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On a mission to get back on track.

Good morning person! I got some bad news this morning. I step on the scale this bitch had moved up 13 pounds. My knees gave out on me and I fell to the floor. I was so devastated and distraught that I passed out for a few moments.

Now let’s stop right here. Let’s marinated on this for a few minutes. Let’s think about what got me here. First of all I ran out of my protein and didn’t drink them for about 2 or 3 weeks. I endudge in some buffet meals, Thanksgiving, not exercising, stayed started drinking soda. The list go on, and on. My first sign that something was amissed was when I put on a pair of pants that was loose before but was now tight as hell!! I couldn’t even sit in the bad boys. ūü§Ē I knew I was going have to weight Myself the next morning.

Now here thing…..I am very aware how 10 pounds can turn into 10 more pounds and another 10 pounds. So I am on a mission to get back on course. Most people would just give up and not be able to regroup. But not me. I refuse to get caught up in my daily life duties and neglect my weight. Shoot I like looking sexy in my clothes and being able to stop traffic. ūüėČ. Lol…but for real. I can’t go back to were I came from. I am on a mission to get back on track. Heck no it is not easy but it can be done. Keep me in your prayers as I regain my focus and drop these last 30 pounds that I have been trying to lose since I started this journey.

Love, peace and happiness!

Tracy

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Future jogger right here!

Good morning beautiful people!  As we know I have been really active about my weight loss.  I want to reach my weight goal which means I got to get really proactive about my weight loss.  I have always wanted to jog but was unsure that I can do it.  Well yesterday i decide to walk around my neighborhood and use the Map me walk  app. 

 I started off at a good pace with my headphones on and my stick to beat off any creatures that venture to close to me.  One thing about my neighborhood is that it has a lot of hills and this caused me to burn more calories and energy.  I did really well and did not get tired at all… Just sweaty.  I walked about a mile and half and burn around 240 calories.  I am planning on walking again everyday and I am going to try a longer distance because I want to burn around 500 calories each time.   

The while point of this post is that I didn’t think I would be able to jog.   But after starting my walking regime outside…. I think I may be a jogger in the near future.  

Peace, love and Happiness

Tracy Be Blessed!

Review of my 3 month check up

  

Good morning beautiful people. Last Thursday I had my yearly check up with the gastric bypass doctor.  I have lost 23 pounds since my last visit… which was in July 2016..  With that being said he also gave me information on the next skin removal seminar that is coming up at the end of this month.   I am planning on attending because my stomach and my bat wings are my biggest concern.  My skin hangs from my under arm drastically and causes problems with wearing shirts and dresses.  Those suckers make me sick.  If I got into a fight I could hit somebody in the face with those jokers and knock their butt out.  Shoot I believe I can take flight with those bad boys.   When I wear clothing that show my arms …I tuck and hide the flab.  My arms looks massive to me because of the loose skin.  


 My stomach area do have excess skin but I wear spank to pull it in.  If I decide to do the surgery I would have the skin removed off of my stomach first.  My thighs are jiggy also and I hate that… However I can live with that.  


One of the question I had for Dr. Ross, my Gastric Bypass Doctor was about my protein intake.  I know I average around 80 to 100 grams of protein and was considering adding a protein shake at night.  He explained that I should only use one supplement for protein such as my morning protein shake and the rest should come from my food intake.  He also said to much protein and b12 can cause medical problems after extensive use.  So you know me I had to research that and this is what I found out. Dr Mercola explained in his website that “Eating more protein than your body needs can interfere with your health and fitness goals in a number of ways, including weight gain, extra body fat, stress on your kidneys, dehydration, and leaching of important bone minerals. ”


I mention B12 because the doctor said mine was extremely high and I need to cut my down to only 1000 grams a week.  He also explained that continue high levels of high levels of B12 could lead to diseases.  So again you know I had to research it …. it was explained on the News health guide that high levels of B12 “could lead to itchiness on different body parts and numbness, improper heart functioning, giddiness and regular headaches. The most serious side effect linked to overtime abuse of this vitamin, is increasing the risk of getting cancer. This vitamin helps in stimulating the process of cell division. It, however, cannot distinguish between the harmful and useful cells. Therefore, vitamin B12 prompts the growth and multiplication of even the cancerous cells.”

Nevertheless I was happy and satisfied with my check up and I am staying proactive and on top of my weight to ensure that I eventually meet my weight goal which is only about 35 pounds away.

Be blessed and have a stressed free day!  Love, peace and happiness beautiful people!

Tracy

My little fat tree trunks


Good Morning beautiful people!! I got something to share…that’s funny but really relative to learning to love yourself after weight loss surgery.  As you all know I am a self proclaimed fashionista.. I love to shop and I may be just a tiny bit addicted to shopping for the new improved Tracy.  My new focus is Lane Bryant and Catherine’s stores wide shoes.  Everytime they add some new shoes my big butt be on it.  Trying new high heels and crap like I am a pro.  Well they posted these new bad boys on their site and I had to get them.

 

Now I know some of you are old high heel steppers are looking  at these bad boys and are saying “look at that little heel.”   Well this heel is 4.75, which is really high for me.  With that being said ….I hate the fact that Lane Bryant don’t sell their shoes in their  store anymore and you have to order online.  Because for me….shoes are one thing that I need to try on and walk in before I purchase.  I got to make sure they don’t rub the corn and if my little fat feet can get them on.

  Nevertheless when I finally  received my order I put the box in the trunk of my car and forgot about it until I got to work the next day.  Well as soon as I got to the office I pull those bad boys out to try them on in my office. Now here comes the real test which I failed.   First problem was I couldn’t buckle the shoe on the side because my tree trunks had swollen up again.  Second problem was because my tree trunks was swollen the middle strap across the top of the shoe buckle up…. Like it was fighting my fat.  Here a picture to see for yourself.Now here is the funny thing…I couldn’t walk in these bad boys…I wobble, doing the lean to the side walk and holding on to everything. My coworkers was crying laughing at me.  I kept trying to push my knee back so I could stand up straight and the knees kept buckling.  I couldn’t do my sexy chocolate walk at all.  I almost fell several times so I just threw my hands up in defeat because the dang shoes won. I thought wedges was the easiest type of high heels shoe you can wear.  Boy was I wrong and I was taking them back to get a refund.  With that being said… Some shoes and some clothing is not designed for everybody.  I personally can’t wear what everybody else wears.   Now that’s my opinion about myself, so don’t take it personally…. DO YOU BOO!  But me on the other hand I have  several friends that will say to me real quick….”No, Tracy that’s not working take that back to the store.”  like these shoes and I listen. 

Love, peace and Happiness!

Tracy 

Ps.  Lane Bryant or Catherine’s are not paying me to say this.

Magic wand that makes your fat melt away

 

Good afternoon beautiful people!  I have been thinking about this writing this post for a few days and I finally got around to doing it.

I¬† got to start this blog off by saying this ……Weight loss surgery is not a cure all! ¬†Let me say this one more time for those who are¬†considering having this surgery.¬† There is no such things as waving a magic wand and all your fat just¬†melt away for eternity. Weight loss surgery is not a cure all!

Now I know you are looking at this post and wondering why I am saying this and I am going to tell you why. ¬†I have had several people who had this surgery and afterwards tell me…. they hate they did it. ¬†They go on complaining about how their stomach hurts when they start trying to eat food that they were told not to eat. ¬†Why is my stomach still big and why can’t I look like you? ¬†Why is the scale not moving? ¬†One friend even told me she hates protein shakes…and can’t stand to drink any. ¬†But then she went on to tell me that her legs gave out on. ¬†Here the thang….yes I said thang…..¬†if you can’t do proteins shakes you better find something else to get those proteins in!¬† Shoot they have all kinds of other liquids with protein¬†added.¬† You need that protein for those muscle… As for my friend……You know what I got to say about all of this…. WELCOME TO THE FREAKING CLUB you thought it was going to be easy.¬† WRONG.

This surgery is a life changing surgery that helps you reach your desired weight goal if you do what your doctor and nutritionist teaches you to do.¬† Yea, yea, you will lose weight…but I bet you a dollar after the weight has plateau around your 3rd year…that fat will return.¬† Here is thing …..food is everywhere and you are constantly seeing it and it always knocking at your door saying …”Tracy come and take a bite of this rich thick piece of chocolate brownie…it won’t hurt.”¬† (blank stare)¬† Yes, it will because¬†you will go back numerous times just to bite that bad boy!¬† After surgery, you got to change your daily eating habits for weight loss to happen. Sometimes you even have to¬†separate from friends or family members who tempts¬†you to overeat.¬† Shoot I found myself on numerous occasions overeating just because I knew my son was watching my plate so he could eat my leftovers.¬† Oh man, lunch at work¬†was really bad.¬† When I go out to eat…I can only take a few bites so I am always getting a takeout box to take my remains back to my office and guess what I do.¬† I nibble on that left over food all day.¬† Heck I don’t be hungry…I just eat it because it is there.¬† How I stopped this bad habit, required that I start bringing my lunch to the office. That way I controlled my eating better. If I do go to lunch I put my plate in fridge at the office and don’t get it out until I go home and I make sure it is a healthy meal.

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Please understand I am not being a know it all.¬† I am just tired of the bull crap about how I took the easy route. Shoot all I did was take a short cut that lead me right back to the main highway and I still got to do what everybody else has to do.¬† Watch what I¬†eat and exercise to keep the weight off.¬†¬† If anything this journey is harder because when you over eat it causes pain and everything you have to go through to have the surgery.¬† Please let’s not forget all of the¬†medicine that you are required to take for the rest of you¬†life.¬† This is not the easily road…this is the hardest road with so many curve balls it is ridiculous.

Love, Peace and Happiness

Tracy

 

 

You got to love you!

Good morning beautiful people!!! I want to discuss body image. ¬† I know I am not the only one who will walk by something that shows your reflection ¬†and think dang I am still fat. ¬†You will notice your flabby arms, thick thighs and big gut and wonder why everybody keep saying you are melting away. ¬† Because all you see is your former fat self. ¬† Here is the thing that we got to remember is that…. the mind is deceiving YOU! ¬† YOU have lost a significant about of weight. ¬†YOU are making good food choices! ¬†YOU got a lot to be proud of! ¬†Body image can derail any weight loss goal.


However all you got to do is remember this phrase protein first. ¬†I never understood this until later after my surgery how important this phrase was. ¬†Protein first is a phase that everybody who ever had gastric bypass surgery needs to post on their refrigerator. Hang it in your bathroom, hang it from your stove, or it in the cabinet doors… So when you open the door you see it. ¬† Make a bracelet, put it in your car, put it in your office refrigerator. ¬†Shoot ¬†put in on your home screen of your cell phone and lap top. ¬†When you keep seeing this phrase everytime you go to eat anything you can control your eating ¬†habits. ¬†Unless you are over eating and stretching that pouch which will lead to weight gain.

What we have to understand is that protein is a nutrient that helps us feel fuller, longer. If we include proteins in each of our meals or healthy snacks, we’re less likely to feel hungry when it’s not time to eat.

I know you are wondering ¬†what can I do to be effective to ensure that I lose and maintain my weight loss. ¬†In my opinion the number one rule is to eat protein rich foods first. See here is the thing after ¬†surgery, your body will need adequate protein to help build, repair, and maintain muscle tissue and organs. Protein deficiency can occur over an extended period of time which can cause fatigue, hair loss, and muscle wasting. ¬† I remember when I was about three months out after my RNY gastric bypass… My fingernails were so soft and brittle I could barely stratch ¬†myself. Then my big dumb self tried to cover them up with fake nails. ¬†Omg… That hurt so bad it was crazy. ¬† I hurried up and bought Boltin. ¬†Then my hair started falling out also…. Talk about going thru. ¬†That was a really hard period to go thru but I made it thru. ¬†The hair issue was not so bad for me because I love wigs.
Just remember Proteins are one of the essential building blocks of the human body and you need them.

The next time you walk by something that shows your reflection.. Say to yourself. ¬†I look good, and I am doing good therefore I am good! ūüėä ¬†You got to encourage yourself!! Because you are your biggest motivator. ¬†Love the skin you are in. ¬†Because you could still be that former you.

Peace, Happiness and Love!!

Tracy

Two little wilted round small oranges.

breast

Good evening beautiful people!

I went to the YMCA today and burned around 500 calories!! I did that and I am patting myself on the back fat because it is disappearing as I type. I be pumping iron and breathing, pumping iron and breathing, pausing to keep from passing out and working on those areas trying to make them disappear.  With that being said I want to discuss a subject that is a little out there.  So hang tight while I gather my words.

Before my weight loss surgery…I had this humongous stomach and my two little …how do I say this without sounding vulgar…my two little melons just lay there like two little wilted round small oranges. Because of my stomach I look like I didn’t even have any boobies. ¬†Man my stomach was so HUGE that my Orthopedic specialist explained to me why my back hurt so much. ¬†I have disk degenerative disease in¬†the lower part of my back because of my weight that I carry for about 20 years. ¬† What I had to understand is that the spine of our body is designed in such a way that it carries the weight of the body and maintains balance and distributes the weight during periods of rest and activity. ¬†Since I was extremely overweight and had a big belly, my spine was forced to carry that extra weight on itself and it was not able to distribute to other parts of the body. This results in my spine being overworked resulting in damage to the spine and causing me to have many sleepless and painful nights. Boy I went through so many mattresses trying to find one that would help me sleep better. ¬†Now remember I also had Sleep Apnea and bad hips that need to be replaced but my insurance would not approve a hip replacement because of my BMI was 55. Because of this I suffers unrelenting back and hip pain. ¬†I was tore up from the floor up.

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Fast forward to now and after losing close to 150 pounds and my tummy shrinking down and it is about flat (However I do have skin that will need to be). My back no longer hurts. ¬†Except when I had my hip replaced last November and that was because I couldn’t do nothing but lay on my back. ¬†Now back to subject at hand. ¬†I got breasties!! I got 38 DD size breasts to be exact! (Shaking my head from side to side as I type that)

Would you believe that I am also blushing as I type this, NOT!! I loveeeeeee my breasts. ¬†I buy bras that emphasize those bad boys!! Whatttt…. you can’t tell me nothing! ¬†Let me tell you how much breasts I got. ¬†I was at work one day and my beautiful blond head friend, name Mica poked me in one of my breasts and said she wanted to know where did they come from. See me and her were the two biggest girls in the office with the smallest breasts! ¬†So she was a little jealous because we have always talked about how we wanted big breasts so our stomach wouldn’t be emphasize so much. ¬†LOL I know right. I love you MICA!!! You are my Ivory and I am your Ebony remember that when you are reading this post!!

This is one of the pro about any weight loss. You gain a figure!! Shoot I have a waist, hips, breasts, butt and I am going to keep those bad boys. ¬†So I will be eating PROTEIN FIRST for the rest of my life and popping vitamins everyday!! I love going to sleep and my back not hurting so bad that I can’t sleep.

Smooches beautiful people!!  Check me out in my Sunday gear from this past Sunday. Boobies was popping!!img_1597

Love, Peace and Happiness!

Tracy