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Its just a Compliment nothing more nothing less….just say thank you!

Good morning beautiful people! I know it has been a while since I posted, but my cake business really picked up and I have been doing everything to help my son prepare for college and his upcoming high school graduation. I promise to get back on my game. Because this is the type of stuff that can derail your weight loss and before you know it you have gain 10, 20 or 30 pound back. I got a lot stuff I want to share with you guys so I will be blogging more.

I want to discuss self image for a minute. You know self image is one of the hardest thing anybody can deal with. When you pass by a mirror and you still see your previous overweight self. Nevertheless it makes it hard to accept compliments from others. I know this is a major issue of mine. Somebody will be like “Tracy girl you are looking good”….and my dumb butt will reply:

“Yea girl but you don’t want to see me naked. ” (Really who wants to see you naked…I got to stop saying this)

“Or shoot I ought to….I can barely eat anything” here another one..

“Did you see this excess skin under my arms, I can knock someone out with these bat wings.”

“Or girl it is that girdle holding everything in”.

Why can’t I just say thank you and keep it moving. For whatever reason I will attach something negative that I am concerned about to it every time. I know others who do this also. It is just hard for some people to accept compliments because we are always so hard on ourselves. Plus I don’t want to get comfortable with all the compliments and think I am fine and I don’t have to put in work anymore.

I am working on my short coming and doing my best to do better. When all I got say is thank you and keep it moving.

Happy Easter everyone!

Peace, Love and Happiness!!

Be blessed

Tracy

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Working on goals for 20 18

Good Afternoon beautiful people! There comes a time when something happens that makes you stop and start looking at other options for your life. For me my career has caused me to start developing a business plan for opening up my own restaurant.

One of my concerns that is causing me hesitate is working around food constantly all day. I am scared that this could cause me to overeat and possibly start gaining weight. However it may help me to develop better control and refrain from eating unhealthy foods. Nevertheless this had always been a life long goal of mine and I am eagerly looking forward to opening Tracy tasty treats. Lol! I know I am going have to work on that name.

Since we are mentioning goals. Exercise is one of the most important part of any weight loss plan. I don’t care if you had weight loss surgery or not. You still got to get physical and stay physical to achieve and reach your weight loss goal for the rest of your life.

Nevertheless I started back attending the YMCA and went with my 18 years old teenage son. Big mistake this boy/man pushed and motivated me like nobody has ever did. My big butt is sore in places I didn’t know you could be sore. My thighs, all over my arms, right up above my wrist and between my elbow. I mean I did my cardio and then hit the weights to work on my lower body that day. But I didn’t think I over did it. However I had to skip Thursday to recoup.

Note to self again: don’t let your Son guide you when you are exercising at the YMCA. I had to add a picture I took while getting my sweat on at YMCA.

Don’t hate the picture hate the game. Lmbo!

Peace, Love and Happiness Beautiful people. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I get my business plan together and apply for small business loans.

Be blessed Tracy

Reflection is the best tool

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Good morning beautiful people! Let’s take a look at reflection and how it affects your weight loss. Now before I start please let me state that these are my own personal views and opinions and not rules that you have to follow. They are my beliefs.

Reflection is define as a thought, idea, or opinion formed or a remark made as a result of meditation.

Reflection is really important when someone who is overweight and is unhappy with their weight because of medical, physical or low self esteem reasons. Because it helps them to redirect and figure out how to lose weight or get their weight under control. Reflection helps you to be able to be aware of what you put in your mouth and monitor your eating habits. I also believe that reflection helps promotes guilt which can help you resist eating foods that can and will cause weight gain. I mean who wants to have a future that will include diabetes, Gerd, orthopedics and heat disease. One of the best tools to help me with weight loss is my reflection in the mirror.

Using reflection as a tool can help break negative cycles that have caused you to gain weight in the first place. It can also help you to look at your personal beliefs about yourself, and question these behaviors and start the process of becoming a better you. Personally reflection has helped me to be aware of my own shortcoming and motivated me more than anything when it comes to my weight loss and personal growth as a person. I can’t imagine not be able to looks at my flaws and figure out what I am doing wrong to improve and be a better person.

Love, Peace and Happiness!

Be blessed

Tracy

When you are to busy to be busy.

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Good morning beautiful people! I know I have been missing in action for about a month but things have really been hectic around here in my house. For starter my Mom’s house that she was renting had mold in it and she has been staying with me because she had severe Asthma and we are not taking a chance, Now let’s pause right there. When a woman reaches adulthood she usually moves away from her parents home. So now after 20 something years Mama and I are back in the same house. Now don’t get me wrong I love my Ma and enjoy all the time we have spend together. It just add more on you when someone else is in your home. Plus she is so old fashion. I mean take this for instant…one morning I am up getting ready for work and she gets up also…at the crack of dawn and had no where to go. She heads into the restroom were I am doing my makeup and hair. I notice as she is making small talk she is looking down and does not look in the mirror. Finally she said “Tracy do you remember when I told you it was bad luck for two people to look in the mirror.” I stop and pause and walkout of the bathroom. Then I turn around and go back and tell her to go to her room and finish replaiting her hair I got to go to the work and big boy got to get to school. Lol. She came in the bathroom with me and interrupted my process and about made me leave. Man I love my Mama!!

Second thing is preparing my son the boy/man ready for high school graduation and college. We are taking SAT/ACT and taking College tours, filing out the applications.

Third thing…I am having issues with my blood pressure. This sucker is staying around 160/100 something every morning when I check it. Plus I have been having these headaches also. I mean I don’t know what else to do. The doctor is closely monitoring it and I check it every morning but I am struggling big time. There are days when I don’t even want to get up and go to work. I am so tired every day around 3:00 and all I want to do it sleep.

Then there is my job…..shaking my head. I love my caseload and the work I do. However things have change since my eyes have been opened and I see more clearly. Let’s just say I am really working hard toward starting my own restaurant.

I am back in this and will be posting several updates in the next couple weeks. Be blessed and not stressed and until the next time!

Love, peace and Happiness!

Tracy

Its a struggle being consistent 

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Good afternoon beautiful people!  I just wanted to blog about trying to lose weight and being at a standstill for a long period.  I really want to drop about 30 pounds and it seems that I am fighting like heck just to lose 5 pounds.  Now let’s be real.  Consistently is a must.  I must be consistent and exercise  on a regular basis.  I must be consistent about eating healthy food.  I must be consistent and get my water intake in.  There are so many more things I got to do better about.  I am very alert and aware of my weight which causes me and my scale to have this love and hate relationship.  I am constantly stepping on him just to see what he say.  (Yes my scale is a he.)  Because only a man can give you various information that’s bad majority of the time.  Lol

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I personally know that I am always looking in the mirror and I see every imperfections and every flaw on my body.  Every woman does this no matter how pretty she is.  There will always be an area that you wants fixed.  For me it is my weight. I want to lose more pounds because I am so scared of going back to fat Tracy.   I sometimes look in the mirror and all I can see is that 340 pound woman.  That vision scares the living hell out of me.   I used this as a guide to ensure that I don’t get back there.

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Nevertheless I always start planning my next day the day before.  I have everything all planned out in my head and never do ALL the things I have planned to do and usually it is the stuff that deals with eating and exercise.  If I did everything that I planned in my head I would weigh around 140 pounds.  I just got to get more consistent period. I know if I could lose a few pounds each week this would motivate me to be more consistent.  But I am just like most people I want thing to be easy and that not the case.  Even though I had the gastric bypass surgery it is still hard to keep this weight off and keep losing. Then here is the kicker when I finally meet my goals…I will start complaining about something else.  However that is not the point right now.  The point right now is being consistent as I keep saying in this post.

Another thing that bother me is when I go out to eat with family members.  I rarely eat more than 1/4 of my food.  However that don’t stop those vultures from watching and waiting for me to finish so they can swallow the rest of my food whole.  I don’t know why I let this upsets me but it does and it causes me to overeat because I know they are going to eat my leftovers.  I am working on this really hard because this type of gluttony can cause overeating which stretch Shelly the belly.  Help me LORD, because this should be my last worry. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I fight this battle that is continuous and never-ending.

I do got news to post about my tests I had this week and a couple of weeks ago.  I will post a blog about my results from the supposedly X-ray of my colon.  Please note I say supposedly….until later guys and gals!

Love, Peace and Happiness

Tracy.

 

 

 

Just taking it one day at a time

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Good morning beautiful people!  I know I have fell off on my blogging but I am going through a really rough time right now mentally.  I am just taking it one day at a time and anything extra just takes a lot out of me..  However even though I am struggling mentally.  My weight always stays at the forefront of my mind.  I refuse to let this mental stuff make me gain weight.  I am focusing on my weight more than anything and I am trying to maintain and make sure I am keeping those pounds away.  I am still walking and I am in the process of adding more miles.

Now I could never really air what is going on in my personal life but it really life changing and it is causing problems big time. I just stay prayed up and try to keep GOD first however it is still hard.  I think we all have our lows and highs that we all struggle with everyday.  I just feel that at this time my mental bags are extra heavy.  Those suckers are really dragging me down and putting a damper on my spirits.

 

Now that is enough about my mental struggles and lets talk ABOUT my results from the Endoscopy and colonoscopy. The endoscopy came out great and they did not find anything wrong however I am still fighting acid reflux and I am taking 3 medications for it.  Also my colonoscopy was failed…after going to the bathroom over 100 times in a 8 hour period. I was informed that I was still full of shit and he could not complete the procedure, however he did get one poly out and it was tested and was negative. But because they did find one poly I was schedule for a colon X-ray this upcoming week.   Now that a sucker.  I drunk 2 full bottles of that nasty junk and was still full of shit.  Now I got to do a barium enema x-ray. I hate doing these sucker.  However maybe I will lose about 5 pounds.  Heck a girl can hope and dream right!!

Peace, Love and Happiness

Tracy