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On a mission to get back on track.

Good morning person! I got some bad news this morning. I step on the scale this bitch had moved up 13 pounds. My knees gave out on me and I fell to the floor. I was so devastated and distraught that I passed out for a few moments.

Now let’s stop right here. Let’s marinated on this for a few minutes. Let’s think about what got me here. First of all I ran out of my protein and didn’t drink them for about 2 or 3 weeks. I endudge in some buffet meals, Thanksgiving, not exercising, stayed started drinking soda. The list go on, and on. My first sign that something was amissed was when I put on a pair of pants that was loose before but was now tight as hell!! I couldn’t even sit in the bad boys. ūü§Ē I knew I was going have to weight Myself the next morning.

Now here thing…..I am very aware how 10 pounds can turn into 10 more pounds and another 10 pounds. So I am on a mission to get back on course. Most people would just give up and not be able to regroup. But not me. I refuse to get caught up in my daily life duties and neglect my weight. Shoot I like looking sexy in my clothes and being able to stop traffic. ūüėČ. Lol…but for real. I can’t go back to were I came from. I am on a mission to get back on track. Heck no it is not easy but it can be done. Keep me in your prayers as I regain my focus and drop these last 30 pounds that I have been trying to lose since I started this journey.

Love, peace and happiness!

Tracy

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It’s my birthday!!


‚Äč‚ÄčGood morning beautiful people!! Today is your girl’s birthday.  I got so much to celebrate because he woke me up one more day to celebrate another year with family and friends.  

You know the closer I get to 50 years old the more I start to revaulation my life.  I am seeking so much more such as peace, stability and love.  I am at the age were I am refusing to accept anything more.  I mean my golden years are only a couple years away.  I want to remain  healthy and live a long meaningful life.  I want to continue to focus on my relationship with GOD and be a better mother, wife and friend.  My family, weight and career always come after that.  

Things don’t always go the way I want it to but I do my best to keep moving forward.   My career is something that I want to grow and I love blogging but have never thought of this as more than hobby.  

I want to continue growing and moving forward in my life and be able to look back see my growth in five years, like I am able to do now.  I love that I accomplished some really great goals such as having my undergrad and graduation degree and I am working as a counselor.  I just want to continue to grow and prosper more.  This is my hope for my birthday today.

Peace, love and happiness beautiful people!!

Birthday girl,

Tracy

Its a struggle being consistent 

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Good afternoon beautiful people!  I just wanted to blog about trying to lose weight and being at a standstill for a long period.  I really want to drop about 30 pounds and it seems that I am fighting like heck just to lose 5 pounds.  Now let’s be real.  Consistently is a must.  I must be consistent and exercise  on a regular basis.  I must be consistent about eating healthy food.  I must be consistent and get my water intake in.  There are so many more things I got to do better about.  I am very alert and aware of my weight which causes me and my scale to have this love and hate relationship.  I am constantly stepping on him just to see what he say.  (Yes my scale is a he.)  Because only a man can give you various information that’s bad majority of the time.  Lol

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I personally know that I am always looking in the mirror and I see every imperfections and every flaw on my body.  Every woman does this no matter how pretty she is.  There will always be an area that you wants fixed.  For me it is my weight. I want to lose more pounds because I am so scared of going back to fat Tracy.   I sometimes look in the mirror and all I can see is that 340 pound woman.  That vision scares the living hell out of me.   I used this as a guide to ensure that I don’t get back there.

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Nevertheless I always start planning my next day the day before.  I have everything all planned out in my head and never do ALL the things I have planned to do and usually it is the stuff that deals with eating and exercise.  If I did everything that I planned in my head I would weigh around 140 pounds.  I just got to get more consistent period. I know if I could lose a few pounds each week this would motivate me to be more consistent.  But I am just like most people I want thing to be easy and that not the case.  Even though I had the gastric bypass surgery it is still hard to keep this weight off and keep losing. Then here is the kicker when I finally meet my goals…I will start complaining about something else.  However that is not the point right now.  The point right now is being consistent as I keep saying in this post.

Another thing that bother me is when I go out to eat with family members.  I rarely eat more than 1/4 of my food.  However that don’t stop those vultures from watching and waiting for me to finish so they can swallow the rest of my food whole.  I don’t know why I let this upsets me but it does and it causes me to overeat because I know they are going to eat my leftovers.  I am working on this really hard because this type of gluttony can cause overeating which stretch Shelly the belly.  Help me LORD, because this should be my last worry. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I fight this battle that is continuous and never-ending.

I do got news to post about my tests I had this week and a couple of weeks ago.  I will post a blog about my results from the supposedly X-ray of my colon.  Please note I say supposedly….until later guys and gals!

Love, Peace and Happiness

Tracy.

 

 

 

Just taking it one day at a time

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Good morning beautiful people!  I know I have fell off on my blogging but I am going through a really rough time right now mentally.  I am just taking it one day at a time and anything extra just takes a lot out of me..  However even though I am struggling mentally.  My weight always stays at the forefront of my mind.  I refuse to let this mental stuff make me gain weight.  I am focusing on my weight more than anything and I am trying to maintain and make sure I am keeping those pounds away.  I am still walking and I am in the process of adding more miles.

Now I could never really air what is going on in my personal life but it really life changing and it is causing problems big time. I just stay prayed up and try to keep GOD first however it is still hard.  I think we all have our lows and highs that we all struggle with everyday.  I just feel that at this time my mental bags are extra heavy.  Those suckers are really dragging me down and putting a damper on my spirits.

 

Now that is enough about my mental struggles and lets talk ABOUT my results from the Endoscopy and colonoscopy. The endoscopy came out great and they did not find anything wrong however I am still fighting acid reflux and I am taking 3 medications for it.¬† Also my colonoscopy was failed…after going to the bathroom over 100 times in a 8 hour period. I was informed that I was still full of shit and he could not complete the procedure, however he did get one poly out and it was tested and was negative. But because they did find one poly I was schedule for a colon X-ray this upcoming week.¬†¬† Now¬†that a sucker.¬† I drunk 2 full bottles of that nasty junk and was still full of shit.¬† Now I got to do a barium enema x-ray. I hate doing these sucker.¬† However maybe I will lose about 5 pounds.¬† Heck a girl can hope and dream right!!

Peace, Love and Happiness

Tracy

Future jogger right here!

Good morning beautiful people!  As we know I have been really active about my weight loss.  I want to reach my weight goal which means I got to get really proactive about my weight loss.  I have always wanted to jog but was unsure that I can do it.  Well yesterday i decide to walk around my neighborhood and use the Map me walk  app. 

 I started off at a good pace with my headphones on and my stick to beat off any creatures that venture to close to me.  One thing about my neighborhood is that it has a lot of hills and this caused me to burn more calories and energy.  I did really well and did not get tired at all… Just sweaty.  I walked about a mile and half and burn around 240 calories.  I am planning on walking again everyday and I am going to try a longer distance because I want to burn around 500 calories each time.   

The while point of this post is that I didn’t think I would be able to jog.   But after starting my walking regime outside…. I think I may be a jogger in the near future.  

Peace, love and Happiness

Tracy Be Blessed!

Review of my 3 month check up

  

Good morning beautiful people. Last Thursday I had my yearly check up with the gastric bypass doctor.  I have lost 23 pounds since my last visit… which was in July 2016..  With that being said he also gave me information on the next skin removal seminar that is coming up at the end of this month.   I am planning on attending because my stomach and my bat wings are my biggest concern.  My skin hangs from my under arm drastically and causes problems with wearing shirts and dresses.  Those suckers make me sick.  If I got into a fight I could hit somebody in the face with those jokers and knock their butt out.  Shoot I believe I can take flight with those bad boys.   When I wear clothing that show my arms …I tuck and hide the flab.  My arms looks massive to me because of the loose skin.  


 My stomach area do have excess skin but I wear spank to pull it in.  If I decide to do the surgery I would have the skin removed off of my stomach first.  My thighs are jiggy also and I hate that… However I can live with that.  


One of the question I had for Dr. Ross, my Gastric Bypass Doctor was about my protein intake.  I know I average around 80 to 100 grams of protein and was considering adding a protein shake at night.  He explained that I should only use one supplement for protein such as my morning protein shake and the rest should come from my food intake.  He also said to much protein and b12 can cause medical problems after extensive use.  So you know me I had to research that and this is what I found out. Dr Mercola explained in his website that “Eating more protein than your body needs can interfere with your health and fitness goals in a number of ways, including weight gain, extra body fat, stress on your kidneys, dehydration, and leaching of important bone minerals. ”


I mention B12 because the doctor said mine was extremely high and I need to cut my down to only 1000 grams a week.  He also explained that continue high levels of high levels of B12 could lead to diseases.  So again you know I had to research it …. it was explained on the News health guide that high levels of B12 “could lead to itchiness on different body parts and numbness, improper heart functioning, giddiness and regular headaches. The most serious side effect linked to overtime abuse of this vitamin, is increasing the risk of getting cancer. This vitamin helps in stimulating the process of cell division. It, however, cannot distinguish between the harmful and useful cells. Therefore, vitamin B12 prompts the growth and multiplication of even the cancerous cells.”

Nevertheless I was happy and satisfied with my check up and I am staying proactive and on top of my weight to ensure that I eventually meet my weight goal which is only about 35 pounds away.

Be blessed and have a stressed free day!  Love, peace and happiness beautiful people!

Tracy

Three years…..since I embarked on this weight loss journey

Good morning beautiful people!  I am so happy because I am coming up on my three year anniversary for my weight loss surgery at the end of this month.  I have a doctor appointment to  meet with my Gastric bypass surgery doctor to look at my progress and to help me continue to meet  my goal.  This has been such a great experience that there is no way I could ever regret having this surgery.  My starting weight was 340 pounds.  I currently weigh 205.  I wear a size 14 in clothing whereas I use to wear a size 28 to size 30.  My goal weight is still 175.  So I got about 30 more pounds to drop.   

Here are my  pros since I had my RNY gastric bypass surgery.

  • One I can shop at any store now.
  • I can walk without having to feel like I am going to pass out or my feet and or back hurting.
  • I can actually take care of very personal hygiene thing without struggling.
  • I feel healthy 
  • I am not a diabetic anymore
  • I can wear heels
  • I can sit in booth at a restaurant and not have to go to a table because my stomach is so big
  • I can buy pretty shoes 
  • I can see my feet when standing up and looking down (my belly blocked my view previously)
  • I was able to have my hip replacement 
  • The best one….I feel sexy, good and happy with me.

Now this is my personal journey and I am happy as heck about it.  What’s for me is for me.  My journey can’t be like the chick next door because we are two different people.  My success may not be as great as someone else’s but I am  happy with what I have accomplished.  Because the truth be told I could still be that that overweight, depressed in pain lady with very low self esteem.  I use to worry all the time that people was talking about me because of my weight.  Now I walk through a crowd like I am parting the sea shouting “the queen is here.”  I love the new me!!

    Peace, love and Happiness!!

    Tracy