On this path I have one thing that I will have to change, and it is this poor mindset that I have when I lose weight…………that I deserve a treat. This will not even be an option once I have the surgery. Why do I even think I deserve a treat is the problem and it is something that I will have to dig really deep to find out. The dictionary states that:
Resistance is 1. Opposition to somebody or something 2. Refusal to accept or comply with something. 3. The ability to remain unaltered by the damaging effect of something. 4. The ability to refrain from something in spite of being tempted. STOP right there…that it…the ability to refrain from something in spite of being tempted. This is me….. I am now in the process of figuring out how I can reward myself every time I accomplish something that makes me want a treat. The treat will have to be low fat, sugar free and low carbs. The search is on, because from all of my research and what my nutritionist’s is telling me, I will not be able to even handle anything with sugar.
I do believe that my Mother, my late Father and all of my ancestors are the reason that I love food so much and always want some kind of treat. We all considered ourselves master chefs. Everything had to be seasoned with fat or cooked in fat. Every vegetable was season with Fatback, and this was a major staple in our homes. Everything was fry in greased. Usually that greased was saved from a previous meal in the old Crisco can. I know everybody remember the Crisco can on the stove with the leftover cooking grease (lol). Let’s not talk about the desserts. I started making cakes, brownies, and other sweets straight from scratch; I didn’t even know who Betty Crocker was. I was Betty Crocker and so was Mama, and both my Grandmothers, Great Aunts.
Nevertheless this is why my whole family has always some kind of weight problem. My Mother is overweight and has recently lost about 60 pounds by changing her eating habits. I also have 2 sisters and we were all overweight at one time another. My youngest sister has lost a lot of weight and she is able to keep it off…but she has substituted it with smoking cigarettes. My middle sister actually had the Gastric bypass about 8 years ago and she lost about 150 pounds but she has since gained a lot of her weight back and is in the process of getting a revision. We will probably have our surgery around the same time so we will be good support for each other. Our conversation always center on our weight and dieting and trying to make sure our kids can lose or maintain healthy weight. You know you are overweight when all you talk about is your weight.
Wish me well as I have some quiet time with myself and discover other ways of treating myself as I am embarking on this trip.
PEACE, LOVE and HAPPINESS