Archives

Review of my 3 month check up

  

Good morning beautiful people. Last Thursday I had my yearly check up with the gastric bypass doctor.  I have lost 23 pounds since my last visit… which was in July 2016..  With that being said he also gave me information on the next skin removal seminar that is coming up at the end of this month.   I am planning on attending because my stomach and my bat wings are my biggest concern.  My skin hangs from my under arm drastically and causes problems with wearing shirts and dresses.  Those suckers make me sick.  If I got into a fight I could hit somebody in the face with those jokers and knock their butt out.  Shoot I believe I can take flight with those bad boys.   When I wear clothing that show my arms …I tuck and hide the flab.  My arms looks massive to me because of the loose skin.  


 My stomach area do have excess skin but I wear spank to pull it in.  If I decide to do the surgery I would have the skin removed off of my stomach first.  My thighs are jiggy also and I hate that… However I can live with that.  


One of the question I had for Dr. Ross, my Gastric Bypass Doctor was about my protein intake.  I know I average around 80 to 100 grams of protein and was considering adding a protein shake at night.  He explained that I should only use one supplement for protein such as my morning protein shake and the rest should come from my food intake.  He also said to much protein and b12 can cause medical problems after extensive use.  So you know me I had to research that and this is what I found out. Dr Mercola explained in his website that “Eating more protein than your body needs can interfere with your health and fitness goals in a number of ways, including weight gain, extra body fat, stress on your kidneys, dehydration, and leaching of important bone minerals. ”


I mention B12 because the doctor said mine was extremely high and I need to cut my down to only 1000 grams a week.  He also explained that continue high levels of high levels of B12 could lead to diseases.  So again you know I had to research it …. it was explained on the News health guide that high levels of B12 “could lead to itchiness on different body parts and numbness, improper heart functioning, giddiness and regular headaches. The most serious side effect linked to overtime abuse of this vitamin, is increasing the risk of getting cancer. This vitamin helps in stimulating the process of cell division. It, however, cannot distinguish between the harmful and useful cells. Therefore, vitamin B12 prompts the growth and multiplication of even the cancerous cells.”

Nevertheless I was happy and satisfied with my check up and I am staying proactive and on top of my weight to ensure that I eventually meet my weight goal which is only about 35 pounds away.

Be blessed and have a stressed free day!  Love, peace and happiness beautiful people!

Tracy

My little fat tree trunks


Good Morning beautiful people!! I got something to share…that’s funny but really relative to learning to love yourself after weight loss surgery.  As you all know I am a self proclaimed fashionista.. I love to shop and I may be just a tiny bit addicted to shopping for the new improved Tracy.  My new focus is Lane Bryant and Catherine’s stores wide shoes.  Everytime they add some new shoes my big butt be on it.  Trying new high heels and crap like I am a pro.  Well they posted these new bad boys on their site and I had to get them.

 

Now I know some of you are old high heel steppers are looking  at these bad boys and are saying “look at that little heel.”   Well this heel is 4.75, which is really high for me.  With that being said ….I hate the fact that Lane Bryant don’t sell their shoes in their  store anymore and you have to order online.  Because for me….shoes are one thing that I need to try on and walk in before I purchase.  I got to make sure they don’t rub the corn and if my little fat feet can get them on.

  Nevertheless when I finally  received my order I put the box in the trunk of my car and forgot about it until I got to work the next day.  Well as soon as I got to the office I pull those bad boys out to try them on in my office. Now here comes the real test which I failed.   First problem was I couldn’t buckle the shoe on the side because my tree trunks had swollen up again.  Second problem was because my tree trunks was swollen the middle strap across the top of the shoe buckle up…. Like it was fighting my fat.  Here a picture to see for yourself.Now here is the funny thing…I couldn’t walk in these bad boys…I wobble, doing the lean to the side walk and holding on to everything. My coworkers was crying laughing at me.  I kept trying to push my knee back so I could stand up straight and the knees kept buckling.  I couldn’t do my sexy chocolate walk at all.  I almost fell several times so I just threw my hands up in defeat because the dang shoes won. I thought wedges was the easiest type of high heels shoe you can wear.  Boy was I wrong and I was taking them back to get a refund.  With that being said… Some shoes and some clothing is not designed for everybody.  I personally can’t wear what everybody else wears.   Now that’s my opinion about myself, so don’t take it personally…. DO YOU BOO!  But me on the other hand I have  several friends that will say to me real quick….”No, Tracy that’s not working take that back to the store.”  like these shoes and I listen. 

Love, peace and Happiness!

Tracy 

Ps.  Lane Bryant or Catherine’s are not paying me to say this.

Magic wand that makes your fat melt away

 

Good afternoon beautiful people!  I have been thinking about this writing this post for a few days and I finally got around to doing it.

I  got to start this blog off by saying this ……Weight loss surgery is not a cure all!  Let me say this one more time for those who are considering having this surgery.  There is no such things as waving a magic wand and all your fat just melt away for eternity. Weight loss surgery is not a cure all!

Now I know you are looking at this post and wondering why I am saying this and I am going to tell you why.  I have had several people who had this surgery and afterwards tell me…. they hate they did it.  They go on complaining about how their stomach hurts when they start trying to eat food that they were told not to eat.  Why is my stomach still big and why can’t I look like you?  Why is the scale not moving?  One friend even told me she hates protein shakes…and can’t stand to drink any.  But then she went on to tell me that her legs gave out on.  Here the thang….yes I said thang….. if you can’t do proteins shakes you better find something else to get those proteins in!  Shoot they have all kinds of other liquids with protein added.  You need that protein for those muscle… As for my friend……You know what I got to say about all of this…. WELCOME TO THE FREAKING CLUB you thought it was going to be easy.  WRONG.

This surgery is a life changing surgery that helps you reach your desired weight goal if you do what your doctor and nutritionist teaches you to do.  Yea, yea, you will lose weight…but I bet you a dollar after the weight has plateau around your 3rd year…that fat will return.  Here is thing …..food is everywhere and you are constantly seeing it and it always knocking at your door saying …”Tracy come and take a bite of this rich thick piece of chocolate brownie…it won’t hurt.”  (blank stare)  Yes, it will because you will go back numerous times just to bite that bad boy!  After surgery, you got to change your daily eating habits for weight loss to happen. Sometimes you even have to separate from friends or family members who tempts you to overeat.  Shoot I found myself on numerous occasions overeating just because I knew my son was watching my plate so he could eat my leftovers.  Oh man, lunch at work was really bad.  When I go out to eat…I can only take a few bites so I am always getting a takeout box to take my remains back to my office and guess what I do.  I nibble on that left over food all day.  Heck I don’t be hungry…I just eat it because it is there.  How I stopped this bad habit, required that I start bringing my lunch to the office. That way I controlled my eating better. If I do go to lunch I put my plate in fridge at the office and don’t get it out until I go home and I make sure it is a healthy meal.

pizza

Please understand I am not being a know it all.  I am just tired of the bull crap about how I took the easy route. Shoot all I did was take a short cut that lead me right back to the main highway and I still got to do what everybody else has to do.  Watch what I eat and exercise to keep the weight off.   If anything this journey is harder because when you over eat it causes pain and everything you have to go through to have the surgery.  Please let’s not forget all of the medicine that you are required to take for the rest of you life.  This is not the easily road…this is the hardest road with so many curve balls it is ridiculous.

Love, Peace and Happiness

Tracy

 

 

You got to love you!

Good morning beautiful people!!! I want to discuss body image.   I know I am not the only one who will walk by something that shows your reflection  and think dang I am still fat.  You will notice your flabby arms, thick thighs and big gut and wonder why everybody keep saying you are melting away.   Because all you see is your former fat self.   Here is the thing that we got to remember is that…. the mind is deceiving YOU!   YOU have lost a significant about of weight.  YOU are making good food choices!  YOU got a lot to be proud of!  Body image can derail any weight loss goal.


However all you got to do is remember this phrase protein first.  I never understood this until later after my surgery how important this phrase was.  Protein first is a phase that everybody who ever had gastric bypass surgery needs to post on their refrigerator. Hang it in your bathroom, hang it from your stove, or it in the cabinet doors… So when you open the door you see it.   Make a bracelet, put it in your car, put it in your office refrigerator.  Shoot  put in on your home screen of your cell phone and lap top.  When you keep seeing this phrase everytime you go to eat anything you can control your eating  habits.  Unless you are over eating and stretching that pouch which will lead to weight gain.

What we have to understand is that protein is a nutrient that helps us feel fuller, longer. If we include proteins in each of our meals or healthy snacks, we’re less likely to feel hungry when it’s not time to eat.

I know you are wondering  what can I do to be effective to ensure that I lose and maintain my weight loss.  In my opinion the number one rule is to eat protein rich foods first. See here is the thing after  surgery, your body will need adequate protein to help build, repair, and maintain muscle tissue and organs. Protein deficiency can occur over an extended period of time which can cause fatigue, hair loss, and muscle wasting.   I remember when I was about three months out after my RNY gastric bypass… My fingernails were so soft and brittle I could barely stratch  myself. Then my big dumb self tried to cover them up with fake nails.  Omg… That hurt so bad it was crazy.   I hurried up and bought Boltin.  Then my hair started falling out also…. Talk about going thru.  That was a really hard period to go thru but I made it thru.  The hair issue was not so bad for me because I love wigs.
Just remember Proteins are one of the essential building blocks of the human body and you need them.

The next time you walk by something that shows your reflection.. Say to yourself.  I look good, and I am doing good therefore I am good! 😊  You got to encourage yourself!! Because you are your biggest motivator.  Love the skin you are in.  Because you could still be that former you.

Peace, Happiness and Love!!

Tracy

Two little wilted round small oranges.

breast

Good evening beautiful people!

I went to the YMCA today and burned around 500 calories!! I did that and I am patting myself on the back fat because it is disappearing as I type. I be pumping iron and breathing, pumping iron and breathing, pausing to keep from passing out and working on those areas trying to make them disappear.  With that being said I want to discuss a subject that is a little out there.  So hang tight while I gather my words.

Before my weight loss surgery…I had this humongous stomach and my two little …how do I say this without sounding vulgar…my two little melons just lay there like two little wilted round small oranges. Because of my stomach I look like I didn’t even have any boobies.  Man my stomach was so HUGE that my Orthopedic specialist explained to me why my back hurt so much.  I have disk degenerative disease in the lower part of my back because of my weight that I carry for about 20 years.   What I had to understand is that the spine of our body is designed in such a way that it carries the weight of the body and maintains balance and distributes the weight during periods of rest and activity.  Since I was extremely overweight and had a big belly, my spine was forced to carry that extra weight on itself and it was not able to distribute to other parts of the body. This results in my spine being overworked resulting in damage to the spine and causing me to have many sleepless and painful nights. Boy I went through so many mattresses trying to find one that would help me sleep better.  Now remember I also had Sleep Apnea and bad hips that need to be replaced but my insurance would not approve a hip replacement because of my BMI was 55. Because of this I suffers unrelenting back and hip pain.  I was tore up from the floor up.

disk

Fast forward to now and after losing close to 150 pounds and my tummy shrinking down and it is about flat (However I do have skin that will need to be). My back no longer hurts.  Except when I had my hip replaced last November and that was because I couldn’t do nothing but lay on my back.  Now back to subject at hand.  I got breasties!! I got 38 DD size breasts to be exact! (Shaking my head from side to side as I type that)

Would you believe that I am also blushing as I type this, NOT!! I loveeeeeee my breasts.  I buy bras that emphasize those bad boys!! Whatttt…. you can’t tell me nothing!  Let me tell you how much breasts I got.  I was at work one day and my beautiful blond head friend, name Mica poked me in one of my breasts and said she wanted to know where did they come from. See me and her were the two biggest girls in the office with the smallest breasts!  So she was a little jealous because we have always talked about how we wanted big breasts so our stomach wouldn’t be emphasize so much.  LOL I know right. I love you MICA!!! You are my Ivory and I am your Ebony remember that when you are reading this post!!

This is one of the pro about any weight loss. You gain a figure!! Shoot I have a waist, hips, breasts, butt and I am going to keep those bad boys.  So I will be eating PROTEIN FIRST for the rest of my life and popping vitamins everyday!! I love going to sleep and my back not hurting so bad that I can’t sleep.

Smooches beautiful people!!  Check me out in my Sunday gear from this past Sunday. Boobies was popping!!img_1597

Love, Peace and Happiness!

Tracy

Can I chose the area where I want to lose weight?

Good evening beautiful people!! Well I called and I called it right. I said I would probably lose the weight in my fat feet and dang if I didn’t.  I was at work walking to the file room when I notice my feet was sliding like crazy in my sandals.  I look down to make sure they were still zipped in the back and notice that each foot was sitting back more at if my shoes were to big.  I am currently in 9 or 10 size depends on how the shoe is made.  I like the ability to be able to buy prettier shoes because of my fat little tree trunks.  However right now I want lose weight in my thighs, back fat or bat wings area.  But if we were able to pick and choose where we lost weight it would be so awesome.   But in the real world that is not possible…. So I need to get out of la-la land.


I have never really been a shoe girl until I lost weight. Plus I can’t go pass a heel that is over 3 and half.  Any higher and I might have to get my new hip replaced.  Plus you will not see me wobbling around and I can’t walk.  I like to be able to walk as natural as possible.  Especially since my orthopedic surgeon made my leg longer with my new hip. I am currently in love with..Lane Bryant and Catherine’s stores.  Their shoes and boots are catered toward wide feet.  Plus they are so comfortable and they have pretty designs that are available in my preferred heights.  The shoes are not to high priced also.  I love the ability to find boots in my size also.  Check them out.  Trust and believe these stores are not paying me to say this.   Have a good day beautiful people!!

Peace, love and happiness!!

Tracy

Dealing with Negative Nancy and Negative Bob

Good morning beautiful people! I am going to complain some today so bare with me for a post.   I am a member of several bariatric groups on Facebook.  I will say this and leave it alone. I rarely participate in the groups because some of the other members are so negative.  They have no respect and say things that hurts other people feelings.  I feel like the internet is giving people the ability to say any and everything.  It’s so ridiculous.  For example…One lady posted her picture and they said some of meanest thing to this lady.  Like she need to take more vitamins her hair looks very thin, she is to skinny, she looks sick.  I mean really come on people please stop.  Most of the people in these groups wouldn’t dare say those things to anyone face.  But the internet really gives people the ability to hide behind a fake name and they will say all kinds of vile and unspeakable things.

These groups are suppose to be supportive and help encourage others as they travel down the weight loss surgery path.  For example my blog’s discusses my successes and failures not everybody else’s.  What happen to me……may never happen to you.  What I can eat and what you can eat may vary.  My weight loss may not be as good as yours or mine may be better.  But that does not mean you have failed your surgery.

Please if anybody ever read my posts and I sound like I telling you something you don’t agree with just discuss it in a nice reply with your reasoning.  It does not have to go down the negative road.  Because we are all  have different views and opinions and I really respects that.  I mean really I love red,  burned orange, white, vanilla, mauve and these are my favorite color clothing.  Now you may love black and gray clothing that don’t make me better than the next person.  I love chicken tenderloins and you love legs parts.  That don’t change my view of you.

In closing I wish people would learn to respects others and show compassion because you never know what someone may be going through beyond that computer.

Love, peace and happiness!

Tracy