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You got to love you!

Good morning beautiful people!!! I want to discuss body image.   I know I am not the only one who will walk by something that shows your reflection  and think dang I am still fat.  You will notice your flabby arms, thick thighs and big gut and wonder why everybody keep saying you are melting away.   Because all you see is your former fat self.   Here is the thing that we got to remember is that…. the mind is deceiving YOU!   YOU have lost a significant about of weight.  YOU are making good food choices!  YOU got a lot to be proud of!  Body image can derail any weight loss goal.  


However all you got to do is remember this phrase protein first.  I never understood this until later after my surgery how important this phrase was.  Protein first is a phase that everybody who ever had gastric bypass surgery needs to post on their refrigerator. Hang it in your bathroom, hang it from your stove, or it in the cabinet doors… So when you open the door you see it.   Make a bracelet, put it in your car, put it in your office refrigerator.  Shoot  put in on your home screen of your cell phone and lap top.  When you keep seeing this phrase everytime you go to eat anything you can control your eating  habits.  Unless you are over eating and stretching that pouch which will lead to weight gain.

What we have to understand is that protein is a nutrient that helps us feel fuller, longer. If we include proteins in each of our meals or healthy snacks, we’re less likely to feel hungry when it’s not time to eat.

I know you are wondering  what can I do to be effective to ensure that I lose and maintain my weight loss.  In my opinion the number one rule is to eat protein rich foods first. See here is the thing after  surgery, your body will need adequate protein to help build, repair, and maintain muscle tissue and organs. Protein deficiency can occur over an extended period of time which can cause fatigue, hair loss, and muscle wasting.   I remember when I was about three months out after my RNY gastric bypass… My fingernails were so soft and brittle I could barely stratch  myself. Then my big dumb self tried to cover them up with fake nails.  Omg… That hurt so bad it was crazy.   I hurried up and bought Boltin.  Then my hair started falling out also…. Talk about going thru.  That was a really hard period to go thru but I made it thru.  The hair issue was not so bad for me because I love wigs.  
Just remember Proteins are one of the essential building blocks of the human body and you need them.

The next time you walk by something that shows your reflection.. Say to yourself.  I look good, and I am doing good therefore I am good! 😊  You got to encourage yourself!! Because you are your biggest motivator.  Love the skin you are in.  Because you could still be that former you. 

Peace, Happiness and Love!!

Tracy

Two little wilted round small oranges.

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Good evening beautiful people!

I went to the YMCA today and burned around 500 calories!! I did that and I am patting myself on the back fat because it is disappearing as I type. I be pumping iron and breathing, pumping iron and breathing, pausing to keep from passing out and working on those areas trying to make them disappear.  With that being said I want to discuss a subject that is a little out there.  So hang tight while I gather my words.

Before my weight loss surgery…I had this humongous stomach and my two little …how do I say this without sounding vulgar…my two little melons just lay there like two little wilted round small oranges. Because of my stomach I look like I didn’t even have any boobies.  Man my stomach was so HUGE that my Orthopedic specialist explained to me why my back hurt so much.  I have disk degenerative disease in the lower part of my back because of my weight that I carry for about 20 years.   What I had to understand is that the spine of our body is designed in such a way that it carries the weight of the body and maintains balance and distributes the weight during periods of rest and activity.  Since I was extremely overweight and had a big belly, my spine was forced to carry that extra weight on itself and it was not able to distribute to other parts of the body. This results in my spine being overworked resulting in damage to the spine and causing me to have many sleepless and painful nights. Boy I went through so many mattresses trying to find one that would help me sleep better.  Now remember I also had Sleep Apnea and bad hips that need to be replaced but my insurance would not approve a hip replacement because of my BMI was 55. Because of this I suffers unrelenting back and hip pain.  I was tore up from the floor up.

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Fast forward to now and after losing close to 150 pounds and my tummy shrinking down and it is about flat (However I do have skin that will need to be). My back no longer hurts.  Except when I had my hip replaced last November and that was because I couldn’t do nothing but lay on my back.  Now back to subject at hand.  I got breasties!! I got 38 DD size breasts to be exact! (Shaking my head from side to side as I type that)

Would you believe that I am also blushing as I type this, NOT!! I loveeeeeee my breasts.  I buy bras that emphasize those bad boys!! Whatttt…. you can’t tell me nothing!  Let me tell you how much breasts I got.  I was at work one day and my beautiful blond head friend, name Mica poked me in one of my breasts and said she wanted to know where did they come from. See me and her were the two biggest girls in the office with the smallest breasts!  So she was a little jealous because we have always talked about how we wanted big breasts so our stomach wouldn’t be emphasize so much.  LOL I know right. I love you MICA!!! You are my Ivory and I am your Ebony remember that when you are reading this post!!

This is one of the pro about any weight loss. You gain a figure!! Shoot I have a waist, hips, breasts, butt and I am going to keep those bad boys.  So I will be eating PROTEIN FIRST for the rest of my life and popping vitamins everyday!! I love going to sleep and my back not hurting so bad that I can’t sleep.

Smooches beautiful people!!  Check me out in my Sunday gear from this past Sunday. Boobies was popping!!img_1597

Love, Peace and Happiness!

Tracy

Can I chose the area where I want to lose weight?

Good evening beautiful people!! Well I called and I called it right. I said I would probably lose the weight in my fat feet and dang if I didn’t.  I was at work walking to the file room when I notice my feet was sliding like crazy in my sandals.  I look down to make sure they were still zipped in the back and notice that each foot was sitting back more at if my shoes were to big.  I am currently in 9 or 10 size depends on how the shoe is made.  I like the ability to be able to buy prettier shoes because of my fat little tree trunks.  However right now I want lose weight in my thighs, back fat or bat wings area.  But if we were able to pick and choose where we lost weight it would be so awesome.   But in the real world that is not possible…. So I need to get out of la-la land.


I have never really been a shoe girl until I lost weight. Plus I can’t go pass a heel that is over 3 and half.  Any higher and I might have to get my new hip replaced.  Plus you will not see me wobbling around and I can’t walk.  I like to be able to walk as natural as possible.  Especially since my orthopedic surgeon made my leg longer with my new hip. I am currently in love with..Lane Bryant and Catherine’s stores.  Their shoes and boots are catered toward wide feet.  Plus they are so comfortable and they have pretty designs that are available in my preferred heights.  The shoes are not to high priced also.  I love the ability to find boots in my size also.  Check them out.  Trust and believe these stores are not paying me to say this.   Have a good day beautiful people!!

Peace, love and happiness!!

Tracy

Dealing with Negative Nancy and Negative Bob

Good morning beautiful people! I am going to complain some today so bare with me for a post.   I am a member of several bariatric groups on Facebook.  I will say this and leave it alone. I rarely participate in the groups because some of the other members are so negative.  They have no respect and say things that hurts other people feelings.  I feel like the internet is giving people the ability to say any and everything.  It’s so ridiculous.  For example…One lady posted her picture and they said some of meanest thing to this lady.  Like she need to take more vitamins her hair looks very thin, she is to skinny, she looks sick.  I mean really come on people please stop.  Most of the people in these groups wouldn’t dare say those things to anyone face.  But the internet really gives people the ability to hide behind a fake name and they will say all kinds of vile and unspeakable things.

These groups are suppose to be supportive and help encourage others as they travel down the weight loss surgery path.  For example my blog’s discusses my successes and failures not everybody else’s.  What happen to me……may never happen to you.  What I can eat and what you can eat may vary.  My weight loss may not be as good as yours or mine may be better.  But that does not mean you have failed your surgery.

Please if anybody ever read my posts and I sound like I telling you something you don’t agree with just discuss it in a nice reply with your reasoning.  It does not have to go down the negative road.  Because we are all  have different views and opinions and I really respects that.  I mean really I love red,  burned orange, white, vanilla, mauve and these are my favorite color clothing.  Now you may love black and gray clothing that don’t make me better than the next person.  I love chicken tenderloins and you love legs parts.  That don’t change my view of you.

In closing I wish people would learn to respects others and show compassion because you never know what someone may be going through beyond that computer.

Love, peace and happiness!

Tracy

Celebrating a 3 pounds lost!


Good afternoon beautiful people!  

I am on a come back and I am celebrating like it is 1999!  Since I started cutting all those fatty foods out and doing what my nutritionist recommended I have lost 3 pounds this week.  She and I discussed my coffee and lack of water intake and she told me that I was only allowed one cup a day.  She explained the importance of me getting my required amount of water.  She also explained that  coffee contains Caffeine  which is a diuretic which means that it increases the amount that you urinate and it dehydrates  you.  Nevertheless I knew that I was not consuming enough water on a daily basis.  The coffee and caffeine was just complicating my the situation even more.  The nutritionist also say that to much coffee can cause you to have stomach ulcers.  So guess what….. Your girl will only do one cup of coffee and I have increased my water intake alot to the required 64 ounces a day.   I schedule a follow appointment for her this month.  I will also start doing the post op classes located at my Gastric bypass doctor office.  This will help me stay focus and on the correct path.

I am so proud of myself and as a result I am going to fix myself a treat.  I know you are thinking oh here she go….getting ready to self sabotage again.  No, no, no  let me explain.   I am going to try a recipe for blueberry muffins that  are low in fat and carbs, sugar free and loaded with proteins.  I will do a post about the nutrition and add a picture if  they turn out good.  This may be a healthy item that I can have daily.

God blessing

Love, peace and happiness!

Tracy

From a size 28 to a size 14 and I love it!!! 

Hello beautiful people!  I decided to do a post about what size I am currently wearing.  I know a few people may be looking at this post and thinking really who cares.  Well for one thing I care.  You are looking at a woman who was a size 28/30 before my Rny gastric bypass.  I have posted my previous picture at the bottom of  this post of me at my highest weight 342 pounds.

As you may know a lot of stores just recently starting selling plus size clothing.  I remember when most stores wouldn’t go pass a size 24.  I mean really I couldn’t only go to Cato’s, Simple fashions (which has closed down) they were the cheaper store. Then there is Lane Bryant and Catherine’s  stores which are really expensive and the way my budget is set up I couldn’t go there to much.   Shoot a pair of pants run $40.00 and up. So I was a regular shopper at Cato’s  and Simple fashions.  The stores staff knew me by name because I went in their stores so much.  I really, really love Simple Fashion because they carry sizes all the way up to a size 34.  This threw me for a loop because I didn’t know how to go to a store and buy clothing that was to big for me.  They weren’t the best quality but they were so cute.  My big butt WAS wearing a size 28/30 then. I still don’t understand how they closed down because they stayed pack.

My only issue with Cato’s is that they are located at every shopping center near a Wal-Mart.  Which means you have twins everywhere.  Because everybody shopped at Cato’s.  This also caused issues with the larger sizes because they sold out of them so quick.

Now my all time favorite store is Ashley’s Stewart!!!  I love everything about this plus size store.  They carry sizes 12 all the way to size 32.  Here is the kicker they design clothing  that is sexy for the curvy plus size woman.

Check out the picture… That shirt is from there and I love the color and design.  I am hooked on the cold shoulder shirts and dresses.  I go through phases of what I love and will purchase several in different designs and colors but are similar in style.

The pants are actually from Lane Bryant store.  I got them off of their clearance rack for $9.99!! The regular price was $69.00.

I also love Rainbow Shop stores.  Their clothing is so cheap and cute.  Not the best quality but if you have as much clothing as I do.  They will last a long time.

Check out there stores and their website..I don’t mind twins in cyberspace.  Because we may never see each other!! 😜😜😜😜

Smooches beautiful people!!

Love, peace and Happiness!!

Tracy

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Don’t laugh at my big head!! Lol.

Disclaimer:  I am not being paid by any of the stores that I mention in this post.  They are just my favorite stores!

I am making progress

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Hey beautiful people!!

I know it is late in the night and I need to have my sleep deprived butt in the bed. However I got to pat myself on the back for my performance today and yesterday also for refusing that sweet fresh out the oven still warm Kristy Kreme donut.

Today a beautiful, succulent moist cake was brought into the staff meeting for a coworker who is leaving my agency.  Oh man, my mouth started watering, and I was wiping saliva from my lips but I did not touch one piece of that delectable, delicious looking cake.  I turned down my piece because all I could see was the scale sliding closer to another five pound gain.  I mean really in my head I could picture it doing it and number going up.

See here is thing when you start introducing those sugary and fatty foods back into your system you get the taste for them again.  The next thing you know you are eating it on the regular. I refused to go back to the old Tracy who is overweight and can’t stand for more than 15 minutes and my feet start numbing. Or the Old Tracy who was so overweight that she was having problems wiping her own butt!! Heck yea I said.  I had let me weight get so out of control that my short little stubby arms had to fight tooth and nail just to wipe my butt. I could lie and say that I was fat and fabulous but I was would be telling a LIE.  Shoot I hated to go to Walmart because the store was so big and I hated walking.

Here is another tool I use also…Reminiscing about the old Fat Tracy Days!   I remember when I first started my job and we had to go to a training in a city about 50 miles away from our office.  We went to this Thai restaurant for lunch and oh man I will never forget this…when I went to sit in the chair at the table it was really snug.  I decided to slide forward so I could be closer to the table because my belly was so big and I didn’t want to drop food on my shirt. This happen a lot because I had to bring the food over my extended enlarge stomach.  When I tried to scoot closer to the table … the dang leg in back of the chair broke and my big butt fell in the floor. OH my gosh!! I was so embarrassed and as a coworker help me up. I gave praises to the good Lord above that there was only a few people in the restaurant that witness my epic crash.  To say I was embarrassed in an understatement.

This is how the fat girl chair check started. I know you are looking at the computer and wondering what the heck is the fat girl chair check. Let me explain…. Whenever I go to any restaurant, I check the chairs at the table to make sure it is stable and can hold my weight. I still do this even though I am smaller because I was so embarrassed when I fell.  These are the type of memories that I am using to motivate myself to stay on track and to continue losing the weight.

I do know that I got to get better with my exercise and attend the YMCA at least 3 days a week or better yet use my treadmill here at the house.  I have so much going on, however that is just a excuse.  I can’t keep making that same old excuse.  I can make time and I will start making time.  If I did as much as I planned on doing in my head.  I would weight 150 pounds right now.

Farewell everyone!! Have a blessed day

Peace, Happiness, Love

Tracy