Archive | July 2017

Three years…..since I embarked on this weight loss journey

Good morning beautiful people!  I am so happy because I am coming up on my three year anniversary for my weight loss surgery at the end of this month.  I have a doctor appointment to  meet with my Gastric bypass surgery doctor to look at my progress and to help me continue to meet  my goal.  This has been such a great experience that there is no way I could ever regret having this surgery.  My starting weight was 340 pounds.  I currently weigh 205.  I wear a size 14 in clothing whereas I use to wear a size 28 to size 30.  My goal weight is still 175.  So I got about 30 more pounds to drop.   

Here are my  pros since I had my RNY gastric bypass surgery.

  • One I can shop at any store now.
  • I can walk without having to feel like I am going to pass out or my feet and or back hurting.
  • I can actually take care of very personal hygiene thing without struggling.
  • I feel healthy 
  • I am not a diabetic anymore
  • I can wear heels
  • I can sit in booth at a restaurant and not have to go to a table because my stomach is so big
  • I can buy pretty shoes 
  • I can see my feet when standing up and looking down (my belly blocked my view previously)
  • I was able to have my hip replacement 
  • The best one….I feel sexy, good and happy with me.

Now this is my personal journey and I am happy as heck about it.  What’s for me is for me.  My journey can’t be like the chick next door because we are two different people.  My success may not be as great as someone else’s but I am  happy with what I have accomplished.  Because the truth be told I could still be that that overweight, depressed in pain lady with very low self esteem.  I use to worry all the time that people was talking about me because of my weight.  Now I walk through a crowd like I am parting the sea shouting “the queen is here.”  I love the new me!!

    Peace, love and Happiness!!

    Tracy 

    College choices HBCU or not?


    Good afternoon beautiful people. My 18 years old son just celebrated his birthday last week and I am so happy for my young man.  He is growing up and about to leave my home after he graduates next year.  We are in the process of visiting colleges to determine where he will further his educational goals.  He is planning on majoring in Computer engineering.  (My baby is smart y’all, spoiled but smart)  With that being said everybody don’t offer this major.  So we are limited at which schools he can attended.  Plus he refused to take his second year of Spanish because he struggle so hard in it last year and don’t want to drop his grade point average for his last year.  We have chosen three colleges that offers the program and are focusing on campus visits and don’t required the two years of foreign language.   However My son has expressed a lot of interests in Clalfin university locate in Orangeburg, SC.  We are planning a visit soon.

    Here is my dilemma… Claflin is a HBCU (Historical Black College University) and has a good stem program that focuses on jobs in this field.   The college ranking is not the issue…. Its the lack of support from other African Americans.  As soon as we mention him applying at Claflin or North Carolina A&T University there is the look of disgust on everyone face.   I don’t understand why people are so negative about attending  any HSBU now a days.  When I was in high school the show “Different World” made me want to attend a HSBU and I did.  I attended Livingstone college in Salisbury NC and didn’t return because I met my husband.  I have always supported my college and still do to this day.  I feel that things could change for the HSBU if the president did something to change the negative image that is being portrayed about the HBCU. But what makes me mad is when the CIAA tournament is held  here in Charlotte, NC the turnout are always huge.  Those same people be ready to attend the things planned that weekend.

    One thing that I can say is kids in my son’s age group,  are changing and the kids are looking at the HBCU and the enrollments are increasing for a lot of the HBCU colleges. But that ages group that is around the 30s and  late 30 are not supported of the HBCU here in South Carolina… At least the ones I have encountered.   They talk very negative and don’t have anything good to say about the schools.

    The good thing about this is my son and a lot of his friends loves the idea of attending an HBCU getting to experience everything they have to offer on the campus.  I myself have always wanted to work at one of the campus.  Because I had such a great experience when I attended Livingstone college back in the early 90s.  Nevertheless my son is looking forward to his upcoming campus visit to Claflin University!

    Love, peace and happiness!!

    Tracy

    Dealing with my hip replacement limitations

    Hello beautiful people!  As you all know I have discussed having my left hop replaced last November in 2016.  I have had problems with my hip for years and needed a hip replacement.  However no doctor would perform the surgery because my BMI was over 51 and at that time I weighed around 340 pounds.  I had my gastric bypass surgery in 2014 and waited about a year and half later to have my hip replacement surgery.

    When the pain started worsen I knew it was finally time to get the left one replaced.  However, I have seconded  guess myself at times.  For whatever reason..I had this little image in my mind that they would just take the old hip out and replace with some kind of foreign material that would perform the same duties as my regular hip bone.  Wrong, oh man I was so wrong.  What they actually did was used an ax to severe my hip bone from the other bone.  Cut and remove the head of my thigh bone.  Then they cleaned out my hip socket and remove the rest of the cartilage, the damaged arthritic bone with the cyst that covered over 50% of my hip bone.  (That’s why my doctors wanted me to use a walker.  They were scared I was going to fall and break my really thin hip.)  Then the doctor put the new hip socket in place, a liner is then placed in the new socket.   Then they did something that I failed to hear or I was sleepy….. Heck I don’t know…. All I know is I didn’t know they was going to inserted medal stem into my thigh bone. I just know I miss that little but of information.  They placed the correct-sized ball for the new hip and secure all the new parts. They repair the muscles and tendons around the new joint and close me up.  Fast forward…. To now.  

    One thing I assumed was I would be able to cut and paint, clean my left feet with out passing out from pain.  Wrong..I still can’t reach that bad boy.  My son is the one who helps me paint and cut my toenails on my left foot.  Here the thing he hasn’t cut them in months just painted them for me. Well it was time to paint then again so he told me, “Ma your nails are to long I need to cut them.”  As soon as he started… He was hollering “Oh my God” they are too long, they are curving, Ma you can’t reach them at all,  DUCK, they are thick!” He cut trimmed, remove nail polish and repaint.  I love my baby because he didn’t have to do it.  He did tell me I needed to start going to get feet done on a regular basis because he will not be here forever.  I paid him because he didn’t have to do it.

    Nevertheless I am going to contact my orthopedic doctor to get a referral to start a physical therapy program because I want to be able to reach my left feet.  Don’t get me wrong….I can walk without worrying about numbing and pain.  I just can’t reach my left foot. 

    Love, peace and happiness!

    Tracy 

    When you underestimate the weather. 

    Good morning beautiful people!! Am I the only person who plan all kinds of stuff to do in your head, that can help you meet your weight goal and don’t do it.

    Well I was determined to actually do something that I had planned in my head for a change.  So……..I plan a mile walk and only did half a mile at most.  For instant……I knew I was babysitting my beautiful baby last Saturday and she loves to take walks outside.  So I told my daughter to bring her stroller because we’re going for a walk that day.

    First mistake….I got dressed and left the house with her in the stroller eating on her snack around 11:30 in the morning.  Yea, yea…. I know ….. that’s when it is starting to get really hot. Well it wasn’t… at first.  But that changed real quick.

    Second mistake….I tried to get all glammed up….(you know pretty) big mistake… First the sun was bearing down on my wig.  (important note to remember… Wigs do not block the sun) The jeans was not comfortable to walk in and I didn’t put socks on with my tennis shoes.  You talking about a slipping and sliding mess.

    Third mistake….I should have taken A stick to fight off any creatures that decide to investigate Addie and I.  Especially since little Addie want to holler “dog” at anything with four legs and do her imitate of a growl at the creature.  Note…some animals want to growl back and attack.

    Fourth mistake….I really thought I was going to walk a whole mile out in that hot and humid mess.  I was missing the YMCA with its air conditioner, fan and TV on each machine drying my sweat.  The cold water foundation that I could go to at any given time.

    Fifth dang mistake…I forgot to download the dang walking app so I could see how many steps I took and how far I walk.

    At this point I don’t know if I will ever, ever, ever start jogging outside.  I think I am spoiled by the YMCA.

    Love, peace and happiness!

    Tracy

    My July 4th creations and hosting at my home

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    Good morning beautiful people! 

    I love hosting at my house for holidays and dinners.  I love family coming together enjoying themselves while trying new dishes I have made and they are my little guinea pigs.  What I detest is parents who don’t control their kids and let them run amuck all over my dang house.  Since I started hosting I have had three windows to get broken and nobody knows how it happened.  I end of chasing dang flies and whatever else got in the house for days.  Its like the dang parents forget they are parents and they let their kids do as they please because it’s not their house.  So yesterday… When this started happening I went off and scared the bejesus out of the kids.  Everytime they saw me coming they would run to their parent or grandparent.  Heck  I didn’t care.  If your little minions are under the age of 5 you need to keep those little bad boogies beside your butt.  I mean really I have two sets of stairs and the little rascals barely can walk and their mothers is not playing attention and the first place they head is the stairs. For whatever reason the stairs always attracts them first.  However not in my house …..or you can stay your butt home.  I am so dang tired because I chased those little suckers all night.  Next time I will make rules  about keeping  your kids with you.  I wished I had a stepper on..I know I walked over 10000  steps.  

    Rant over….Now as you can see from the videos and pictures I made three desserts.  Strawberry shortcake with cheesecake in the middle, Oreo cake with cheesecake in the middle, Red velvet Earthquake cake.  The best thing is I didn’t eat one piece.  I ate a pecan off the bottom of the red velvet Earthquake cake and that was it.  Shoot I only ate one hamburger patty and one half of a hotdog wenier.  I was to busy chasing  kids and fixing food.  Heck I know I didn’t get my protein in because I forgot to eat.  Lol. I will fixed that today.

    Love, peace and happiness beautiful people!

    Tracy

    Happy July 4th!! Rules for eating on this day.

    Good morning beautiful people! Today is one of the hardest days of the year for someone like me who has had weight loss surgery.  Because you can over endudge and stretch the heck out of your little Shellies!! 

    Hotdogs, hamburger, barbecue chicken, steaks, ribs, potatoes  and pasta salads, potatoes chips, beer, mixed drinks ….oh my the list goes on and on and my mouth just starts to water. 

    Here are some tips from Tracy…. When you go to the table to make your plate….

    • Walk right by the bread.  Leave it alone, don’t look at those sweet Hawaiian hamburger and hotdogs buns that have been cooked to perfection.  Strut, dance, do a split just walk on by!!
    • Walk by the mixed alcoholic drinks that have those little delectable pieces of fruits just floating in that beautiful color alcoholic sugar filled liquid.  The fruit just be waving and begging you to just taste one.   Don’t do it… Here is a fact that was drilled in my head by the nutritionist.   Alcohol reacts different in our bodies…(weight loss surgery patients)… first your body metabolic takes the alcohol and makes it the number one priority and burns it first therefore it is not burning your fats or carbs…. Therefore no weight loss until the alcohol all gone.  Plus we get drunk so much faster than a normal person and boy do it take forever to wear off.  I learned that real quick.  Even though I am not a drinker…I sip a little something every blue moon and then I limited it to only one or two sips.  I promise you I feel it real quick.  I never ever drive when I do… Because it lingers forever.
    • Walk by the sweets, potatoes, pasta salad and chips.. Don’t look, don’t peep don’t make any eye contact.  Just keep it moving and grab a paper towel to wipe the saliva off your lips.

    Go straight to the meats… Pick you a piece of chicken cut it in half, get you a piece of steak cut it in half, grab a ground beef patty (hamburger meat) and you guessed it …cut it in half.  You can add some cheese and mustard and ketchup to it.  Take your one bite of that chicken, steak and hamburger and walk always.  Because that’s all your little Shellies can hold anyway.  Wrap your plate for later and go mingle and laugh with family and friends.  Grab your water bottle and sip away while still looking sexy and lean.  You can do it. I know you can.  

    Now let me bake this red velvet earthquake cake and strawberry and oreo cream cheesecake cake for my cookout.  Then I will practice my own rules again.  Lol.  I know you are looking at your screen like what the hell.  But I don’t like strawberry cake and I have always detested Oreo cookies.  I never liked anything with cream in the middle.  But that dang red velvet earthquake cake….  (Shaking my head) we are going to war.  Love ya!!

    Love, peace and Happiness!!

    Happy July 4th everybody!! Be blessed!

    Tracy

    My little fat tree trunks


    Good Morning beautiful people!! I got something to share…that’s funny but really relative to learning to love yourself after weight loss surgery.  As you all know I am a self proclaimed fashionista.. I love to shop and I may be just a tiny bit addicted to shopping for the new improved Tracy.  My new focus is Lane Bryant and Catherine’s stores wide shoes.  Everytime they add some new shoes my big butt be on it.  Trying new high heels and crap like I am a pro.  Well they posted these new bad boys on their site and I had to get them.

     

    Now I know some of you are old high heel steppers are looking  at these bad boys and are saying “look at that little heel.”   Well this heel is 4.75, which is really high for me.  With that being said ….I hate the fact that Lane Bryant don’t sell their shoes in their  store anymore and you have to order online.  Because for me….shoes are one thing that I need to try on and walk in before I purchase.  I got to make sure they don’t rub the corn and if my little fat feet can get them on.

      Nevertheless when I finally  received my order I put the box in the trunk of my car and forgot about it until I got to work the next day.  Well as soon as I got to the office I pull those bad boys out to try them on in my office. Now here comes the real test which I failed.   First problem was I couldn’t buckle the shoe on the side because my tree trunks had swollen up again.  Second problem was because my tree trunks was swollen the middle strap across the top of the shoe buckle up…. Like it was fighting my fat.  Here a picture to see for yourself.Now here is the funny thing…I couldn’t walk in these bad boys…I wobble, doing the lean to the side walk and holding on to everything. My coworkers was crying laughing at me.  I kept trying to push my knee back so I could stand up straight and the knees kept buckling.  I couldn’t do my sexy chocolate walk at all.  I almost fell several times so I just threw my hands up in defeat because the dang shoes won. I thought wedges was the easiest type of high heels shoe you can wear.  Boy was I wrong and I was taking them back to get a refund.  With that being said… Some shoes and some clothing is not designed for everybody.  I personally can’t wear what everybody else wears.   Now that’s my opinion about myself, so don’t take it personally…. DO YOU BOO!  But me on the other hand I have  several friends that will say to me real quick….”No, Tracy that’s not working take that back to the store.”  like these shoes and I listen. 

    Love, peace and Happiness!

    Tracy 

    Ps.  Lane Bryant or Catherine’s are not paying me to say this.