Why is it when I start going back to the gym after an extended absence it feels as if everybody know I have been missing and haven’t been exercising. I swear when I walk in everybody is watching me trying to see what I am going do, the big girl in me feel like it is because I am overweight.
At the same the skinny girls start pumping, running or stepping even harder…using me as motivation to stay trim. The other heavies like myself start trying to figure out if they are bigger or smaller than I am. (I have always wonder why we do that)
As soon as I choose my machine and start cleaning it…..I can feel the stares in my back. I plug my ear plugs in and find my TV channel to watch and try to block everything out. Until I have to stop and take a quick breather after every 50 calories I burn and wipe the sweat that is rolling down my cheeks. I mean come on I am not Serena William (YET) and my fitness level need a LOT of improvement. Then I got Julie the doll who keep peeping at my machine trying to do her best to do more than I do because she can’t let the big girl out do her. Heck all I am doing is racing myself.
I have set little goals to try to extend my breather. If I don’t stop and take a breather my body will take it for me. I am not one of those people screaming “feel the burns, feel the burn”. In my Kevin Hart voice I am saying “No…No, no, no, I don’t want to feel the burn.
Nevertheless I try to imagine that they are watching me because my eternal glow is shining like a bring morning sun.
Love, Peace and Exercise