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On a mission to get back on track.

Good morning person! I got some bad news this morning. I step on the scale this bitch had moved up 13 pounds. My knees gave out on me and I fell to the floor. I was so devastated and distraught that I passed out for a few moments.

Now let’s stop right here. Let’s marinated on this for a few minutes. Let’s think about what got me here. First of all I ran out of my protein and didn’t drink them for about 2 or 3 weeks. I endudge in some buffet meals, Thanksgiving, not exercising, stayed started drinking soda. The list go on, and on. My first sign that something was amissed was when I put on a pair of pants that was loose before but was now tight as hell!! I couldn’t even sit in the bad boys. ūü§Ē I knew I was going have to weight Myself the next morning.

Now here thing…..I am very aware how 10 pounds can turn into 10 more pounds and another 10 pounds. So I am on a mission to get back on course. Most people would just give up and not be able to regroup. But not me. I refuse to get caught up in my daily life duties and neglect my weight. Shoot I like looking sexy in my clothes and being able to stop traffic. ūüėČ. Lol…but for real. I can’t go back to were I came from. I am on a mission to get back on track. Heck no it is not easy but it can be done. Keep me in your prayers as I regain my focus and drop these last 30 pounds that I have been trying to lose since I started this journey.

Love, peace and happiness!

Tracy

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When you are to busy to be busy.

Good morning beautiful people! I know I have been missing in action for about a month but things have really been hectic around here in my house. For starter my Mom’s house that she was renting had mold in it and she has been staying with me because she had severe Asthma and we are not taking a chance, Now let’s pause right there. When a woman reaches adulthood she usually moves away from her parents home. So now after 20 something years Mama and I are back in the same house. Now don’t get me wrong I love my Ma and enjoy all the time we have spend together. It just add more on you when someone else is in your home. Plus she is so old fashion. I mean take this for instant…one morning I am up getting ready for work and she gets up also…at the crack of dawn and had no where to go. She heads into the restroom were I am doing my makeup and hair. I notice as she is making small talk she is looking down and does not look in the mirror. Finally she said “Tracy do you remember when I told you it was bad luck for two people to look in the mirror.” I stop and pause and walkout of the bathroom. Then I turn around and go back and tell her to go to her room and finish replaiting her hair I got to go to the work and big boy got to get to school. Lol. She came in the bathroom with me and interrupted my process and about made me leave. Man I love my Mama!!

Second thing is preparing my son the boy/man ready for high school graduation and college. We are taking SAT/ACT and taking College tours, filing out the applications.

Third thing…I am having issues with my blood pressure. This sucker is staying around 160/100 something every morning when I check it. Plus I have been having these headaches also. I mean I don’t know what else to do. The doctor is closely monitoring it and I check it every morning but I am struggling big time. There are days when I don’t even want to get up and go to work. I am so tired every day around 3:00 and all I want to do it sleep.

Then there is my job…..shaking my head. I love my caseload and the work I do. However things have change since my eyes have been opened and I see more clearly. Let’s just say I am really working hard toward starting my own restaurant.

I am back in this and will be posting several updates in the next couple weeks. Be blessed and not stressed and until the next time!

Love, peace and Happiness!

Tracy

It’s my birthday!!


‚Äč‚ÄčGood morning beautiful people!! Today is your girl’s birthday.  I got so much to celebrate because he woke me up one more day to celebrate another year with family and friends.  

You know the closer I get to 50 years old the more I start to revaulation my life.  I am seeking so much more such as peace, stability and love.  I am at the age were I am refusing to accept anything more.  I mean my golden years are only a couple years away.  I want to remain  healthy and live a long meaningful life.  I want to continue to focus on my relationship with GOD and be a better mother, wife and friend.  My family, weight and career always come after that.  

Things don’t always go the way I want it to but I do my best to keep moving forward.   My career is something that I want to grow and I love blogging but have never thought of this as more than hobby.  

I want to continue growing and moving forward in my life and be able to look back see my growth in five years, like I am able to do now.  I love that I accomplished some really great goals such as having my undergrad and graduation degree and I am working as a counselor.  I just want to continue to grow and prosper more.  This is my hope for my birthday today.

Peace, love and happiness beautiful people!!

Birthday girl,

Tracy

Shopping smartly after weight loss surgery

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Good morning beautiful people! ¬†I decided to post about something I love to do… Shop!! I will admit I am addicted!!¬† But don’t get me wrong my bills always come first! ¬†Shoot I don’t make no money…I am a¬†struggling working parent trying to make a dollar out of¬† fifteen cent.¬† However since I have lost over 150 pounds and I am able to shop and find so many pretty pieces because as we all know… They cater more to the smaller sizes. ¬† I hated shopping when I was bigger because it was so hard to find things I like that would hide my budges and that was comfortable to wear…..¬†¬†plus it was expensive.

But now…..Man let me start off by saying ¬†I love several stores but my favorite is Ashley Stewart stores. ¬†I have posted several times about this place because it seems like the store was made for me. ¬†Oh yea, AND they do cater to the plus size. ¬†Their clothing go all the way up to a size 32. ¬†I get some of the best deals off of their online site. ¬†You got to join the email and text services because they will send you information on the sales. ¬† I got both of these dresses for only $15.00 each off of their clearance link when it was 50% off.

 

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Now let me say before hand I am a cheap shopper. ¬†I got bills to pay so I can’t afford to pay alot of money for clothing. ¬†That’s why my second favorite store is any Goodwill store that’s is color coordinated. ¬†This outfit only cost me $11.50 from my locate Goodwill here in my town. ¬†I paired it with a pair of Black knee high boots from Lane Bryant and added my jewelry. ¬†Now tell me you can’t beat that.

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But here is my major save that I got to share. ¬†My third favorite store is Lane Bryant store and online site. ¬†Now I know they are little expensive but man when they have those sales with 50% you can get some awesome deals. ¬† Plus I love how they cater to the plus size and all of their shoes are made for wide feet and calves.¬† I just put these¬†4 pairs of boots on my charge last night…. because ¬†well I needed some winter boots!! ūüėúūüėú Man they was having an awesome sale going on…. I got those all those bad boys for under $140.00 total. ¬†Check them out… Because their boots usually run around $80.00 a pair and I got 4 pair for $140.00!!

Here is the thing…. We women struggle with so many internal things.¬† But one thing that always boosts my spirits is when I know I look good and wear my outfit like a queen. We have to find something that make us feel good about ourselves. We have to motivate and believe in ourselves and walk in every room like we are Queen Sheba!! That how I look at life everyday because mentally I can feel so drain and in the dumps and I refuse to feel like this all the time!¬† I want everyday to feel like Christmas…but that’s not possible.¬† Shopping helps me to overcome those days.

I will tried to do a monthly or Bi-monthly post about my deals that I find. ¬†Until the next time beautiful people!! Be blessed… Oh yea… Trust and believe that nobody has paid me to do this posts. ¬† I just love shoes ¬†and clothes!!

Love, peace and happiness!

Tracy

Just taking it one day at a time

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Good morning beautiful people!  I know I have fell off on my blogging but I am going through a really rough time right now mentally.  I am just taking it one day at a time and anything extra just takes a lot out of me..  However even though I am struggling mentally.  My weight always stays at the forefront of my mind.  I refuse to let this mental stuff make me gain weight.  I am focusing on my weight more than anything and I am trying to maintain and make sure I am keeping those pounds away.  I am still walking and I am in the process of adding more miles.

Now I could never really air what is going on in my personal life but it really life changing and it is causing problems big time. I just stay prayed up and try to keep GOD first however it is still hard.  I think we all have our lows and highs that we all struggle with everyday.  I just feel that at this time my mental bags are extra heavy.  Those suckers are really dragging me down and putting a damper on my spirits.

 

Now that is enough about my mental struggles and lets talk ABOUT my results from the Endoscopy and colonoscopy. The endoscopy came out great and they did not find anything wrong however I am still fighting acid reflux and I am taking 3 medications for it.¬† Also my colonoscopy was failed…after going to the bathroom over 100 times in a 8 hour period. I was informed that I was still full of shit and he could not complete the procedure, however he did get one poly out and it was tested and was negative. But because they did find one poly I was schedule for a colon X-ray this upcoming week.¬†¬† Now¬†that a sucker.¬† I drunk 2 full bottles of that nasty junk and was still full of shit.¬† Now I got to do a barium enema x-ray. I hate doing these sucker.¬† However maybe I will lose about 5 pounds.¬† Heck a girl can hope and dream right!!

Peace, Love and Happiness

Tracy

Review of my 3 month check up

  

Good morning beautiful people. Last Thursday I had my yearly check up with the gastric bypass doctor.  I have lost 23 pounds since my last visit… which was in July 2016..  With that being said he also gave me information on the next skin removal seminar that is coming up at the end of this month.   I am planning on attending because my stomach and my bat wings are my biggest concern.  My skin hangs from my under arm drastically and causes problems with wearing shirts and dresses.  Those suckers make me sick.  If I got into a fight I could hit somebody in the face with those jokers and knock their butt out.  Shoot I believe I can take flight with those bad boys.   When I wear clothing that show my arms …I tuck and hide the flab.  My arms looks massive to me because of the loose skin.  


 My stomach area do have excess skin but I wear spank to pull it in.  If I decide to do the surgery I would have the skin removed off of my stomach first.  My thighs are jiggy also and I hate that… However I can live with that.  


One of the question I had for Dr. Ross, my Gastric Bypass Doctor was about my protein intake.  I know I average around 80 to 100 grams of protein and was considering adding a protein shake at night.  He explained that I should only use one supplement for protein such as my morning protein shake and the rest should come from my food intake.  He also said to much protein and b12 can cause medical problems after extensive use.  So you know me I had to research that and this is what I found out. Dr Mercola explained in his website that “Eating more protein than your body needs can interfere with your health and fitness goals in a number of ways, including weight gain, extra body fat, stress on your kidneys, dehydration, and leaching of important bone minerals. ”


I mention B12 because the doctor said mine was extremely high and I need to cut my down to only 1000 grams a week.  He also explained that continue high levels of high levels of B12 could lead to diseases.  So again you know I had to research it …. it was explained on the News health guide that high levels of B12 “could lead to itchiness on different body parts and numbness, improper heart functioning, giddiness and regular headaches. The most serious side effect linked to overtime abuse of this vitamin, is increasing the risk of getting cancer. This vitamin helps in stimulating the process of cell division. It, however, cannot distinguish between the harmful and useful cells. Therefore, vitamin B12 prompts the growth and multiplication of even the cancerous cells.”

Nevertheless I was happy and satisfied with my check up and I am staying proactive and on top of my weight to ensure that I eventually meet my weight goal which is only about 35 pounds away.

Be blessed and have a stressed free day!  Love, peace and happiness beautiful people!

Tracy

Celebrating Three years weight loss surgery anniversary!

Hey beautiful people!  Sorry I haven’t been posting but it’s been crazy this last month at work.   As you all know i consider myself a fashionista…. The cheap version. See this  one right here will never ever own a pair of red bottom shoes unless someone send them to me free.  This right cha here will never ever wear Verace clothing.  Lol…I am just being real. If i ever win the lottery or get a my dream job making over 100 grand a year  I still wouldn’t  buy any because I can’t see paying those type of prices for clothing.  

I know somebody looking at this post like what does this have to do with weight loss.  A lot I say.  When you are overweight you was limited in what and where you could purchase your clothing from.  Now three years later it is better everybody is carrying size 26 all the way up to size 32.  But back in 2014 which was just three year ago it was not that easy.  I had started  thinking about sewing and designing my own clothing because it was so hard to find clothing in my size that look good professionally.  I know at that time Catherine’s and lane Bryant was out there but they are high also.  At that time my favorite store Ashley Stewart didn’t go pass  a 24 or 26.  Cato’s Stores carried my size but you and every other person had the same outfit on.  

Now fast forward to now… Clothes in my size 14 are everywhere.  White, lime green , mauve, peach, orange all these colors…. Oh my what is a girl to do… But shop until she drop.  My closet rods get mad everytime I hang something new in there.

I just celebrated my 3  years weight loss surgery anniversary on July 31.  Being able to shop anywhere is the best reward for losing this weight.  I love going to the Goodwill and putting pretty pieces together.   It just something about feeling and looking good when you go out.  Because I can reflect back before my weight loss surgery and I swore everybody was whispering about my weight behind my back. Shoot I remember the first time I flew on my first airplane flight, my sister had told me before hand to ask for a extender for the seat belt as soon as I got on to avoid any embarrassment of asking after I sat down.  This was so true.  Little things like that draw attention to your weight big time.   Nevertheless this is not a problem anymore…. Because I know they are eagerly waiting just to see what I have on. (I have been told this numerous times)   I have set the stage for me and only me…I can’t be better than nobody but me …..from two days ago.  

 GOD blessing!    Stay blessed and not stressed! Love, peace and Happiness beautiful people!

Tracy