain.

What we have to understand is that protein is a nutrient that helps us feel fuller, longer. If we include proteins in each of our meals or healthy snacks, we’re less likely to feel hungry when it’s not time to eat.

I know you are wondering  what can I do to be effective to ensure that I lose and maintain my weight loss.  In my opinion the number one rule is to eat protein rich foods first. See here is the thing after  surgery, your body will need adequate protein to help build, repair, and maintain muscle tissue and organs. Protein deficiency can occur over an extended period of time which can cause fatigue, hair loss, and muscle wasting.   I remember when I was about three months out after my RNY gastric bypass… My fingernails were so soft and brittle I could barely stratch  myself. Then my big dumb self tried to cover them up with fake nails.  Omg… That hurt so bad it was crazy.   I hurried up and bought Boltin.  Then my hair started falling out also…. Talk about going thru.  That was a really hard period to go thru but I made it thru.  The hair issue was not so bad for me because I love wigs.
Just remember Proteins are one of the essential building blocks of the human body and you need them.

The next time you walk by something that shows your reflection.. Say to yourself.  I look good, and I am doing good therefore I am good! 😊  You got to encourage yourself!! Because you are your biggest motivator.  Love the skin you are in.  Because you could still be that former you.

Peace, Happiness and Love!!


To frizzle or not

wowMy grandmother use to tell my sisters and I that it was really unladylike to say the word fart. Before I go any further let me explain to those people that don’t recognize the word fart.  The dictionary defines fart as expelling gas from your butt.  Now since you have read the first  paragraph, I will understand if you keep strolling pass this post.
Back to my lovely grandmother, when we were kids if someone had to pass gas, they would usually announce it by saying they got to fart.  See in my dear old grandmother house that was the ultimate no, no.  As young ladies that she was helping to mold into beautiful young women that word was not allowed.  She required that we substitute that word with frizzle. The dictionary define frizzle as making a sizzling or sputtering noise.  Therefore throughout this post I will only use the word frizzle.  Even though there are numerous words for farting, such as pooting, passing gas,

i_pootedWhen you are preparing for the gastric bypass surgery one has to attend several classes to prepare for what will happen to your body after it has been alter.   One of the things that they discussed was excessive flatulence (frizzling) that you will have to endure. However I thought I wouldn’t have that problem.  WRONG!! I frizzle so much that I can clear my house and at night I really pass major gas.  It is like my body relaxes and my intestine stretch out and push out a lot of gas which comes out sounding like Daffy Duck.  It has gotten so bad that my husband refuses to sleep under the same cover at night with me.

I also had this one instance at work…….See what happen was…  I frizzled one day at work in my own private office and the smell would not leave.  So I get up and open a window to help push it out.  Instead the wind pushes it out of my office and into the common area where all the clerical people work and mingle.  All I could hear was people hollering and asking what is that smell. One lady said “OMG, something done die, call the maintenance man.”  Another was saying “The sewer has backed up somewhere.”  Then they see me standing by my office door with the air fresher in my hand and one of the ladies say “Tracy I know that wasn’t you, OMG, please don’t do that again.”

gasNow most people are probably wondering why I am blogging about frizzling.  Well because I want other individuals that are going to travel or traveling down this same road to see what other people are adjusting to and going through.  This is a major life change with major life changes.  I will continue to blog about my experiences and things that my body is going through because I want to keep you informed.
Love, Peace and Happiness

Ms. Tracy

I am seeing progress!!



I am getting excited!!  I met with the therapist today and she gave her approval.  I had to fill out several questionnaires about myself and she went over the results with me.  One of the things she discussed was that I may have the tendency to binge eat and then feel guilty afterward.  I stopped and stared at her and was saying in my head…..”No, no, no , not me…. I don’t do that” in my Kevin Hart voice.  However every word she said was true.   I do binge eat and then regret it afterward, shoot if you don’t believe me read some of my past posts.  Even though I have never put my finger down my throat because of my eating habits, it has crossed my mind before but I hate to throw up.  I have used the chew and don’t swallow method.

I know you looking at the screen and is wondering what the what???? Well let me explained what the swallow method is…you will bite a piece of sweet chewy chocolate brownie and chew and chew but don’t swallow and spit it out in the trash can.  Don’t shake your head or laugh at me.   At least I have consciously taken the responsibility to realize that I can’t eat the brownie.  Nevertheless, I know all it takes is one bite and you will eat even more.  As I have said on several occasions, I am working on these learned behaviors that have caused me to gain all this weight.  So be patience with me.  I do believe that when you eat unhealthy all kinds of crazy thoughts go through your head of possibly ways of getting all the fat back out of your body.

The therapist also discuss that I put on a fake face when I am around others.  I know you are wondering what a fake face is.   A fake face is when you smile and act as if your life is just amazing.   But what people don’t know is that you hide your problems and doesn’t show people what is really going on in your life.   To a certain degree I do act like this, but I am the type of person that believe that everything will work out and not to think negative about my problems.   I focus on solutions and how to correct it.  I don’t dwell on my problems but a second and then I am in correction mode and focusing on what is my back up plan and implementing it as soon as possible.

Well as a result of this visit with the therapist.  I will see the doctor on Monday the 19th.   Yes, yes even though this whole process has tore my nerves up.  I am getting there.  I am so happy I want to cut flips but I don’t believe my stubby arms can handle my weight.  Hopefully a date will be coming up next.. Fingers are crossed.

Stay Blessed!!

Ms. Tracy


Who is at fault????


I have been dupe, I have been lied to, I have been neglected, I have been swindled, fooled, tricked deceived, and hoodwinked.  I could go on and on and use every synonym that means hoodwinked.  But that would take too long to type all the words out.

I have been asked over and over how did you go through the whole process for gastric bypass and not know that you were going to the right doctor?  Who is responsible???  The answer is simple…I am at fault.   I should have triple, no bump that I should have double, triple check. I should have called the insurance over and over to make sure that everything was on track.

I have had my first visit with the new doctor office and they have several things I will have to complete that I was not informed of when I first talk to the scheduler.  The list includes:

  • 5 pre-surgery support groups before you first meeting with the doctor.
  • 10 pre-surgery support groups before your surgery date.
  • Pre-surgery OPTIFAST 800 Diet program.
  • This starts 4 weeks before my surgery and must be followed until the day before my surgery.
  •  I will also be required to lose 8% of my weight during that time.  (No problem I can do that).
  •   I have to consume OPTIFAST 800 supplements five times a day.  (These supplements will hit me for $400.00) They include soups, bars and powered shakes.  You are limited to only one bar and one soup a day.
  • I can only consume one meal a day which has to be low in fat, high in protein, non-starchy vegetables.
  •   I can have all the unlimited free foods I want…such as sugar-free jello and sugar-free Popsicle as longs as they less than 20 calories.  Pickles (dill only) cucumbers, celery.
  • Attend weekly medical monitoring and nutrition therapy training session as direction.


This is a lot for someone who had completed the process except for the 2 weeks diet for another doctor and his program.  Even though I don’t have to have the EDG I still feel like I am starting all over.  This process could have been done in February or March and I would have been on the losing side.  But as I have said on more than one occasion this is a set down for set up.

Nevertheless here is my message to anyone that is in the process of trying to get approval and embark on this journey.  Worry the heck out of your insurance…Ask about …..the Centers of Excellence, do your employer or your spouse employer have requirements that you need to complete, such as use certain doctor or hospital, is there a percentage of weight you have to lose right before the surgery.  These are only a few questions that need to be asked.  Research, probe and investigate, explore, study your insurance policy.

Love, peace and happiness.

Ms. Tracy