Archives

On a mission to get back on track.

Good morning person! I got some bad news this morning. I step on the scale this bitch had moved up 13 pounds. My knees gave out on me and I fell to the floor. I was so devastated and distraught that I passed out for a few moments.

Now let’s stop right here. Let’s marinated on this for a few minutes. Let’s think about what got me here. First of all I ran out of my protein and didn’t drink them for about 2 or 3 weeks. I endudge in some buffet meals, Thanksgiving, not exercising, stayed started drinking soda. The list go on, and on. My first sign that something was amissed was when I put on a pair of pants that was loose before but was now tight as hell!! I couldn’t even sit in the bad boys. ūü§Ē I knew I was going have to weight Myself the next morning.

Now here thing…..I am very aware how 10 pounds can turn into 10 more pounds and another 10 pounds. So I am on a mission to get back on course. Most people would just give up and not be able to regroup. But not me. I refuse to get caught up in my daily life duties and neglect my weight. Shoot I like looking sexy in my clothes and being able to stop traffic. ūüėČ. Lol…but for real. I can’t go back to were I came from. I am on a mission to get back on track. Heck no it is not easy but it can be done. Keep me in your prayers as I regain my focus and drop these last 30 pounds that I have been trying to lose since I started this journey.

Love, peace and happiness!

Tracy

Advertisements

When you are to busy to be busy.

Good morning beautiful people! I know I have been missing in action for about a month but things have really been hectic around here in my house. For starter my Mom’s house that she was renting had mold in it and she has been staying with me because she had severe Asthma and we are not taking a chance, Now let’s pause right there. When a woman reaches adulthood she usually moves away from her parents home. So now after 20 something years Mama and I are back in the same house. Now don’t get me wrong I love my Ma and enjoy all the time we have spend together. It just add more on you when someone else is in your home. Plus she is so old fashion. I mean take this for instant…one morning I am up getting ready for work and she gets up also…at the crack of dawn and had no where to go. She heads into the restroom were I am doing my makeup and hair. I notice as she is making small talk she is looking down and does not look in the mirror. Finally she said “Tracy do you remember when I told you it was bad luck for two people to look in the mirror.” I stop and pause and walkout of the bathroom. Then I turn around and go back and tell her to go to her room and finish replaiting her hair I got to go to the work and big boy got to get to school. Lol. She came in the bathroom with me and interrupted my process and about made me leave. Man I love my Mama!!

Second thing is preparing my son the boy/man ready for high school graduation and college. We are taking SAT/ACT and taking College tours, filing out the applications.

Third thing…I am having issues with my blood pressure. This sucker is staying around 160/100 something every morning when I check it. Plus I have been having these headaches also. I mean I don’t know what else to do. The doctor is closely monitoring it and I check it every morning but I am struggling big time. There are days when I don’t even want to get up and go to work. I am so tired every day around 3:00 and all I want to do it sleep.

Then there is my job…..shaking my head. I love my caseload and the work I do. However things have change since my eyes have been opened and I see more clearly. Let’s just say I am really working hard toward starting my own restaurant.

I am back in this and will be posting several updates in the next couple weeks. Be blessed and not stressed and until the next time!

Love, peace and Happiness!

Tracy

Shopping smartly after weight loss surgery

268320-Good-Morning-Beautiful-People-It-s-Friday-

Good morning beautiful people! ¬†I decided to post about something I love to do… Shop!! I will admit I am addicted!!¬† But don’t get me wrong my bills always come first! ¬†Shoot I don’t make no money…I am a¬†struggling working parent trying to make a dollar out of¬† fifteen cent.¬† However since I have lost over 150 pounds and I am able to shop and find so many pretty pieces because as we all know… They cater more to the smaller sizes. ¬† I hated shopping when I was bigger because it was so hard to find things I like that would hide my budges and that was comfortable to wear…..¬†¬†plus it was expensive.

But now…..Man let me start off by saying ¬†I love several stores but my favorite is Ashley Stewart stores. ¬†I have posted several times about this place because it seems like the store was made for me. ¬†Oh yea, AND they do cater to the plus size. ¬†Their clothing go all the way up to a size 32. ¬†I get some of the best deals off of their online site. ¬†You got to join the email and text services because they will send you information on the sales. ¬† I got both of these dresses for only $15.00 each off of their clearance link when it was 50% off.

 

img_2754img_1860
Now let me say before hand I am a cheap shopper. ¬†I got bills to pay so I can’t afford to pay alot of money for clothing. ¬†That’s why my second favorite store is any Goodwill store that’s is color coordinated. ¬†This outfit only cost me $11.50 from my locate Goodwill here in my town. ¬†I paired it with a pair of Black knee high boots from Lane Bryant and added my jewelry. ¬†Now tell me you can’t beat that.

img_2969-1
But here is my major save that I got to share. ¬†My third favorite store is Lane Bryant store and online site. ¬†Now I know they are little expensive but man when they have those sales with 50% you can get some awesome deals. ¬† Plus I love how they cater to the plus size and all of their shoes are made for wide feet and calves.¬† I just put these¬†4 pairs of boots on my charge last night…. because ¬†well I needed some winter boots!! ūüėúūüėú Man they was having an awesome sale going on…. I got those all those bad boys for under $140.00 total. ¬†Check them out… Because their boots usually run around $80.00 a pair and I got 4 pair for $140.00!!

Here is the thing…. We women struggle with so many internal things.¬† But one thing that always boosts my spirits is when I know I look good and wear my outfit like a queen. We have to find something that make us feel good about ourselves. We have to motivate and believe in ourselves and walk in every room like we are Queen Sheba!! That how I look at life everyday because mentally I can feel so drain and in the dumps and I refuse to feel like this all the time!¬† I want everyday to feel like Christmas…but that’s not possible.¬† Shopping helps me to overcome those days.

I will tried to do a monthly or Bi-monthly post about my deals that I find. ¬†Until the next time beautiful people!! Be blessed… Oh yea… Trust and believe that nobody has paid me to do this posts. ¬† I just love shoes ¬†and clothes!!

Love, peace and happiness!

Tracy

Fluid retention 

How-to-Reduce-Water-Retention

Good beautiful people! Recently I started to noticed that my feet and hands were swelling and I was retaining a lot of fluid.  I also noticed that even though I was walking I was still gaining weight.  It wasn’t a lot but it was slowly inches toward a weight that gave me the hivvies jevvies. SO I amped  up my exercise regime and I started walking.  I am averaging around 2 to 3 miles about 3 days a week. I even started using that  funky sweat suit that they sell at Wal-Mart that makes you sweat more.  Shoot I walking and draining sweat everywhere trying to stop those pounds when the whole time it was fluid. Now here is the kicker I knew my feet had swollen up but never in a million year did I think my thighs had.  But sure enough they had extra fluid also. Because my pants were tighter in the thighs but now they are loose again.  I did call my doctor about getting something for swelling but it was never called in. So when I had my next 3 month checkup I let it slip my mind the last time I saw him because I was concerned about my acid reflux.  Well fast forward to now both feet was extremely swollen with fluid and I know I am retaining fluid. To make a long story short I saw my doctor Wednesday and he did give me a prescription for lanix.  My blood pressure was 175/ 115 and  this was causing concerns for the doctor.  He order blood work and EKG and is referring me to a cardiologist.  Well to break it all down…I started the fluid pills Thursday morning and fast forward to today and I have dropped 13 pounds.   My feet are sliding in my shoes and my clothes are lose all over.  Evidently I was retaining fluid all over.  I have been feeling bad for a good minute but I just blamed everything on my Acid reflux.  Now I know different.  Nevertheless I do have to admit one thing.  I have never really did well with my water intake as I have previously posted about.  I knew I could get more in and this could be the cause, so it is my own fault.  As weight loss patients we got to follow the doctor orders to ensure that we remain healthy.

fluid

My primary doctor had me to also start keeping a record of my blood pressure.  He did a EKG and took blood work and is referring me to the heart doctor.  I am required to check my blood pressure every morning and every night before I go to sleep and drop the log off once a week at the doctor office.

Even though I have had the weight loss surgery you can still have medical problems with blood pressure, acid reflux, fluid retention and other things. Do not for one minute believe that this surgery prevents other things from happening because this is not true.  The weight loss surgery is just a tool to help you get the weight down and under control and the rest is up to you.  I will follow up with my visit to the cardiology.

Peace, Love and Happiness!

Blessing from Tracy

How I found out what a Barium Edema is?? ¬†Proceed with caution!

Good afternoon beautiful people!! I wanted to touch base about my tests I had a few weeks back.  As I had previously blogged in previous posts…I am having issues with Acid Reflux and I had to have a colonscopy because cancer runs in my family.  Anyway I had Endoscopy and then I had a colonscopy that the doctor was unable to complete because I was full of shit.   Now here the thing…. They were trying to schedule another colonscopy.   The insurance wouldn’t approve that.  So here comes the doctor letting me know they had scheduled a X-Ray. 

 Now Lets stop right there and let’s  think about this for a dang minute.  The procedures was anything but a normal X-Ray.   You know I thought I would go in there after refraining from eating and drinking only fluids except for any juice that was the color red and purple and just lay on the table and they would x-ray my lower body parts.   Man was my butt wrong!!! 

Let me explain what a Barium Enema is …. first it is an x-ray examination of the colon. This examination evaluates every part of the colon and the rectum. The appendix and a portion of the distal small intestine may also be included.  Second they made me lay on the examination table and an starter x-ray is taken to ensure the bowel is clear of any fecus.  Then the radiologist and her partner insert a small balloon tube into a part of my bottom that I only used to release waste from.   Oh my goodness….. the radiologist was saying “relax and breath you are tightening up.”  I told her in my high pitch squeaky voice….. “don’t nothing usually enter that place…. what do you expect.” The Muscle was protecting me really well… she finally got it position after I said every cuss words in the book and begin to fill my colon with a mixture of barium and water. Air was also injected through the tube to help the barium thoroughly coat the lining of the colon.  Next, a series of x-ray images is taken while I was moved around into all kinds of positions.  Man. When they finally got finished and I got to go to the restroom… It was a on.   One thing I learned was when I have my next examination for colon next time I will make sure that I do the colonscopy … That Barium Enema was awful.  

Nevertheless everything came back clear.  The endoscopy didn’t see anything that could be causing the Acid reflux and the Barium Anema was also clear.   I don’t have to have another one for five years.  Wooo… Wiping my forehead.   That’s was something else.  I hope that wasn’t to much information folks.    Lmbo… If you learned anything from my experience always choose the colonscopy.  What’s a little IV and needle compared to being ballooned from one of your most private area.  

Side note:  Please  let the radiologist know you have had weight loss surgery because they was having trouble seeing all of my colon.  Until I reminded them that I had weight loss surgery.

Love, peace and Happiness!

Blessing to you and yours

Tracy

Its a struggle being consistent 

constitent

Good afternoon beautiful people!  I just wanted to blog about trying to lose weight and being at a standstill for a long period.  I really want to drop about 30 pounds and it seems that I am fighting like heck just to lose 5 pounds.  Now let’s be real.  Consistently is a must.  I must be consistent and exercise  on a regular basis.  I must be consistent about eating healthy food.  I must be consistent and get my water intake in.  There are so many more things I got to do better about.  I am very alert and aware of my weight which causes me and my scale to have this love and hate relationship.  I am constantly stepping on him just to see what he say.  (Yes my scale is a he.)  Because only a man can give you various information that’s bad majority of the time.  Lol

constitent2

I personally know that I am always looking in the mirror and I see every imperfections and every flaw on my body.  Every woman does this no matter how pretty she is.  There will always be an area that you wants fixed.  For me it is my weight. I want to lose more pounds because I am so scared of going back to fat Tracy.   I sometimes look in the mirror and all I can see is that 340 pound woman.  That vision scares the living hell out of me.   I used this as a guide to ensure that I don’t get back there.

Fallplace

Nevertheless I always start planning my next day the day before.  I have everything all planned out in my head and never do ALL the things I have planned to do and usually it is the stuff that deals with eating and exercise.  If I did everything that I planned in my head I would weigh around 140 pounds.  I just got to get more consistent period. I know if I could lose a few pounds each week this would motivate me to be more consistent.  But I am just like most people I want thing to be easy and that not the case.  Even though I had the gastric bypass surgery it is still hard to keep this weight off and keep losing. Then here is the kicker when I finally meet my goals…I will start complaining about something else.  However that is not the point right now.  The point right now is being consistent as I keep saying in this post.

Another thing that bother me is when I go out to eat with family members.  I rarely eat more than 1/4 of my food.  However that don’t stop those vultures from watching and waiting for me to finish so they can swallow the rest of my food whole.  I don’t know why I let this upsets me but it does and it causes me to overeat because I know they are going to eat my leftovers.  I am working on this really hard because this type of gluttony can cause overeating which stretch Shelly the belly.  Help me LORD, because this should be my last worry. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I fight this battle that is continuous and never-ending.

I do got news to post about my tests I had this week and a couple of weeks ago.  I will post a blog about my results from the supposedly X-ray of my colon.  Please note I say supposedly….until later guys and gals!

Love, Peace and Happiness

Tracy.

 

 

 

Just taking it one day at a time

mental

Good morning beautiful people!  I know I have fell off on my blogging but I am going through a really rough time right now mentally.  I am just taking it one day at a time and anything extra just takes a lot out of me..  However even though I am struggling mentally.  My weight always stays at the forefront of my mind.  I refuse to let this mental stuff make me gain weight.  I am focusing on my weight more than anything and I am trying to maintain and make sure I am keeping those pounds away.  I am still walking and I am in the process of adding more miles.

Now I could never really air what is going on in my personal life but it really life changing and it is causing problems big time. I just stay prayed up and try to keep GOD first however it is still hard.  I think we all have our lows and highs that we all struggle with everyday.  I just feel that at this time my mental bags are extra heavy.  Those suckers are really dragging me down and putting a damper on my spirits.

 

Now that is enough about my mental struggles and lets talk ABOUT my results from the Endoscopy and colonoscopy. The endoscopy came out great and they did not find anything wrong however I am still fighting acid reflux and I am taking 3 medications for it.¬† Also my colonoscopy was failed…after going to the bathroom over 100 times in a 8 hour period. I was informed that I was still full of shit and he could not complete the procedure, however he did get one poly out and it was tested and was negative. But because they did find one poly I was schedule for a colon X-ray this upcoming week.¬†¬† Now¬†that a sucker.¬† I drunk 2 full bottles of that nasty junk and was still full of shit.¬† Now I got to do a barium enema x-ray. I hate doing these sucker.¬† However maybe I will lose about 5 pounds.¬† Heck a girl can hope and dream right!!

Peace, Love and Happiness

Tracy