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Two little wilted round small oranges.

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Good evening beautiful people!

I went to the YMCA today and burned around 500 calories!! I did that and I am patting myself on the back fat because it is disappearing as I type. I be pumping iron and breathing, pumping iron and breathing, pausing to keep from passing out and working on those areas trying to make them disappear.  With that being said I want to discuss a subject that is a little out there.  So hang tight while I gather my words.

Before my weight loss surgery…I had this humongous stomach and my two little …how do I say this without sounding vulgar…my two little melons just lay there like two little wilted round small oranges. Because of my stomach I look like I didn’t even have any boobies.  Man my stomach was so HUGE that my Orthopedic specialist explained to me why my back hurt so much.  I have disk degenerative disease in the lower part of my back because of my weight that I carry for about 20 years.   What I had to understand is that the spine of our body is designed in such a way that it carries the weight of the body and maintains balance and distributes the weight during periods of rest and activity.  Since I was extremely overweight and had a big belly, my spine was forced to carry that extra weight on itself and it was not able to distribute to other parts of the body. This results in my spine being overworked resulting in damage to the spine and causing me to have many sleepless and painful nights. Boy I went through so many mattresses trying to find one that would help me sleep better.  Now remember I also had Sleep Apnea and bad hips that need to be replaced but my insurance would not approve a hip replacement because of my BMI was 55. Because of this I suffers unrelenting back and hip pain.  I was tore up from the floor up.

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Fast forward to now and after losing close to 150 pounds and my tummy shrinking down and it is about flat (However I do have skin that will need to be). My back no longer hurts.  Except when I had my hip replaced last November and that was because I couldn’t do nothing but lay on my back.  Now back to subject at hand.  I got breasties!! I got 38 DD size breasts to be exact! (Shaking my head from side to side as I type that)

Would you believe that I am also blushing as I type this, NOT!! I loveeeeeee my breasts.  I buy bras that emphasize those bad boys!! Whatttt…. you can’t tell me nothing!  Let me tell you how much breasts I got.  I was at work one day and my beautiful blond head friend, name Mica poked me in one of my breasts and said she wanted to know where did they come from. See me and her were the two biggest girls in the office with the smallest breasts!  So she was a little jealous because we have always talked about how we wanted big breasts so our stomach wouldn’t be emphasize so much.  LOL I know right. I love you MICA!!! You are my Ivory and I am your Ebony remember that when you are reading this post!!

This is one of the pro about any weight loss. You gain a figure!! Shoot I have a waist, hips, breasts, butt and I am going to keep those bad boys.  So I will be eating PROTEIN FIRST for the rest of my life and popping vitamins everyday!! I love going to sleep and my back not hurting so bad that I can’t sleep.

Smooches beautiful people!!  Check me out in my Sunday gear from this past Sunday. Boobies was popping!!img_1597

Love, Peace and Happiness!

Tracy

I hate my weight loss scale!

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Good afternoon beautiful people!

I woke up this morning and started getting my son and I ready to attend church for our Pastor’s Anniversary.  We had another pastor speaking for the Anniversary and his church was accompanying.  So that meant we wouldn’t get out regular seats if we didn’t leave early.  With that being said….I don’t care how much I got to do and if I am in a hurry.  I will always make that stop at the weight scale.  Well this morning the scale was at a stand still as it has been for the last two days.  My first thought after stepping on the little sucker three times and the numbers didn’t change was to throw that bad boy out the window.  Don’t that just piss you off.  I know I am not the only person who wants to pick their scale up and threw it up against the wall because we want to see those numbers go down so bad. However, here is the thing I am doing good because I have lost 6 pounds since I corrected my negative behaviors in one week. I also added some good habits that should keep the scale from going up.  I have looked at my body and examine my thighs and arms trying to figure out which area lost the pounds (that where I want to lose weight).  Knowing my stupid body…I probable lost the weight on my dang feet again.  I went from a size twelve extra wide in shoes to a size nine wide in shoes.   That another post for another day.  Nevertheless I can’t tell where the pounds came off….. but I am really happy with the 6 pounds I lost.

I know I lost six pound but I want to examine what a five pound loss look like. The picture below shows a great example of a 5 pound weight loss versus the weight of a brick.  Then the other pictures are showing 5, 10, 15, 20 pounds weight loss.  I have a friend that recently loss twenty pounds and is really tone and looks real good. You can’t tell them anything they are so happy with their results.  Muscles was popping and they was firm and tight all over.  I was so jealous but trust and believe I understand how they feel. I would really be happy with a twenty pound weight loss.

 

Nevertheless don’t ever get upset with just one pound lost because that an awesome start. The whole point is not to give up and not think you are doing good. Because even if it is one pound you are still making progress and one pound is better than plus one!

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Love, Peace and Happiness!!

Tracy

I am making progress

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Hey beautiful people!!

I know it is late in the night and I need to have my sleep deprived butt in the bed. However I got to pat myself on the back for my performance today and yesterday also for refusing that sweet fresh out the oven still warm Kristy Kreme donut.

Today a beautiful, succulent moist cake was brought into the staff meeting for a coworker who is leaving my agency.  Oh man, my mouth started watering, and I was wiping saliva from my lips but I did not touch one piece of that delectable, delicious looking cake.  I turned down my piece because all I could see was the scale sliding closer to another five pound gain.  I mean really in my head I could picture it doing it and number going up.

See here is thing when you start introducing those sugary and fatty foods back into your system you get the taste for them again.  The next thing you know you are eating it on the regular. I refused to go back to the old Tracy who is overweight and can’t stand for more than 15 minutes and my feet start numbing. Or the Old Tracy who was so overweight that she was having problems wiping her own butt!! Heck yea I said.  I had let me weight get so out of control that my short little stubby arms had to fight tooth and nail just to wipe my butt. I could lie and say that I was fat and fabulous but I was would be telling a LIE.  Shoot I hated to go to Walmart because the store was so big and I hated walking.

Here is another tool I use also…Reminiscing about the old Fat Tracy Days!   I remember when I first started my job and we had to go to a training in a city about 50 miles away from our office.  We went to this Thai restaurant for lunch and oh man I will never forget this…when I went to sit in the chair at the table it was really snug.  I decided to slide forward so I could be closer to the table because my belly was so big and I didn’t want to drop food on my shirt. This happen a lot because I had to bring the food over my extended enlarge stomach.  When I tried to scoot closer to the table … the dang leg in back of the chair broke and my big butt fell in the floor. OH my gosh!! I was so embarrassed and as a coworker help me up. I gave praises to the good Lord above that there was only a few people in the restaurant that witness my epic crash.  To say I was embarrassed in an understatement.

This is how the fat girl chair check started. I know you are looking at the computer and wondering what the heck is the fat girl chair check. Let me explain…. Whenever I go to any restaurant, I check the chairs at the table to make sure it is stable and can hold my weight. I still do this even though I am smaller because I was so embarrassed when I fell.  These are the type of memories that I am using to motivate myself to stay on track and to continue losing the weight.

I do know that I got to get better with my exercise and attend the YMCA at least 3 days a week or better yet use my treadmill here at the house.  I have so much going on, however that is just a excuse.  I can’t keep making that same old excuse.  I can make time and I will start making time.  If I did as much as I planned on doing in my head.  I would weight 150 pounds right now.

Farewell everyone!! Have a blessed day

Peace, Happiness, Love

Tracy

 

 

 

 

The battle has just begin!

 

Good morning beautiful people!  I am having a major hissy fit.  I have gain 10 pounds back and I am about to have a physical heart attack.  I want to say I don’t know how this happen however I do.  I have started sliding in fatty foods like potatoes chips, candy bars and popcorn.  To say my life has been thrown for a loop is an understatement.  I am about to pass out. I know most people will say 10 pounds is nothing and I can get back on track.  However I know how easily 10 pounds can lead to 10 more pounds and 10 more pounds can lead to another 10 pounds. Before you know I will be weighing around 250.  Heck to no and I am stopping this crap right now.  Somebody just walk in my office with a box of FRESH KRISTY KREME donut and I ran the other way while wiping drool from my mouth. However I am not stupid and this is not a laughing matter.   I also feel like my personal life which is in turmoil affected my eating habits because I cook and eat when I am stressed.  This is not a good habit to have. So I have resort to buying all kinds of fruits like Cuties, strawberries, watermelon…..Healthy snacks.

I am back in the gym and I am pushing my butt hard. My orthopedic doctor said I could resume  all exercise and I am planning on starting to jog.  Right now I am getting myself ready by using a machine that resemblance jogging. My hip do ting somewhat but that is to be expected.  I am being mindful not to overdue it because I don’t want to relocated that new hip.

I was talking with my sister who had the RNY gastric bypass about 10 years ago and we was discussing protein intake.  She told me that I was drinking to much protein at one time and my body is not able to absorb it.  I do:

  • 1 cup of 2% milk 8 grams of proteins 122 calories, 12 carbs
  • 2 scoops of Banana protein powder from Isopure Carb free.  It has 210 calories and 50gms of proteins in two scoops
  • 1 protein load yogurt usual banana flavor. ( I love banana and strawberry flavor food)  It has 0 fat, 0 added sugar*, and 0 artificial sweeteners – plus 15g of protein per 5.3 oz.  However it has 120 calories, 14 carbs

This all equal out to 450 calories, 73 grams of protein, 26 carbs.  This is usually my morning meal every day.  However on the weekend I get lax and may not do a protein shake.  Well this will change also because I will make sure I do a protein shake everyday.  Now back to the problem at hand.  I have call my nutrition at my Gastric bypass doctor to get clarity. However, my sister said I got to cut my protein in the morning to around 40 grams of proteins otherwise I don’t absorb it.  Here is my problem I must have miss that class or I was sleepy and did not hear it.  I really need to know the answer because if that is the case I got to change that morning protein drink real quick.  Another thing is that I got to start doing a shake at night also to make sure I have gotten my protein intake. I never do one at night because I usually get my protein throughout the day with my lunch and dinner meal.  Even though I am about 3 years out coming up in July.  I still do not know everything and I know I am at the point were I can start regaining weight.

That is not going to happen and I am getting my vessel back on track. I am going to YMCA everyday this week and burning major calories.  I had gotten slack and was only going once every couple of week.  That not the case now.  Plus I have never reached my goal weight which is 175 pounds and now I am ready to do it.  I have also called my nutritionist and is waiting for a call from her. I am going to start going to the classes that they offer for patients who have had the surgery to help them maintain and stay on the healthy track.

If anybody have any suggestions or comments please give them I need to get this battleship back in the war.  I had forgotten that this battle wasn’t over.  It was only getting started.  The weight loss surgery is a tool that I got to use to manage and control and get to the desired weight that I want.

Thanks Everybody and have a beautiful day.  Keep me and my struggle in your mind when you whisper a prayer tonight.

Peace, Love and Happiness

Tracy

Change is good for the soul 


Hey beautiful people!! I always seem to have  rare moments were I am really feeling myself and I start snapping pictures.  I have come to realize on this journey you got to encourage yourself.  Especially when you step on the scale and it hasn’t moved or it went up a few pounds.  Stay focus and keep moving forward and stay active!!  Be blessed!  Love, peace and happiness!  

Tracy 

 

Back to the basics

Good afternoon Beautiful people!  Let’s talk about weight regain a very important part of weight loss surgery afterward.  Everybody  knows that regaining weight after a WLS (weight loss surgery) is  scary.   When you gain weight and you have previously fought  to lose it is scary as heck.   For myself,  I picture  my previous  body size before  my weight loss surgery.   That’s makes me shake in my boots and stop eating any  chips or sweets.  You got to know that  I am in this game to win it.   When people notice I am going to the gym, the first thing they ask me is why.  I mean really why ask  why.  To me it’s simple anybody  can gain weight back and you got to stay proactive on this journey for the rest of your life.  You got to get up and move to keep the weight off when all you want to do is sleep.  You got to exercise and watch what you put in your mouth period.  One of my hardest struggle is when I go out to eat with my family.  They are usually watching my plate and will argue  about who is going to get my leftovers like I can’t eat them later.  This makes me eat more because I don’t want anybody else to eat my food.  I am aware that I have this problem and I am focusing on letting go.  So what if they eat the leftover plate at least you didn’t.  It’s hard and if anyone told you this journey was going to be easy they are lying.   Because you are fighting  this eating habits many times throughout the day.    What are your struggles? What causes you grief the most on this  journey?

Stay bless!  Love, peace and happiness!!

In for the fight of my life!

Good afternoon everybody! I have to discuss my three year anniversary coming up for my RNY Gastric Bypass  on July 28 and how I am not losing weight.  I have notice that I am  floating between gaining 5 pounds and then losing it.  Even thought my goal weight is only 20 pounds away.  The thought of even hitting 220 makes me cringe and sink down into a depressed mode.  I refused to go back to the old fat lady that couldn’t even walk around Wal-Mart to get grocery without tiring out quickly.

I also blame myself for my kids being overweight.  My son wants to lose about 70 pounds and I feel like my bad eating habits are something that I passed on to him. Not to mention my fatty genes.  Some people argue that there is no such thing as fatty genes but I be to differ on that. Now I know good eating habits could be taught and learned but when you know only how to throw fatback grease in everything you cook. Not county deep frying everything in grease. Eating starchy and bread all day. I found this one research that states that men can passed fatty genes on to their offspring but he could be alter by losing weight also.  However they were not able to prove that fatty genes were heredity.  I will included the link at bottom of the page.

Learning and maintaining  good eating habits are must on any weight loss journey.  I don’t care if you have had the Gastric Bypass or not.  You will never be able to eat any and everything and not worry about health issues such as weight gain or medical issues.  There has not been a way to safe and healthy way to lose weight and keep it off.  Besides eating healthy and exercising on a constant basic.

I am at that point in my journey where unfortunately you can start regaining weight.  THIS is the most crucial time in my life.  I am focusing on maintaining and keeping the weight off for the rest of my life.  Keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I continue to fight this struggle.  Oh how I wish I was one of those that just kept losing weight.  NOT Tracy!!

Love, Peace and Happiness and healthy choices.

Tracy

The picture below are within the last couple of weeks on the outside. The one in the middle was about 7 years ago when I was around 340 pounds.  img_0578

Are you fat because of your dad? Men’s WEIGHT directly affects genes in sperm linked to appetite and brain development. Mail Online, December 3 2015