Well I am officially here…tomorrow is the big day. I am nervous and scared at the same time. Whenever you undergo any kinds of surgery and are going to be cut there is going to be fear. Anybody that tell you different is not being real with you. I have to report to the hospital tomorrow at 6:30 and the surgery is schedule for 8:00 am.
My family is worried but they know why I have embarked on this path. In life we make all kinds of mistakes that follows us for several years from committing crimes, to marrying someone for the wrong reason, dropping out of high school or living a unhealthy lifestyle. All of these are things that we could have prevented if we would have listen to elders or other people who tried to guide us to make better choices.
Nevertheless my decision to engage in unhealthy lifestyle has now lead me to this surgery. If you’re a praying person whisper my name as you pray.
I was just reading Rob page over at http://weight2lose2013.wordpress.com/ and he was talking about riding his bike. I have not ridden a bike since I was a teenager and I do not plan on riding one anytime soon unless it is at the YMCA.
When you are blessed with bountiful booty, and extra body fat, you and bike tires do not agree on everything. For instance the tires will take off rolling down the road cussing you out once they realize you are going to try and ride on them. Lol! However true story my husband who weight a whole lot less than I, once jumped on our neice bike and instantly warped the front wheels. Nevertheless my neice was really upset with her uncle.
Now what I will ride is this bad boy right here. I want one of this sucker in the pink color. I can see myself riding all over town on this BABY. This ride is called the Streetsrider and cost around 1800.00. Right now I just don’t have the extra cash to pay for something this expensive. But I believe this bad boy coupled with my gastric bypass will help me reach my weighted goal and also help with rehabbing the hips.
I would ride this heifer to the grocery store, work, heck all over town. I would put me a little vanity plate on the back with the Rehabbing Mrs. TRACY.
Today was my last visit to meet with my nutritionist and it was confirmed that your girl had lost 29 pounds. I am happy as a I can be. This was my last visit before my surgery on the 30th of this month. I have slowly been buying products and other stuff I will need for this major change. A lot of the stuff I purchased are from the nutrition store locate at the doctor office. I know that once I leave the hospital the last thing I will want to do is go shopping. I will also buy several other things this week to ensure I get all of the protein I need.
I am also going to purchase this item to help with personal hygiene. I have been told by several individuals that because of the incisions area reaching to certain areas will cause some discomfort. Because I would hate to ask my hubby or children to do something so personal. I will buy this reach stick. I can’t see myself calling my daughter or husband to come and help Mama in the bathroom complete her personal hygiene stuff because it hurts to much to reach those areas…..Heck to the NO…you will not catch me doing that. I would rather invest in something to help me reach those places more easily.
Nevertheless I decided to purchase this bad boy which is called the Lu La Bath Brush and this sucker is 23 inches long and is flexible to move in different directions. Shoot I can reach my feet, my neck and lower back. It also had several part that you can order that will enhance its usability. (Oh yea I am not receiving any money or free products by discussing what I am purchasing to help me during my rehabilitation process.)
I also receive a call from Hillcrest Hospital where I am having my surgery today to let me know what time I will have to be at the hospital for the surgery. I will have to be there at 6:30 and surgery will be at 8:00. I am starting to get nervous all over again with butterflies feeling in my stomach when I think about it, it’s like I just met my husband for the first time. You know the feeling I am talking about when you are nervous and excited to go out with the new guy and every time you think about him you get that feeling. Right now I am getting that feeling about meeting my new self after the surgery.
How will I change, what foods will I hate but previously loved?
How will I look after the weight loss, will my booty resemble Sponge Bob square Pants booty?
Will my hair shred badly or will it continue to grow (don’t really matter because I love wigs) but nevertheless a woman never want to lose her hair. Read my previous post about this at http://wp.me/p48Fm9-4X.
Will I finally get to wear my stiletto with the wide leg cream suit? Read my previous post about this… http://wp.me/p48Fm9-5u.
Oh there is so much to look forward to, because this has been a long and tiring journey for me!!
Today my husband and I were talking about my gastric bypass surgery being rescheduled. For whatever reason he was very confused and did not understand exactly what was all involved with the gastric bypass. Now let’s all remember I have been on this trip for a minute about one year and finishing my second program through a whole new doctor office.
For whatever reason he thought I was going in for liposuction and apparently my son did also because he agreed with him.
Sometimes we have to stop thinking about ourselves and make sure that everyone around you are aware of what this surgery is really about. They have to have be informed just in case something happened.
On another note, several of my friends and acquaintances are telling me that they can tell I am losing weight. This a major non scale victory. I can tell it in my clothes, especially my shirts around the neck area. In a previous post I discussed being able to locate where the pounds come off. Glad to say pounds are coming off around my love handles and neck area.
One thing I have always pride myself on being is inspiring. I refused to be a Debbie Downer. With that being said, yes I was threw for a loop and felt like there were certain individuals that could have help but didn’t. One thing I know for fact is that Tracy is responsible for my kids, my husband and myself and in that order. I know that I got to watch out for us and always put us first. So why should I be surprised when someone else doesn’t want to help and disappears when you need them.
Nevertheless I have moved on and is eagerly waiting for my surgery date on July 30th with $1000.00 less in my pocketbook.
On another good note I have lost a total of 28 pounds!! Everybody that I see keep talking about how much weight I am losing and that if I am losing the weight do I really need the surgery. I cannot comprehension why people are saying this. Because there is no possible way that I can drink Optifast four times a day and one low-fat healthy meal everyday for $120.00 weekly forever. I could do the low-fat meals because that is what the gastric bypass requires but not Optifast forever.
As I am shrinking I am constantly thinking of a masterplan to ensure that I remain and maintain my weight loss to live a long and healthy blessed life.
Just like always there are setbacks. My surgery was reschedule until July 30, 2014. Can you say disappoint and upset. As always there are parts were there is misinformation given but it is always the patient’s fault.
I am currently on medical leave amd will return back on Thursday. My daughter and husband took several days off of work because the surgery is scheduled in a town that is located 1 hour away. These are all inconveniences which caused lost wages. Nevertheless make sure you start informed every step of the way for this type of surgery. Because this is a huge headache.
I have this really crazy friend who I love with all my heart. She and I became friends about four years ago. My friend is this beautiful natural hair single very educated sister. She started working with me and brought a ray of sunshine in our office.
She is leaving and moving on to bigger and better things. It breaks my heart that I will not be able to go into her office and scream out my frustrations because her office is vacant as of today. Even though we all want the best for our friends, you hate to lose such valuable friendship.
Nevertheless, life goes on and we progress and we have both promised to stay in touch and never lose contact. I love you my beautiful butterfly. You are free, you are free.